/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I think I need to see a doctor, one of the reasons being I can never seem to complete projects, even when I still feel really investing in them. The other reasons aren't /cgl/ related, so I'll leave them out. I have these costumes that I've gotten at least partially done, but even though I'm still interested in them I can't seem to finish. I can only ever finish things for other people. I can't focus or think straight anymore though, so I keep on injuring myself when trying to do things. Cut my finger open while being careless the other day, brushed it off and just waited for the blood to stop flowing so it wouldn't get on anything. Instead of working on any of these numerous projects, I'm sitting here drinking whiskey and hating myself. The only time I've been able to be at all productive and felt okay was when a friend gave me some adderall after a long shift at work, even though I've never had any sort of ADD problem and it was way too intense (I played Windwaker for 13 hours straight and got dehydrated to the point I kept licking my lips and didn't go to the bathroom or get up at all during that time). I feel like such a fucking mess. I just want to go out and nerd out in my chinese cartoon costumes. Or get involved in some of the j-fashion comms instead of just lurking all the time. Only positive is that I have been able to keep my body looking good and my skincare routine going in the hopes that I'll actually finish something, though I want to get thinner with some more muscle.

>>8959934

Problem is no one is in /cgl/ mode all the time. Its like meeting people at cons. You both obviously like anime/nerdy shit. But you don't know how the other person is when he's not at con's.

I met this girl at a con and kept up with her since she lives close by. A few months later I hang out with her and we end up going to my apartment. We get to my room and the first thing she sees is a 870 shot gun in the corner (which was dumb of me) she sorta freaks out and starts asking questions and stuff. I tell her firearms was another of my hobbies and how I was in the army and other stuff. It goes into politics eventually and we just disagree on everything. We didn't fuck. I drove her home and we've just texted casually ever since. I think she's afraid of me.

Also I like to drive fast and take mountain roads. I dont think I can find a woman yo match my crazy.