/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I've been having a hard time dealing with lack of social interaction through this pandemic. I suck at initiating conversations (on messages apps/chatrooms) normally, I always feel like I'll be a nusiance if I do. And it doesn't help that most of the chatrooms I participate in like to engage in healthy amounts of teasing and light bullying, and I always take the bait.
What really sucks is that I honestly need a place to let off steam, and without having somewhere like that where I can just enjoy conversing with people really helps me feel more motivated to work on things, like cosplay or art. I don't really know how to deal with this situation, it feels like I'm always putting myself in situations where I end up as the victim and I don't have much say in it.
And what's honestly funny is that IRL I'm more than personable with plenty of people, and in the very least with my roommates. Having just my family around while they're all busy dealing with their own work problems makes me feel invisible.