/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

not sure if it fits but
>be awkward and weird
>decide to meet new people by going to a party hosted by friend
>wear new dress i made and shoes looking presentable at least
>slow start but meet amazing guy and we hit it off
>nervous and uncomfortable almost shaking but feeling good and excited at the same time, it's really warm, loud etc
>he tries to kiss me
>throw up in his face, over my dress and shoes
>so much shame and embarrassment i have an out of body experience
>spend the weekend trying to get vomit out of the dress and contemplating suicide