/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>someone bought a bag I wanted because I was stupid and tried to save 500 yen
>you never know what you've got till it's gone
>for the first time feel what it is to dream of some item
>will probably never see it on sale again

>wanted to buy two matching wallets
>one is not in stock
>with no matching bag feel like there's little point in getting any

>denying being underweight for a long time
>finally weigh self
>51.5 kg
>at 175 cm

>suffering depression for a long time
>going through some of the most difficult times in life
>promised my bf that neither of us will die before the other
>sticking to the promise dearly
>suddenly feeling like breaking it

It's too much at once gulls… And it's not even all that is troubling me. I don't know what to do.
Getting something to enjoy was supposed to cheer me up, but now it feels like the nail to the coffin.