/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I feel like a dumbass, even more than usual. I have bad grades, I(m bad at managing my time and money, I have such a shit self-esteem that I never understand if people are nice to me because they like me or because they want to have sometimes to laugh at behind my back, etc. It's so bad that I can't even look for a job right now because I have no idea how it's like and I feel like I'll fuck up eveything I'll do.

People my age, the ones I know anyway, have their own flat, a driver license and their own car, an SO, they look old enough to be taken seriously. Meanwhile I'm too poor to move out, only rely on my scholarship to buy anything, and I'm a kissless virgin that nobody wants.

The only thing that keep me going is going to local cons with the very few friends I have and spend money on useless anime and video game merchandises.