/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Been interested in lolita since I was a tiny middle school weeb
>Never had the funds to wear it, been wearing other more casual j-fash styles
>Always dreamt on becoming a lolita
>Been active in cgl and lurking lolita communities for ten years now. Livejournal, cgl, social media, I've seen it all
>Already know my preferred style and have a plethora of dream dressed
>25 now, just graduated college and got a good job on my own field
>Finally a good chunk of disposable income
>Go look for dresses to buy
>Can't bring myself to buy any of them, it all feels meaningless
>Will lolita add anything to my life? Is there a point in buying dresses? Is my dream fucking stupid? Will I just feel like I wasted my money?

It's a complicated feel