Are roasties a good investment?

[Anonymous No.15735387]

I'm 28 years old and I've spent just under $3400 on women in the past 2 years alone. I added it all up last nice. Over $2000 of it was on camwhores alone. I spent about $330 paying for girl's meals on random tinder dates (all of which went horribly and made me feel subhuman). The rest were findom tributes, one girl in particular I've spent over $800 on, and still have never seen a nude photo of them. Have I wasted my money, or is this just the price of finding the right girl?

I have to spend money because women won't even give me a chance otherwise (I'm like a 4/10 tops). I'm still a virgin, though I have had my dick sucked a couple times and I've tasted pussy from 3 different girls. The more time I spend around these women, the more I resent them. I'm beginning to wonder why I even do this... for some shallow biological urge? I hate to sound like some incel, but most women seem like pretentious whores. The way they behave makes me so angry sometimes, especially when I think about how much money I've spent.