I broke down crying today

[Anonymous No.21487847]

Here comes a blog post so don't read if it's not your thing.

What my average day looks like:
>6.30AM wake up and get ready for work
>Take modafinil and caffeine
>check binance
>I wear a rotation of the same 5 outfits, same shoes every day
>8AM office job where I send emails and look i into issues for customers, minimum wage.
>between tasks, check binance
>get overall 1 hour worth of unpaid breaks, don't eat breakfast or lunch
>just listen to music, lurk on /biz/ and check binance
>I get along with the people at my work, but they're clearly not my friends
>6PM get the bus home
>along the way I lurk on /biz/, listen to music and check binance
>I go to the store and buy dinner, probably a microwave meal unless it's Friday when I have pizza
>8PM - 2AM listen to music, post on /biz/ and check binance.
>repeat

Today's Sunday. I was cooking mac n cheese out of a box listening to this and suddenly I broke down and cried. First time I've cried in a while.
https://youtu.be/su21xFyM5eI

[Anonymous No.21487869]

>>21487847
faggot

[Anonymous No.21487884]

>>21487847
lol

[Anonymous No.21487886]

Sleep more you idiot

[Anonymous No.21487894]

I’m sorry, anon.

[Anonymous No.21487931]

>cuck malone

lmoa

[Anonymous No.21487932]

This is a sell signal

[Anonymous No.21487953]

You work 10 hours a day for minimum wage? And sleep 4 hours?
Nobody deserves this.

[Anonymous No.21487971]

>>21487847
here:
fix sleep, download non-fiction audiobooks for your bus rides, just close your eyes and listen; start lifting, eat something for lunch

[Anonymous No.21487975]

>>21487847
You are taking too much moda. Watch out anon. Also your taste in music is shit.

[Anonymous No.21487991]

>>21487847
no sleep makes for an unfocused mind, an unfocused mind makes for weak hands, man up or get out before you lose what little dignity you have

[Anonymous No.21487997]

If not larp, then realize that constantly watching and waiting on a chart to explode is one of probably one of the most detrimental things you can go through if you have anxiety and stress related issues. For one I would say check once a month, or just set alerts through an exchange app. If you have a gf spend more time with her and do normal human shit. Quit watching numbers, buy in, HODL and live your life. Also maybe buy an exercise bike and start cycling in front of the Screen in your living room at peak cardio level if you’re completely addicted to numbers

[Anonymous No.21488035]

>>21487847
Been there. Figure out what you want in life the most and work towards getting it otherwise we'll both be stuck in a world with no promise of anything. Hang tough dude, you got this.

[Anonymous No.21488045]

>>21487847
You should go to the gym man

>>21487932
top kek (sad tho)

[Anonymous No.21488063]

>>21487847
>probably a microwave meal unless it's Friday when I have pizza

you're american, right?

chicken, rice, beans, vegetables

it's not fucking hard

[Anonymous No.21488095]

>>21487847
>wake up at 4:45AM for work
>shit my brains out violently cause Crohn's
>cant drink coffee cause Crohn's, but wouldnt anyway cause intermittent fasting
>check robinhood and indeed
>put on one of my 3 outfits in rotation
>go to work at shitty part time job in a grocery store
>break time, 15 minutes for anything under 7 hours
>check indeed and Robinhood
>go home at around noon
>play vidya for maybe an hour and a half
>check indeed
>bed
>everyone at work is friendly and nice, I wager that I would be able to hang with any one of them if I asked, but I dont

[Anonymous No.21488127]

>>21488095
BOOM BOOM CLAP
BOOM BOOM CLAP
BOOM BOOM CLAP

[Anonymous No.21488136]

>>21487847
Wtf does this have to do with /biz/?
The fact that you check binance?
Fuck off

[Anonymous No.21488142]

>>21487953
>>21487991
>>21487886
A lot of it's by choice. I've made $30k in five months from staying up and trading crypto. Growing up we had nothing so this is really important to me.
>>21487997
I wish it was. And no, I don't have a gf.

[Anonymous No.21488176]

>>21488063
>you're american, right?
no

[Anonymous No.21488255]

>>21488136
you can report the thread if you wan't

[Anonymous No.21488282]

>>21487847
because you are routine faggot
YOU ARE FUCKING ROUTINE!
Do something else after work, faggot.
Go for a walk, sit on a bench, be that weird faggot sitting in park and watching people.
Think, faggot.
Claim city block as yours. Go around and memorize all fucking places in that block.
Think, faggot.
Watch building sites, watch workers doing their jobs there. Memorize what they do, search google work job titles, look up what contractors pay them.
Compare their work to yours. Think, faggot.
Think, faggot.
Think, again, you routine faggot.
Start cooking yourself something, learn to make dough. Cook for yourself, faggot.
Think, faggot, because you are routine faggot, who will die without ever trying to mix an egg into a dough.
what a faggot...he even cries dreaming about non existing life.
It's because you never try something else.

[Anonymous No.21488284]

>>21488127
Thankfully my place isn't that faggy, but we're drastically underpaid in our area, and I dont think I've seen more than one of those fucking 5 dollar coupons we're supposed to get if we provide "excellent service" in 5 years even though I've had many many compliments.

[Anonymous No.21488363]

>>21487847
Join the IBEW, you need more exercise

[Anonymous No.21488449]

>>21488095
I hope you checking your inside for cancer ever 6 months anon.

[Anonymous No.21488541]

>>21488449
Nope, but that's just about what I need right now. I havent gone to the doc in like 2 years.

[Anonymous No.21488544]

>>21487847
I just listened to your faggy song while taking my morning shit. Hahahaha get better taste in music and buy PNK LINK & RSR faggot

[Anonymous No.21488571]

buy BZRX you fucking moron

[Anonymous No.21488574]

fag

[Anonymous No.21488578]

>>21487847
You sound like a faggot

[Anonymous No.21488589]

>>21487847
First thing, if you're up until 2 and then wake up for work at 6:30 with any regularity, you're going to be a disaster. Get more sleep. Your success at trading shitcoins doesn't depend on late hours. Rather, the dopamine drip from watching the numbers is combining with the fake social camaraderie of late night /biz/ to rob you of a good night's sleep.

Second, stop eating microwaved shit and start making yourself food. It'll be both cheaper and healthier, and the money you save can be invested for more gains.

If you start getting more sleep on weeknights, you won't be tired and run down on weekends, so you'll be able to enjoy yourself more. Try to get outside and move around some, there are lots of nice trails no matter where you live. Get a hobby that you enjoy. Listening to music and browsing /biz/ aren't hobbies.

[Anonymous No.21488602]

Next step in your journey, stop listening to music.

[Anonymous No.21488611]

>>21488544
each to their own. I already hold RSR and LINK.

[Anonymous No.21488619]

Everyone lashing out at OP is in the same boat, prove me wrong

[Anonymous No.21488630]

>>21487847

>wakes up, does drugs, works shitty unfulfilling job, has no real friend connections, addicted to crypto gambling

I got bad news for you OP.

[Anonymous No.21488647]

[Anonymous No.21488683]

>>21488363
>great advice

[Anonymous No.21488707]

>>21488589
it might be fake, but i feel more connection with random autists here and even on wsb, than i ever felt in real life lol.

[Anonymous No.21488725]

Newfags don't remember this OP's pasta. It's the same structure changed just a little bit each time. Sob story whatever the fuck. Yeah, ngmi.

[Anonymous No.21488731]

You're putting your mind and body through a tremendous amount of stress.

The first thing I would recommend is going to bed earlier. Give yourself an hour or two to unwind before bed and don't look at screens. Read a book or listen to something relaxing, like some chill music or an audiobook. There are tons of mediation apps you could listen to that will help you calm down. Blue light from screens is stimulating and it signals your brain to stay awake.

Second, check binance less and set up alerts like other anons have said. Go ahead and set up some limit orders for prices you want to hit for your bags, at least you'll be prepared then.

Third, you need to eat better and exercise more. Not saying you have to be Gordon Ramsey or train for a marathon, but at least make yourself a meal plan and try to go on walks at a minimum. There are a lot of simple workouts you can do in your home like squats and pushups.

As for food, make a meal plan. Tacos are easy to make, for example, with just beans, rice, and cheese. Baked chicken and vegetables is also easy. Chicken, rice, tuna, beans, eggs, fresh fruit and vegetables, peanut butter, and bread. All of these are filling foods that are cheap and are much healthier than TV dinners.

[Anonymous No.21488738]

>>21488589
Sort of normie advice.

The true path is to become a rich, powerful, fat, unhealthy, unhappy, man with no interests and nothing interesting about you.

[Anonymous No.21488743]

>>21487886
this, op you are a retard. get more sleep and quite the caffeine.

[Anonymous No.21488787]

>>21488630
you're telling me. Like I said in another post, it's working because I've made $30k in a few months. I tell myself once I make it things will get better but who knows.

[Anonymous No.21488796]

>>21487847
I’d probably be in tears too if I had to listen to that shit. Find a better job and take care of yourself

[Anonymous No.21488828]

>work in a shipyard
>wake up 5:30AM
>work starts 7:00 AM
>I get in the locker room to get dressed
>it stinks of piss and mold
>have to remove pipe blinds in ballast tanks
>nobody pumped the water out
>It's early morning and I'm already soaking wet
>$1200 monthly pay
>get paid better than most guys there
>feelsbadman

[Anonymous No.21488870]

>>21487847
Boy do I have the book for you, anon :^)

[Anonymous No.21488903]

>>21487971
any good sites DL audio books from? or just check torrents?

[Anonymous No.21488910]

>>21488828
damn dude what country do you live in where that kind of work only pays $300 a week?

[Anonymous No.21488955]

>>21487869
This.
Stop listening to trash and being a faggot, OP

[Anonymous No.21488976]

>>21487847
You should wear less outfits so that you don't have to think so much and then you wouldn't be stressed. I'm a neet so I have 3 pairs of sweatpants and 1 pair of jeans I cycle through and then two blue flannels then I just wear these same clothes everyday. Also I have 10k link and live with my mother

[Anonymous No.21488993]

>>21488870
I fucking hate this guy. YouTube must know I'm a loser because he's always in my recommended despite selecting 'not interested' on every video.

[Anonymous No.21489049]

>>21488903

Audible is pretty good, $15/mo for a credit. Libraries also have apps where you can check out/download books for free if they have the license for it.

[Anonymous No.21489085]

>>21488787

The best advice I can give you is take care of yourself. Get off the caffeine, start working out every other day, start everything slowly. You feel better slowly, you'll sleep better, you'll crave more social interaction. It's going to take a long while, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. Take care of yourself, live for today, and enjoy life.

[Anonymous No.21489094]

>>21488136
why be so unsympathetic fren? we're all living breathing feeling people here, may be one day you'll feel similar to op & biz will be the only place you know to turn to. what sets this place apart is that we listen to each others ups & downs - often this is monetary pain or joy, but cause we're human this inevitably spreads out into ones general existential experience of life. it's true that in this clown world, the best thing you can hope for is to make it & then check out of society completely. normies wouldn't understand ops pain but his biz bros do. be gentle anon, life isnt always easy

[Anonymous No.21489100]

You need to lift some weights

[Anonymous No.21489113]

>>21487847
I actually felt slightly bad for you until I listened to that song you posted. Now all I can picture is a wagecuck zoomer crying while listening to it and browsing instagram wishing he was an eceleb. I actually hate normies like you and you deserve everything you get. There is no excuse for bad taste.

[Anonymous No.21489114]

>>21488903
audiobookbay nl

[Anonymous No.21489118]

>>21487886
>>21488743


yeah both of these. When i was a wagie I would always make sure to give work my most exhausted and drained hours at the end of my day. I'd wake up ~6 hours before shift and start everything non-work related. Im not going to sell my fresh/alert time for minimum wage. that time is reserved for exercise, studying, and fun. Let your employer have your worst hours and DO NOT RUIN YOUR BODY WITH CAFFEINE AND MODAFINIL FOR MINIMUM FUCKING WAGE THOSE THINGS ARE TOOLS TO BETTER YOUR LIFE OUTSIDE OF WORK, NOT TO BE A GOOD WAGIE

[Anonymous No.21489158]

>>21487847
What do you like to eat my dude? I mean when you're not eating hormone laced chunks of chemically preserved shit? I think you should get into cooking with whole fresh ingredients. Just try making some simple stuff, nothing expensive. It will actually be cheaper than your Hormacaroni and Cheese. It will be a new hobby you might enjoy, and you might start to feel better without all that (((food))) you're eating.

[Anonymous No.21489218]

>>21487847
I hope you make it someday fren

[Anonymous No.21489220]

>>21489114
thank you

[Anonymous No.21489229]

>>21489118
This is not bad of an idea for mindless easy jobs tbf, but unfortunately it'll fuck you over in management level jobs

[Anonymous No.21489291]

>>21487847
Hi anon I take it you are working your first job maybe after school. I was like that too. Eventually you will become broken and accept that you will be nothing more than a cog in the machine, whose only purpose is to make the Jews up top more money.

[Anonymous No.21489484]

>>21487847
Sleep more hours dude

[Anonymous No.21489582]

>>21487847
Christ is king anon
>what does it profit you to GAIN the whole world but o LOSE your soul
Money=Mammon
>get /fit
>read KJV bible
>practice stoicism
Best of luck

[Anonymous No.21489592]

>>21488910
Croatia. Shit's not that rough since it's cheap to live. You can buy an apartment for 60-70k euros.

[Anonymous No.21489615]

>>21489085
Thanks man. I'll try.

[Anonymous No.21489616]

>>21487869
fpbp

[Anonymous No.21489645]

>>21487847
How is modofinal? I used to take adderall but I don’t want to go back down that road lol

[Anonymous No.21489757]

>>21488787
anon sleep more, you're breaking down because of you are exhausted, keep your job as you need fixed income, keep trading and hold link. Just hold 5 years top and you'll be able to focus only on trading. Godspeed.

[Anonymous No.21489763]

>>21489645
Gave me awful headaches and made me really irritable. Useful if you have a big project but otherwise really wouldn't recommend.

[Anonymous No.21489817]

>>21487847
>stimulant abuse
>poor diet
>chronic sleep deprivation
>dead end job
>shitcoin lottery ticket obsession
>listless, undisciplined lifestyle
>no short term plan
>no long term plan

yeah i really have no idea why you broke down and cried.

[Anonymous No.21489884]

>wake up
>write unnecessarily detailed blog post on /biz/
>hope I get some engaging replies about my unique and interesting life situation

[Anonymous No.21489929]

>>21487869
FPBP

[Anonymous No.21489950]

>>21489645
I’m trying to get off it now.
How did you get off? How long did it take and what was the worst part?

[Anonymous No.21489993]

>>21489113
based

[Anonymous No.21490016]

>>21487847
Played 40 seconds to give it a chance, noped the fuck out, I only like that rockstar song from post Malone.

[Anonymous No.21490028]

>>21489158
I think I'll start making my own food as of tonight. There's really no excuse for eating like shit.

[Anonymous No.21490044]

>>21487847
too bad you'll never be post alone

[Anonymous No.21490100]

>>21487847
You could have posted this on reddit and gotten better results.
You're a faggot OP.

[Anonymous No.21490193]

>>21487847
Let me list the issues with this
>10H minimum wage and you use modafinil. C'mon...
>4H of sleep sustained by caffeine and modafinil. C'mon...
>You spend 4H+ a day listening to music doing nothing else but clutching to the hope that your Binance balance indicates that you can make it. C'mon...
Of course you'll feel like shit, you do shitty things.
Start reading, start jogging while listening to music, start fucking cooking for yourself.
Do something with your fucking life, because I can assure you, once you make it, you'll be the same fucker who won't do shit but complain.
>I though once I made it everything would be better
Get up, accept how shitty life is, and work towards bettering yourself

[Anonymous No.21490261]

>>21487847
How about not taking moda if you feel like shit. This stuff is made for good but hard times, listen to your brain fucking faggot

[Anonymous No.21490309]

>>21489645
Moda is great. I don't take it at the weekends and I've gone weeks without taking it before so you'll probably not get dependent. Just so you know, you won't get high or even feel that much of a buzz. At most it'll increase your focus, make you feel awake and give you a slightly more optimistic outlook on things. If you drink enough water you won't get headaches.

[Anonymous No.21490369]

>invest a little in LINK
>make a small bit when it hits $18
>need to dump it into bills and rent
>wagecuck and wonder if my life is worth living
>wonder if I'm actually worth being alive with my decisions

[Anonymous No.21490414]

>>21487847
Stop listening to (((post malone))) and stop going to bed at 2am.

[Anonymous No.21490485]

>>21487847
Modafinil sucks, get on adderall. Use the motivation from this to look for a better job. And for fucks sake sleep more, you could literally end up dead from 4 hrs a night years on end

[Anonymous No.21490500]

>>21490016
funny, that's the one of the better ones that I like the least if that makes sense. I'm not really into hiphop but I like post's stuff.

[Anonymous No.21490517]

>>21487847
I would happily kill myself if I had your life.

[Anonymous No.21490544]

>>21488282
jesus christ you are even more autistic than OP

[Anonymous No.21490545]

>>21487847
I'd cry too if I wore Capri yoga pants and clown shoes

[Anonymous No.21490684]

>>21487847
Modafinil leads to extreme sleep deprivation over long periods because it has a long half life. You are getting very low quality sleep.
It's fine in an emergency but horrible long term. I write from experience.
It's intended for narcolepsy so it's not surprising. It pretty much disables sleep.

Amphetamine is much better because while it stimulates you stronger, if you fall asleep the sleep itself is fine. Infinitely sustainable as long as you keep to reasonable doses (it should never give you euphoria).

[Anonymous No.21490690]

>>21489113
What music do you listen to?

Is it some k pop, anime ost or some shit?

[Anonymous No.21490763]

>>21488063
>american
you can tell he's not a burger when he says: "catch the bus home"
whites arent allowed on buses

[Anonymous No.21490808]

>>21487847
shut up wagie, shouldn't you be spending your lunch money on actual lunch instead of crypto?

[Anonymous No.21490833]

>>21487847
Read my trauma release exercises threads. Go to warosu and search

[Anonymous No.21490864]

>>21487847
Also read up on urine therapy. Unironically the cure for everything including depression

[Anonymous No.21490882]

>>21490684
I just can't trust myself with something that has the potential to make me feel really good.

[Anonymous No.21490883]

Start working out, sleep more, look for a new job

[Anonymous No.21491028]

Not that bad except for minimum wage.. learn to cook and stop eating garbage microwave and boxed food, go to the gym after work, planet fitness is $10/mo.

[Anonymous No.21491628]

>>21488976
You sound like you smell absolutely terrible. If getting dressed stresses you out you are obviously not able to cope with real life, get help

[Anonymous No.21491909]

>>21488725
This, its very reminiscent of Londonfags postings

[Anonymous No.21491991]

>wake up at 9
>drink coffee with my parents
>check coinmarketcap
>maybe go for a walk
>lay in bed
>relax
>do nothing
>smile

[Anonymous No.21492637]

>>21490044
Based Carlos poster

[Anonymous No.21492834]

OP least u have a job. Some of us live with parents and out of work. One anon here lives in tent

[Anonymous No.21493002]

>>21492834
You're right. Got to be thankful for what we have.

[Anonymous No.21493060]

>>21487847
Get a girlfriend from the 3rd world. Malaysia or somewhere, then have kids and give your life some purpose. They love western guys. Also, the fact you listen to Post Malone reveals you'll be midrange-normie for life, so just accept it and get a girlfriend already.

[Anonymous No.21493162]

>>21487847
>>Take modafinil and caffeine
Why anon?
Caffeine alone is already shit... why also to add modafinil?

[Anonymous No.21493205]

>>21488282
Based aspie

[Anonymous No.21493222]

>>21490485
>Modafinil sucks,
explain why please

[Anonymous No.21493431]

>>21488282
>watch building sites, memorise what they do
>alone
>

[Anonymous No.21493474]

>>21493060
I'm not a fucking normie. I happen to like this one song I heard for the first time yesterday.

[Anonymous No.21493568]

half the world is in the same boat, anon

this board is your friend

[Anonymous No.21493644]

look for some lowcap gems that will fly in the next bull run

take the risk, and maybe you can stick it to you boss, buy a mansion and explore the world

[Anonymous No.21494377]

>>21488284
Do you work at Sprouts

[Anonymous No.21495192]

>>21488095
the literal definition of peepeepoopoo

[Anonymous No.21495332]

>>21489592
Fuck bro. I should just move to croatia and wave my big american wallet over there. get some croatian whamens and make babies all day long.
Apparently raising a family over there is equivalent to the cost of a big mac here.
Based. Will breed your country into little America.

[Anonymous No.21495378]

>>21488095
coffee doesn't break a fast you fucking moron.

[Anonymous No.21495798]

>>21487847
>post malone
>eats like shit
>no gym on average day
>no unique sense of decor
>doesn't drive
>no prayers to jesus
Ask me how I know you are depressed and lonely and most likely ngmi. Go ahead ask me.

[Anonymous No.21496327]

>>21488176
RiceCookerwalmart
frozenvegtablewalmart
frozenchickenwalmart
georgeforemanwalmart

that's the best way, fuck your mac and cheese.
$30/week and you eat better than the rest of your friends

[Anonymous No.21496364]

Adrafinil vs modafinil vs amphetamine (ie adderall) vs others

[Anonymous No.21496407]

That sounds pretty comfy though

[Anonymous No.21496513]

>>21487847
That's life OP. At least you can see it. Most people don't even recognize the loop they're in. I'm stuck in one myself, cept I work at home in a comfy finance role and have triple your holdings.

This covid nonsense has stolen this year from me and I now have no social life to participate in because I'm living with a parent and I don't want to bring home the boomer remover, just in case it's actually real. Plus all the fucking bars are shut down.

You need 2 things OP: hobbies, long term goal. I for instance am building a rifle. I love to put things on target, I go on trail walks, and I love to cook. I am also studying to get a CFA designation so that I can get a better job in finance in the future; even though my holdings will probably make me a millionaire in a couple years.

It's all perspective. Keep your eyes on the prize, get some sleep, exercise, and go outside cause you need vitamin D.

[Anonymous No.21496961]

>>21487847
Your only issue is lack of sleep.

[Anonymous No.21497089]

>>21488282
I like this

[Anonymous No.21497156]

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