/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Had a friend
>First few months were gold
>Found new best friend and I was so happy
>Best friend is depressed a lot
>That's ok. Work with him on a lot of things
>Now I can't help him with everything. So I ask him to seek professional help when he mentions suicide.
>Says he can't because he has no insurance
>Understand but recommend ways of dealing with it. Hotlines and clinics. Things of that nature
>Says those things don't help
>Things progressively get worse
>Feel like I'm repeating myself when I tell him I love him and care when he says he feels worthless and like a shit friend.
>Cries suicide every other week now
>Can't live my life without constant fear of him killing himself
>Have to text him constantly or he spirals out of control thinking I hate him
>I want him better. But I can't keep being his friend because it feels like manipulation now.
>Feels bad man

>gain 30 pounds in a year
>try and lose it by going to the gym 5 times a week and cutting calories
>tired and hungry all the time
>takes 6 weeks to lose 3 pounds
>boyfriend/gym-buddy losing 4x as much
>lose hope
>never look good in j fashion or cosplay
>cry

>>7954608
>tfw living at home for school too
>Nigerian parents
>Mom actually did destroy my wardrobe once

>family argument reaches critical mass
>tfw I might not make my next convention
>tfw I wanted to buy some accesories and small things to finish some loli coords for said con and now I have to focus on expenses with moving out
>tfw I wanted to spend my spring break sewing and improving my older cosplay but I have to pack shit instead

It's not that this crap is happening, I could kind of handle it otherwise, it's just happening at a very bad time.