/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm a lonelita, and this board has been my connection to other people in the fashion for years...
but I'm so dissatisfied and disappointed in the quality of discussion these days.
I want so badly to sperg out with people irl, and hang out with folks who are genuinely interested in coording well and looking nice.
I want lolita friends so badly. I'm obsessed with this fashion and I deeply believe it should be inclusive, as long as you look well put together.
I can no longer tell if the hateful ideologues on here are a very vocal minority or if this closed-mindedness is a growing trend. it's tiresome.
At least if I had a real comm nearby, people would keep this shit to themselves and I could exchange about the fashion without such negativity.
Being a gull has opened me up to the possibility that I'm very likely a high functioning autist, just never tested for it, and it's really nice to share info with the other autists peppered about this board who are dedicated to this hobby on basically a scholarly level as well as an artistic level.

I don't plan on leaving /cgl/ because I couldn't possibly rely on a comm, filled with diverse people and personalities, as an outlet for my sperging. But, I desperately need a balance of positive interactions and fun within this hobby. I would love it if I could hurry up and find a job in a bigger city and enjoy fancy as well as casual events with other lolitas.

>Go to convention
>Guy in our friend circle (R) talks to me at a party
>Late night we're the only two up, so we hang out
>Talk every day for months afterwards
>Arrange to hotel together at a future con
>He finds out this friend of his from another circle, F, is coming and will be in his hotel, and tells me I can't stay with him
>??? okay I'm kinda pissed but I make do.
>F doesn't end up coming, so I can stay with R.
>We hook up that weekend, as was predicted
>Have a talk later and he tells me he has feelings for me but doesn't want to pursue them cause of distance. I definitely have feelings for him too

Flash forward to last weekend
>Ask him if I can room with him again. He says he can't because he's rooming with F and a girl from the other side of the country, S
>Get to the con and he's ignoring me the whole time
>End up chatting up S and becoming friends with her
>We all end up hanging out throughout the weekend together
>Find out that F isn't staying in their room, it's just S and R together. Kinda weird?
>Last night there's a big afterparty, all 3 of us go.
>I get drunk and courageous and ask R if he and S are together. He says they're not.
>R starts flirting with me and being all touchey, and I'm doing the same back
>He invites me back to their hotel room, I'm confused but also drunk as fuck so I go hearing promises of "just cuddling"
>Get back to the hotel and he starts making out with me in the bathroom
>Suddenly S bursts open the door and starts slapping him
>She tells me to gtfo so I go and stand outside the door, confused as fuck and not sure how to get home
>I hear her yelling at him, and deduce that she's his girlfriend and that they've been dating for years and that he's put me in the "other woman" position
>I knock on the door, crying because I am so entirely against cheating and try to talk to S and apologize but R wont let me
>Eventually I go back to my room and then go home the next day

I'm so sad and confused right now gulls

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