/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>break off friendship with two people due to them excluding me from everything and being shitty people (like physically hitting me, name calling, etc.)
>out $100 but finally don't have to deal with their shit
>back into anime/manga and jfashion
>shitty friends not here to make fun of me for it
>have no friends currently but at least it's better than toxic friends.

Overall good feels. Almost done with P5 and I want to cosplay as Ann or something.

>get into lolita in 8th grade
>never buy it because expensive
>fast forward to me being 20 years old
>can afford it if I get a job
>too fat to fit in it now

Honestly I want to fucking kill myself. I used to be 135 lbs at 5'0 which isn't /thin/ but easier to fit into burando than the 185 at 5'0 which I am now.

If I got down to 140 lbs I would be so fucking happy. I don't even eat that much but I have severe depression which makes it hard for me to function let alone lose weight.

>feeling satisfied with costume for the night
>cons on saturday, just have to attach lining to fashion fabric for bodice and hem the fucking skirt
>cool I can sleep well tonight
>marathoned Stranger Things while sewing
>now I cant fucking sleep

>tfw your room is so hot you feel like your sewing in an actual sweat shop

>tfw you're exhausted from fanime and a family trip right before that
>tfw only one day at home before having to go out of town for two weeks for other stuff so no time to rest
>tfw you can feel AX breathing down your neck looking at your unfinished cosplays.

Kill me anons.

Just got into LA, got my stuff all packed and finished just gotta make the drive from here to San Jose tomorrow. Super super excited for con!

I will say though that fuck this state is hot. And its not even mid summer yet. If I dont melt here then I'm pretty sure AX is going to kill me.