/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

> Has gender issues
> Used to play with boys toys and video games as kid
> Cousins used to call me a man and people mistake me for a guy in real life all of the time
> hated heels, dresses, anything girly
> Hates girl gender because of double standards with being a girl
> Family thinks its a phase
> Dislikes being a girl even more when puberty starts
> Doesn't like periods or boobs at all
> People still call anon 'sir' 'mr.' etc. before they do a double take
> Some people still think I'm a man
> People who don't think I'm an easy fuck and try to hit on me/stalk me
> Now around mid twenties and still doesn't feel comfortable being a girl
> Only girly thing anon likes are shimapan and certain cosplays because "I love that character!"
> Really low self esteem
> Was made worse due to shitty relationships with guys calling me 'werewolf' 'beast' and 'manly' and only good for a fuck
> Thought about going on the T but it causes my hormone levels to be out of whack so doctor says its a no go.
>Can't do surgery because too scared/doesn't have six/ten months to take off of work
> "You're just confused anon, it's just a phase" by everyone around me as an adult.

To make it worse my family is old fashion and used to be into incest.