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[Anonymous No.21369224]

hello frens

i'm a suicidal 21 y.o retarded neet living with my parents.
(I'm technically in my last year of engineering degree, but I fucked up my grades the entire time and never got any internships - so yeah, I'm still going to be a neet after this shit is over).

my parents are poorfags and have $0 saved for retirement + 20 years of mortgage payments left.

In the next year, I'll probably have 1 or 2 million USD from my linkies, and I'll use it to pay off their mortgage and put the the rest in some low risk investment vehicle where they can get 4 to 7 percent annual returns. they currently have a tiny income, so this would be a huge step up for them.

But what should I do after that? I'm thinking I'll just kill myself bc I've been suicidal my entire childhood, but idk. I have no career aspirations. I have no interest in females anymore after what my ex did to me. I don't even play vidya or watch movies. I spend my days looking at my computer screen, staring at the ceiling, and doing the bare minimum on my online classes. Should I just kms? I think i can die pretty happily knowing that i took care of my parents' retirement.

[Anonymous No.21369267]

>>21369224
tldr but read the first line kys

[Anonymous No.21369316]

>>21369267
1 vote for killing myself

[Anonymous No.21369411]

>>21369224
Join the military, get some purpose in your life. Also find God.

[Anonymous No.21369442]

>>21369224
What will your parents if you kys tho, fren?

[Anonymous No.21369498]

>Blog: the post
yes kys
Engineers are fuckin retards most of the time anyway.

[Anonymous No.21369604]

>>21369224
Spend 15 mins a day sitting in the sun and you’ll probably feel much better desu

[Anonymous No.21369648]

>>21369224
firstly dont kys, secondly ur parents seem to be bad with money? i wouldnt give them any large amount except the house paid off.

[Anonymous No.21369709]

>>21369224
How many linkies do you have?

[Anonymous No.21369841]

>>21369224
you have money, no body disabilities, food every fucking day, and a place to sleep
why the FUCK would you kys, look around you faggot, get out of your fucking bubble, you are better off than 99% of the fucking world, the universe/nature gave you only this miserable short time to experience itself, dont fucking waste it, play games, try to make more money, idk, do what makes you happy no matter what others think

[Anonymous No.21369856]

>>21369648
they're bad with money because they waste it all on me and my brother. they cannot afford to pay my tuition payments or let me neet in their house, but they do it anyways.
other than that, they are very frugal and hardly ever spend any money.

[Anonymous No.21369866]

>>21369224
Don't do it man.
I'm in a similar boat to you in many of the ways you listed- but seriously reach out and get some help, take care of your mental and physical parts and you'll be able to see out of your tunnel vision that you're in
good luck fren

[Anonymous No.21369984]

>>21369224
>suicidal
You know, stuff like this usually comes for a reason. Humans aren't made for our current world. Some are able to adapt, others aren't. Figure out what REALLY makes you happy. Not some meme shit others are telling you.
You might enjoy living alone in the Siberian woods hunting your own stuff, building your own home, getting your own wood for fire, etc.
Or living on a boat or some shit like that, who knows.
You are free as soon as you have enough money. Take your time to get to know yourself and to figure out a potential life that would make you happy before you decide to end it

[Anonymous No.21370027]

>>21369604
i started taking vitamin d pills and standing outside in the sun for 2 hours a day when corona started
it definitely helped my mood and made me a little more productive, but i still have no desire to live a long happy life.

[Anonymous No.21370060]

>>21369224
Find god or stake it in SUTER

[Anonymous No.21370145]

>>21369224
do you think ur parents give a fuck about pieces of paper or their son. they dont give a shit about how much money you have and they spend money and let u neet because they love you, you dumb retard they dont give a shit if you leave them 1 million and then kill yourself because they will be grieving you for the rest of their lives.
TLDR; make it, give them grandkids and let them die comfy thinking about their son carrying on their legacy.

[Anonymous No.21370265]

>>21369224
the people who feel the strongest urges to kill themselves are the ones who see whats wrong with the world, but feel that they have no ability to change anything. Dont kys anon, just try to change what you dont like

[Anonymous No.21370408]

>>21369984
>You might enjoy living alone in the Siberian woods hunting your own stuff, building your own home, getting your own wood for fire, etc.

I thought about doing this exact thing, but I keep thinking "what's the point." Am I supposed to just go through the movements everyday and then die? I guess it wouldnt really make me happy.

>figure out what REALLY makes you happy.
I used to have delusions of grandeur where I do things that literally change the world (for the better), but then I always sink down and remember that I'm just a retarded, autistic neet. Maybe I can at least try something no matter how ridiculous it sounds? idk. If sergey can change the world in a weekend, maybe i can do something on a smaller scale

[Anonymous No.21370459]

>>21369224
how would your parents feel knowing you did all that for them and then killed yourself? they would be miserable and guilt-ridden the rest of their lives, defeating the point of alleviating their financial burden

[Anonymous No.21370486]

>>21369984
Yep. Just give it some time. If you don't immediately know what you want to do, just go on a bunch of long walks. No phone or other distractions. Sounds gay but it works