/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be me, lonelita and a shut-in
>want to try going to a meet again
>plan a cute coord that matches the event and everything
>meet is in about a week
>probably not going to actually go because i'm too shy

i went to one meet last year and everybody was nice, but i held in so much anxiety and cried a lot when i came home. i don't want to come off as a weirdo because i don't talk a lot and i stutter when i do. i'm okay with not being part of a comm but i just want friends.

>tfw this guy can get action at cons by cosplayers and I never can

>checking out the blogs that reblogged my coord pic
>one of them ends up being a hardcore thinspo blog
>see pic of my coordinate among tons of self-deprecating text posts and pictures of emaciated people

something about this just makes me feel really empty inside. like, i just want to make people happy and share the things i love and i still managed to hurt somebody/encourage damaging behavior. it's not their fault or anything, but wow i feel absolutely disgusting