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[Anonymous No.15873174]

once i fill this gaping emotional left in me from years of social neglect and virginity, what's left?
I unironically realized that I have been feeling empty since I was 15, 19 now.
Thing is, after I got curved by a year long oneitis at 17, I have been grinding self improvement.
First year of college was a hiccup since I had undiagnosed ADHD and my life kinda sloughed into bits but since I got on meds over the summer, improvement has blasted off parabolically.
I have friends who care about me now, I'm in great shape, I'm at the top of my class this semester, it's all coming together. And I'm also starting to look good.
Several women have shown interest. Thing is, I literally have zero experience, so I haven't known what to do. In short, I have the romantic experience of a 15 year old. But as I keep going to these parties and keep talking to more people, I am bound to figure it out soon.
What happens then? When I'm sexually satisfied for the first time in my life.
Will I still have a hole, will it go away. What would go in it's place.
I need to know. It feels like shit, it's almost tangible. I don't want to call it depression, because I've read about it and I don't believe that I've ever had it but damn if this shit doesnt hurt. It literally aches on all levels except the physical. I'm sure some of you guys know what I'm talking about.
So what happens when I fix it? Is it even possible?

[Anonymous No.15873179]

>>15873174
you are looking in all the wrong places for fulfillment anon.
It never gets better unless you find THE Father, thourgh the Son and directed by the Holy Spirit.

[Anonymous No.15873184]

>>15873179
but it's literally on maslow's pyramid.
and people talk about it so much.

[Anonymous No.15873192]

>>15873174
>19
None of your problems will matter you raging faggot. Your little blog is pitiful.

[Anonymous No.15873196]

>>15873174
>The 19 year old is talking about how shitty things are
Bro pls stop typing essays on how shit your life is when it hasn't even started. At least you aren't a 26 year old kissless virgin loser like me. Hell there are anons on here that have never had a GF or a job and are in their 30s

[Anonymous No.15873202]

>>15873192
lambaste me if you want but i'd still like to know what happens after this. what else could give me this empty ache.

[Anonymous No.15873207]

>>15873196
empathy.

[Anonymous No.15873217]

>>15873174
It's a surprisingly twisted concept, actually.
You learn to improve yourself, but every time you improve yourself you're told to do better.
Maybe just don't care?
I couldn't tell ya

[Anonymous No.15873225]

Dude nobody cares

[Anonymous No.15873228]

>>15873225
then leave faggot, before you get fried.

[Anonymous No.15873231]

>>15873202
If you want advice it's not to start on ADHD meds.
They'll be great for about 6 months - 2 years depending on the person, but my god... after that they absolutely fucking blast you in the ass.
You'll literally turn into a 70iq robot and have to start from scratch all over again, unless you continue with the meds, which you will have to dose higher and higher and higher and higher just to feel normal. This is all at an exponential rate btw.
Experiment with them for about 6 months and then drop them. You're welcome.
t. brain damaged by ritalin and dexedrine.

[Anonymous No.15873243]

>>15873231
They're some of the most neurotoxic chemicals on earth. Don't poison yourself.

[Anonymous No.15873244]

>>15873174
If you feel like shit now you’ll hate your 20’s. Change your mindset as cliched as it sounds. You’re putting pressure on yourself to have certain experiences. Not having feminine affection is hard, but if I could go back to your age the main change I would make is giving a fuck about women, oneitises, etc. realize this, men are maturing and establishing themselves less slowly now because of society, both because of the cultural degen, but moreso because of resource abundance.
Figure out how to make money, and do it, and the women will be guaranteed. I wish I had made it by 21, the women you get when poor will only stop you from getting rich, even if it’s the same woman. Watch scarface, that line is fucking true, get the money first, then max out your stats and have the coin to constantly apply buffs to yourself, and then the women stick like flies to shit. Until marriage. Women have been vilified for many reasons, and some of them are rational but exaggerated reasons.

[Anonymous No.15873252]

>>15873202
It's called the PURSUIT of happiness for a reason, faggot. Welcome to life, kid. Chase it down, and beat it with a stick.

[Anonymous No.15873257]

>>15873244
Also, don’t focus on it, get laid a few times while not giving a shit and you will also get this out of your system. I started getting laid once I stopped paying attention to women as human beings worthy of prolonged interaction unless they are one of my good friends.

[Anonymous No.15873269]

>>15873231
>>15873243
how do you unretard yourself after being on ADHD meds for a while? Could I ever be as intelligent as I was when I was younger, or have I boned myself completely?

[Anonymous No.15873285]

>>15873231
I've done my reading friend.
I supplement myself with l-tyrosine and magnesium.
Combined with once a month T-breaks, I should be able to drag this shit out til I graduate. But I have to do this. Last semester I was pulling all-nighters once a week because an assignment would take me nine hours to finish half of it, cause my train of thought wouldn't last longer than 15 seconds.
On meds, that same assignment takes me 45 minutes. Life changing.