/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be me
>feeling dead end finishing college without any good experiences
>get depressed and fail semester
>meet qt at con and have good times
>spend a fuckton of time with qt over like two months
>fall in fucking love with qt
>gets me over what was making me feel like shit before
>tell her, tells me that she isnt looking for something like that
>still try to be friends
>starts to get ghosty, i get super anxious and ask how she feels about everything
>says she's uncomfortable and feeling harrased
>surprised but glad for the honesty, let her know that
>pledge to leave her be after that
>fast forward 6 months
> still not over it or her
>feeling even more dead and jaded than ever before
>no confidence to try to talk to girls any more or ways to relate, kind of terrified now
>gonna die alone
>see no way about getting over it other than an hero