/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I am living with my boyfriend until I find a place of my own and a job and save a little bit, but something happened that set me back and I am at basically step 1 again and will have to stay a little longer
My boyfriend doesn't let me go out and do anything because he says it's dangerous (we're in the city) and originally he used to say he liked my clothes but now he won't let me wear them anymore and says they attract too much attention so he feels more like a bodyguard when we're going out and he hardly ever compliments me or anything and gets angry at me when he sees me sad or upset and I want to move out so much, and I can't really save up fast enough.
This whole thing is hard because my living situation is relying on him right now until I save up again so I have to not anger him too much and not make him not like me being around.
Almost all we really do are things -he- wants to do, I can't go out or do anything because he says I need to stay with him, I feel empty because I can't even wear my Jfashion clothes, he doesn't ever really say I look cute in anything I actually like and tells me to wear normal things all the time because he thinks I look "sexy" in them, but I don't want to look sexy... I like my fairy kei clothes and I like to feel cute and I want him to like them too and think I look good in the things I like, and he gets mad and stresses me out often but I can't do anything about it.
Also I have to act like I'm not sad or upset when I am or else he'll get super angry at me so I have to act happy and he will tell me to hug him and kiss him and it makes me feel weird because it's like I'm upset at him and sad but I have to act happy and do stuff he wants and have to be affectionate and it just kind of leaves me feeling like a puppet and I start feeling happy hugging him but I know it is just because he is cute and warm...
I know I actually need to try to leave whenever I can and I can't just stay here like this.