/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm essentially a single, young mother to kids who aren't mine due to various reasons. The whole situation leaves me so tired that sometimes all I can do is lay on the floor half asleep while they crawl all over my limp body like a jungle gym. I am so lethargic in that I can barely get up in the mornings, take showers, and put on clothes. I'll eat the left over baby mush instead of making my own food sometimes, since we can barely afford food in the first place and I don't have the energy to cook what we do have. Often times I just don't shower or change, I sit in a pile of self pity in 5 day old crusty clothes.

I just want to crawl in a hole to watch the world pass by as I slowly rot away. I'd gladly die now if my death could some how benefit any of the people I love, give these kids a better shot at life, or ease the burden on my family. But it won't, so I trudge on every day hating life.

There's not much anyone can do but thanks for listening seagulls. c: