/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm 23 and a virgin (female) because I have huge trust issues with men. I was bullied a lot in middle school by boys and afterwards the only guys I've kind of dated have been ultimate possessive creepy beta males (because I didn't realize what a "nice guy" was until recently) who ditched me after realizing I'm not something you just stuff presents into and sex falls out. I'm not fat or even chubby, I take care of myself and my looks and personality.

Slowly all my friends are getting into relationships and I'm realizing that I can't rely on my friends to be there forever. As I get older, they're bound to find husbands/boyfriends who become their whole life afterwards. But I still can't find myself to be able to trust men, to pursue a relationship with one, and the thought of sex scares me shitless.

I'd like to be normal and go on with my life, wake up in the morning laying next to a man I love and just have someone who I can trust but one too many bad experiences have just ruined it for me. I don't want to force it and find someone just because I *have to*, but.. yeah. It's not like men want a clumsy 23-year old virgin in their bed when there's an option. Sometimes I like to browse those "when did you lose your virginity" and let out a heavy sigh at every "omg I'm 17 and still a virgin is there something wrong with me" message. Especially when a "you're a little old but don't worry" reply pops up.

Fuck this shit. Sorry.

>mfw I'm still alone with my gorgeous 2D husbandos at age 38

tl;dr: 23 year old female virgin afraid of men hates her non-existent relationships