/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>tfw I've always been a huge introvert
>start seeing a therapist to help overcome depression and trauma from an abusive relationship
>helps me be more open with people so I can make friends
>start talking in class, greeting people and starting conversations
>people respond kindly but I haven't made any friends
>try being more open about cosplay as a last resort even though it was embarrassing
>still no friends
>mfw I'll forever be a boring background character no one cares about

I haven't had a real friend in almost 7 years. I've been pushing myself so hard to be more social and hoping someone will take an interest in me to the point I get so emotionally drained I break down regularly. It shouldn't be this hard just to feel liked by someone.

All I have left is my mom and she doesn't have much time left. I'm gonna be so lonely

>get into /cgl/'s Secret Santa
>send out multiple gifts and have the best time shopping for anons
>get my own gifts
>excited opening them
>get good gifts
>feel nothing from it
>volunteer to send out extra gifts, feel excited
>still waiting on last gift to get to me and a card
>feel nothing

I get the same way about Taobao shopping now. I spend weeks or even months planning an order and I'm so excited but after everything gets here I just put it away and don't do anything with it. I bought a bunch of merch for a series I love and they've sat in a box for two weeks now forgotten.

I'm already working on my Taobao order for my next convention but I'm wondering if it'll be the same where I drop all this money on amazing costumes only to feel nothing except when I'm posing for pictures or getting compliments.

I just want the happiness to last.

>tfw you're a weirdo thirsty overly-dramatic less than 18 years old overly sjw creepy neckbeard rude stalker lewd bully clingy catty gossiper koreaboo lolita at heart shrug homo transphobic perverted liberal male cosplayer idiot judgemental trump supporter gross jerk, who likes to talks about politics and wants to have a romantic and sexual relationship that involves exchanging dick pics and casual sex, might kill people in their sleep, thinks white men are inherently evil, loves drama, takes cgl and being salty seriously, is too pretty, hates fatty chans, has poor behaviour, is a dick, is a girl obsessed with drama and nobody wants to talk to you

AM I DOING SOMETHING WRONG?

>saving money for 11.11
>trying not to go over my budget
>cut back a lot of stuff I don't really need from wishlist
>cave and buy a wig and a new phone case
>going through college grades today
>Hurricane Matthew fucked up late start class
>TWO WEEKS OF ASSIGNMENTS DUE IN 7 DAYS!
>scramble to get it all turned in
>grades suffer for it
>teacher makes remarks on everything pointing out what I missed/did wrong
>essay outline due
>decide to put extra work into it to make up
>"Anon, did you upload the wrong assignment? This is more a rough draft than an outline."
>fucking cry like a baby, nothing I do for this teacher is right
>buy myself something cheap off wishlist to make myself feel better

This is the first class I've taken where I really feel stupid. I had to email him and explain that I didn't upload the wrong assignment. Even though he said he wasn't trying to be critical, it's just that no one put that much effort into an outline, I still felt so stupid. Nothing I do is right in this class.

>mfw I just got Jaehee's good ending with passionate "female friendship is as good as any hetero relationship" speech

Ja-Jaehee..!!

>>9065442
>tfw you're communist trash and will never find a bf that will fuck you in a SS uniform

>>8933226
Hnnnnnnng it's already hitting me I am crying while I am taking a shlt.

>tfw nobody wants to bromance with you or forge a ever lasting friendship.

>pet has tumour
>go to vet
>too old to operate
>scratched and chewed the area raw (theyre known to do it - to try and get rid of it)
>given antibiotics to clear up the area
>bit me this morning so clearly in pain
>do i put down while hes relatively ok
>eating, sleeping, doing normal rodent things
>or do i wait until he's worse so he can stil have time with his buddy then put him to sleep when he's too ill to do normal rodenty things
>too many pet feels

I love my pets but man i hate decisions like this