/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Lady Sloth's second bat dress reservation is out
>size s is 92cm
>be 5ft tall

How does it even translate with poor? I don't buy lolita often because I'm poor.

>tfw no Sengoku Nadeko cosplay to go with your faceless old man cosplay

>moved to a new city to transfer schools, no friends
>suffer from depression, but it wasn't too bad all things considering.
>even find a friend from my high school who was interested in cosplaying!
>she wants to have a weeb night!
>start feeling better about moving.
>queue winter break
>depression hits me like a brick, don't know why.
>high school friend drops off the face of the Earth for a bit
>person I was interested comes back from break and is now completely ignoring me
>actually was going to tell him that we shouldn't be friends anymore, but at least I wanted to have the decency to have that awkward talk.
>try getting involved in school to combat depression
>mainly just want to skip rehearsals for something I forced myself to do
>just feel even more alone
>the two cons I was looking forward to need to be cancelled because of lack of funds-- work has been few and far between
>too afraid that friends will hate me to tell them
>but also if I don't tell them, they'll be angry
>one's actually already angry at me because she thinks I don't want to cosplay with her anymore.
>I shouldn't even be upset because she was being a bitch about the cosplay group I would have to bail on (hilariously, I'm still the furthest along with the costume).
>know that she'll throw a fit because I'm going to a different con in two months, despite the fact that I'm working there, getting paid for it, and it's super close to my dad's house so I'll crash there instead of a hotel.
>person I liked's friends start talking to me
>not sure if double agents or if he didn't tell them
>really don't want to find out because they're really nice to me and are actually my sunshine right now.
>kind of just want to roll over and kill myself, though.

I'll admit, I won't. I've come a long way with my depression and suicidal thoughts to know that shit's temporary, but I don't like the constant envisioning of myself jumping off a building or throwing myself in front of the train. Shit gets really vivid.

>>9202341 is me.

>had a little bit saved in a cosplay fund that I was contemplating on what to work on for
>had pretty much decided a couple days ago
>Just need to move the money from my Acorns account to my bank account!
>Last night, have a dream about my friends from before I moved to the middle of nowhere
>Wake up and immediately start sobbing.
>Text one
>"You're still coming to visit us this month, right anon?"
>Explain I have no job still
>Look at Acorns cosplay savings
>Welp, looks like I'm spending that.

I think overall, it'll be good for me to go visit them again. I don't make friends very easily or feel really emotionally attached to the ones I do make, so the fact that I made a few of those is really important to me. I can also go see my nephew and his mom who I used to see nearly every day since I lived three blocks from them.

>inb4 you should be using that money for rent/food/whatever

I do have enough money to last me a while with that. It's everything else I can't really afford to budget in.

>At work there's this beautiful guy
>I'm shy as fuck so I never really talked to him
>"Friend" tries to set us up
>Ends up pulling a Regina George and dating him
>Whatever it's not like I talk to him anyways
>We actually strike up a conversation
>Turns out he's a nerd
>Want to be his friend and dress him up
>Regina George starts spreading rumors at work saying I'm trying to steal her man
>Barely even talk to him still

>Fast forward a couple weeks
>He calls himself single to a coworker
>????
>End up drunk messaging him one night, didn't think too much about it. I was texting a bunch of people.
>Friend says he was flirting with me
>????
>Him and Regina George break up
>This is my chance!
>Realize that he's too cool for me and probably won't want to go to cons
>Probably wouldn't let me dress him up as the other half of my OTPs
>Realize I'm moving away anyways
>Realize I really like him and should have actually grown some balls to begin with.

He's definitely out of my league. I'll just stare from afar for the next three weeks.

I have serious self esteem issues
I am so hungry for fame
I feel like shit. I feel insignificant, unnecessery, good for nothing
I am jealous of my famous friends
I am embarrassed

I need help

>starting uni in the fall
>honors student, living in nice dorm. excited.
>"all right, I just need a roomate/suitemate!"
>have pretty bad anxiety - also has a condition where seizures happen at random times due to anxiety so having a good suitemate/roomate that I know is a must for me
>good friend who I haven't spoken to in forever needs roomate/suitemate too
>weren't super close in hs but her family is pretty chill and we were dance partners when we were little
>she's an engineering major and I'm undecided but the school says our request will probably work out
>request one another and we're both excited
>fuckyeahman.jpg
>five months pass
>uni is making assignments
>housing calls me yesterday saying that assignment won't work out because of her major
>engineering majors are recommended to live on the same floor because they have pretty hard classes and such
>the housing lady says that if we room together my friend would miss crucial internship oppps and she would have less success in her classes
>what but my friend and I made an agreement she'll never agree to this
>friend sends me a text early today
>the housing department told her the same thing and she's really scared she'll fail her classes so she decided to live on the engineering floor w/ a random roomie
>now really scared because I like stability in my life and I really want someone who I can trust near me at least for the first year
>trying to brush it off for the sake of my friend but I'm still super sad

I'm not really mad at her even though it was her decision. I'm just mad the housing department didn't tell us this five months ago and they told us it would be fine and there would be no problems.

>con is in late April
>just bought cosplay off internet
>chose express shipping
>even then might not make it in time

>>7296491
I feel your pain. I'm 5'1 and have size 10 feet. The thing is, everyone in my family has small feet, with my mom and sister being size 4's. They can share shoes and shop in the same section at shoe stores. I can comfortably fit into my dad's workboots, but they're not exactly cute. Apparently I get it from my grandmother.

Maybe some day they'll be a surgery for getting smaller feet. ;_;

>>6464441
i think you're the anon i was complaining with yesterday.. no, i haven't. i messaged them, but they haven't even replied to a message i sent over a week ago. i'm hoping they sent it out but forgot to update my order with the tracking number.