/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>warmest time of the year
>accidentally drop heavy load to your leg
>luckily nothing broke but it left big ass bruises
>can't wear ankle socks because of it
>OTKs or tights will be too hot
>mfw I can't be kawaii this summer

I'm nervous about introducing myself to a comm I want to join this coming sunday. I'm generally a nervous person with people to begin with, and my FB has very little lolita pics on it. (Very little pics in general, as I rarely use it anyway)
I think the only one I have is a harry potter coord I wore to a harry potter festival 2 years ago.
I'm terrified of them thinking I'm going to be some cringey newb ita.
I'm fretting over what coord I should wear to introduce myself. The OTT Hime Taobao set I have? Keep it simple with fruity cafe? Wear my dream dress from meta (Brick house) with all it's matching accessories? Go balls to the wall and wear honey cake?
Ahh, I just want nicely dressed lolita friends.

>tfw shrink tells me I'm too broken to make friends
Someone's got to be eighty years old, dying alone in a Baby dress, I guess

>>9997545
A-atleast I look young, r-right?

>my world was totally shattered about two weeks ago and ever since I've felt completely dead inside, things were shitty beforehand but now nothing will ever be the same and even my "happy" past memories are corrupted
>I feel consumed by negative emotions moreso than any other time in my life
>nothing gives me any lasting positive feelings, any sprinkle of positive emotion is extremely fleeting and almost immediately replaced by a negative emotion or a flat feeling of nothingness at best
>already medicated and take my meds religiously
>haven't left house other than to run quickly into stores in weeks
>haven't made myself look cute or worn any makeup in months
>have been avoiding speaking to friends even though they are reaching out to me and wanting to help

I just don't feel like anything can help me. I'm so scared of subjecting others to my negativity and I don't want to burn any bridges. I just feel like a complete shadow of my former self. I hope I'm able to metaphorically resurrect my personality at some point, when I've removed myself from the dumpster fire that is my family.

>>9892744
I'm the OP who originally used the phrasing. English is my first language so there's no excuse other than it being a type of phrasing I've used for years. Honestly I'm actually pretty buttmad that because of pixielocks and her cringey fans I can't say something I've said for years without people thinking I'm emulating her. ick ick ick

I'm not even mad at you for pointing it out. Now I'm not gonna be able to say it again without kicking myself.

>>9790536
It's tragic. I'm so bored I've resorted to sifting through shit.

>heard about alleged sexual assault of girls the same ages as my friends are
>text them to make sure that they're okay
>no reply an hour later
>terror.jpg

I'm 99.9% sure that they're fine, but god forbid that it's them.

>>9735402
I think I may have emailed you earlier this year but then ghosted because of a severe depression episode followed by forgetting my password to the throwaway email.

>>9694771
tfw I'll never buy first hand JetJ

Do you have any traditions for when you're walking on your cosplays?
Listen to certain music? Eat good food at the completion for celebration?

I always watch the extended edition of all the lord of the rings movies as I'm working on my cosplays.

(I also lay down, try not to cry, but cry anyway)

>Wanna be a cute lolita who plays an instrument
>Feel too old to learn any

I didn't have any interest in music as a child but now it has grown into me. Why it didn't happen earlier?

>>8492870
Meh. I liked the horns and the clown coord. :/