/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

At the risk of getting shit and sounding like a little bitch...

>Female. Struggled with gender/sex issues all my life.
>In daily life I just wear men's clothing.
>When in costume it is a completely different game.
>Love cosplay and playing as a character.
>Love cosplaying both female and male characters.
>My love of cosplaying female characters is dying.
>As I get hounded by friends and family...telling me "See? You can be a beautiful woman if you want to." "You don't need to see a therapist." "You are obviously confident in women's clothing while cosplaying...so you should be comfortable wearing women's clothing ALL the time." "See? It's okay to be a girl." "You really should wear women's clothing outside of anime cons."
>Feel like absolute shit hearing this.
>Now at a point where I whenever I see a female character I want to cosplay...I just break down and get depressed.
>Start to hate myself.
>Can't bring myself to do it anymore.

Pic is a character I use to dream about cosplaying.