OCD

[Anonymous No.15025499]

Is there a worse fate than this devilish mental illness? I tried to cope with cocaine and alcohol and now 2 years later im ultra justed beyond belief. Im ultra depressed /biz/. I can barely brush my teeth. My biggest hobby is sleeping and i would perma sleep if i could. Im having chest pain lately.

Money didnt fix shit. How am i supossed to spend the money when i can barely go to the supermarket.

[Anonymous No.15025509]

>>15025499
Momy gib milkys

[Anonymous No.15025519]

>>15025499
How is that called clothes?

[Anonymous No.15025539]

>>15025499
are those triple ds? Is her back ok

[Anonymous No.15025567]

>>15025509
>>15025519
>>15025539

[Anonymous No.15025579]

>>15025499

[Anonymous No.15025596]

>>15025499
same here

[Anonymous No.15025615]

>>15025499
i do code every other day when i don't sleep for 2, the nights are great when your on a high and everything seems fine but then whenever your sober you realise how fucked your life is

[Anonymous No.15025639]

>>15025615
i cant keep getting high anymore because i know no moderation, i only know extremes. black or white. its part of my ocd. if i keep getting high im gonna kill mysel

[Anonymous No.15025654]

ive had times where ocd took over, thats why its important for me to be in control of my thought process. i learned to do that when i was having anxiety/depression. if i hadnt take control back then i wouldnt be here.
taking control of thought loops allowed me to get rid of ocd.
actively fight the obsessions and take over your head.
i know it sounds easier said than done but it worked for me.

[Anonymous No.15025670]

>>15025499
Doesn't sound like OCD sounds like anxiety and depression. Go to a shrink and get on klonopin. Take modafinil during the day if you need to be alert.

[Anonymous No.15025697]

>>15025654
>actively fight the obsessions
i have been trying for a decade my man. the only fight which works is numbing myself with drugs so im nuked out enough not being able to think of anything. im in my mid 20s now and no human can keep going like this.

[Anonymous No.15025723]

>>15025670
depression and anxiety symptoms listed in op are just the product of my ocd. i didnt bother to list thousand things torturing me in my head but it is ocd.

[Anonymous No.15025728]

>>15025697
Benzos anon. They are like alcohol in pill form they turn the bad thoughts right off. They aren't good for you obviously and you'll be a little sluggish but they work and won't trash your body as hard as liquor and cocaine.

[Anonymous No.15025752]

>>15025697
is it at all possible for you to think about anything else when you are in a loop?
your brain process is limited, if you keep your brain occupied with something else the obsession might weaken.
anyway, my ocd was pretty mild, it was more a side effect of anxiety.

[Anonymous No.15025773]

>>15025728
i tried benzos and they were alright but very mild and i had to constantly up the dosage to keep the effect ongoing. what i liked most was zolpidem though because that shit nuked me straight to sleep and of course like everything i do, i abused the shit out of it and took zolpidem, xanax, tavor, diazepam all together.

Took 2 weeks vacation to get off them and the withdrawals were so brutal it was almost comical. Literal suicide tier. fuck those pills man. Alcohol and coke + zolpidem to comedown is all i need but that is going to kill me too if i dont stop.

[Anonymous No.15025814]

>>15025752
>if you keep your brain occupied with something else the obsession might weaken.
Only sleep truly works or when im on drugs, everything else is still constant torture.

[Anonymous No.15025951]

>>15025499

Brah

Just eat eggs. And practice intermittent fasting. And weight-lift. And walk. Just fucking walk. Hell, just sell everything you own and move to a different country.

If you're going to tortured like a fish in a frying pan, just jump somewhere else. At worst its a fire but you were fucked anyways.

[Anonymous No.15025974]

there's no magic answer, only time and discipline. The longer you can go without abusing drugs, the more time your brain has to renew neurotransmitters and their respective receptor sites. Doctors and psychiatrists generally suck, but maybe antidepressants + therapy is your answer.

[Anonymous No.15025982]

>>15025951
based AF

[Anonymous No.15025987]

OCD is burgers only disease, what does that say to you faggot?

> muh disease superpower booobooo

KYS

[Anonymous No.15026006]

>>15025987
im not a burger anon, the fuck are you babbling

[Anonymous No.15026016]

Sober up, eat right, work out and read. Oh yeah and stop watching porn.

[Anonymous No.15026018]

>>15025974
>antidepressants
is this a jewish scheme or should i try it out? anyone got experience with these things itt

[Anonymous No.15026024]

>>15026006

Burgers like to label themselves for OCD and ADHD. Normal countries call this "you're retarded".

[Anonymous No.15026058]

>>15026016
>Sober up, eat right, work out and read. Oh yeah and stop watching porn.
i did all these for 2 months. what is the endgame? live just because everyone is living? id do just that without complaining but im trapped into deep repetive thoughts i cant switch off, even when living like a monk. Its just more torture and harder when having to go through it sober.

[Anonymous No.15026059]

>>15025773
They are super addictive that's for sure if you're not disciplined enough to keep your dosage low and steady then you're fucked. But sounds like you're fucked either way. The only other thing that has ever worked for me besides benzos is just exercising until absolute exhaustion but I can't do that shit every day.

[Anonymous No.15026061]

>doing cocaine to solve problems

brainlet of the year

[Anonymous No.15026071]

>>15026024
ok. thanks for the intel you reddit spacing faggot

[Anonymous No.15026073]

I was justed too for a while, 5 years of speed or heroin IV daily.

Today I've gotten rid of my demons, I hold some sweet bags and I got a qt gf. Nothing is impossible.

[Anonymous No.15026080]

You should try DLPA. It helps boosts your dopamine and it has worked wonders for me. Life was unbearable before.

[Anonymous No.15026114]

>>15026071

I'd suck your cock unironically but never call someone you don't know a faggot anon. Reddit is a nice Internet web site.

[Anonymous No.15026117]

>>15026073
what was your lowest, turning point and how did you make it fren

[Anonymous No.15026118]

>>15026018
Don't take SSRIs. They turn you into a zombie. Everything is completely dull and your dick stops working.

[Anonymous No.15026181]

>>15026059

[Anonymous No.15026327]

>>15026117

My lowest point was probably when I became homeless and my friends started getting tired on my couch surfing. And I got so sick of constantly having to chase money and drugs. And all the hell that came with it. I went to rehab and went through a twelve-step program. Sure, it felt weird at first with God and what not. But it seriously helped me out of my miserable empire of dirt into a great life. And no, I still don't believe in any God(except Kek and Sergey).

If you can't find any other way out, it's damn well worth a try. /Recently became father to a beautiful white boy

[Anonymous No.15026357]

>>15025951
Every. Fucking. Word. This. Anon. Said.
+12 steps helped me. I used to do 2-3 grams/24 hours. Got paranoid so bad, it was a torture. Then i was totally clean for 13 months. No coke no alcohol. Then got hooked up again. Kinda struggling at the moment but I try to do everything anon says and its working. Walk. A lot. Walk the fucking earth. Espessially if you have no strings attached.

[Anonymous No.15026473]

>>15025499
Try L-theanine OP. Its subtle, may take a month before you notice the effects, but it's been proven to have great benefits. It has a synergy with caffeine. It helps reduce anxiety and gives you better quality sleep. It even has been proven to help your liver.

Dont expect to get better though if you continue drinking and using the cocaine. It sounds like moderation is the medicine you need. Don't expect to gain it overnight.

[Anonymous No.15026498]

>>15025499
looking at the chart in the background is it time to long condoms?

[Anonymous No.15026671]

>>15026473
will try

>>15026498
kek

[Anonymous No.15026696]

>>15025499
Therapy, exercise, meditation and diet. Medication might help if you mix it with all of these.

[Anonymous No.15026773]

You guys should really use the internet for other things than porn and anime. New research is clear that all mental disorders (even including anxiety and depression) are a result of your gut microbiome imbalance and/or gut microbiome inflammation that literally travels to your brain. Its a way of your body communicating with you, telling you your lifestyle and stuff you consume is not what your were meant for. It actually seems that literally every human being is allergic to certain foor but the symptoms do not show up on the outside... only the inside, your brain. Its 21. century so get the fuck in touch with reality and when you have a problem just use the most powerful tool in the universe (as far as we know) - the internet.

[Anonymous No.15026808]

>>15026773
Isn't this supreme duck powerful?

[Anonymous No.15026816]

Also read up on autism and a new treatment - microbiota replacement therapies (they literally put someone's shit inside your gut) and it changes your microbiome composition (and literally changes the entire - YOU)

[Anonymous No.15026828]

>>15025499
That's a guys isn't it?

[Anonymous No.15026839]

>>15025499
OCD here too anon, doesn’t seem to be at the level you’re at but the only drug I use on the regular is weed. Even that has both helped and hindered the situation at the same time. Try your best to get therapy and keep yourself occupied in order to slowly take control of your thought process - its a long fucking war. Eventually though, you’re gonna win the small battles with yourself and over time it will become more manageable. Please try to quit the drugs though, they’re definitely not sustainable and not helping your mental state.

[Anonymous No.15026863]

>>15025499
you stupid weak pussy having no arms and legs for once sound immeasurably harder than having ocd fuck you weakling

[Anonymous No.15026929]

>>15025499
listen to me you absolute worthless faggot

you seem to have an addictive personality, go to your nearest or best brazilian jiu jitsu gym you can find and sign up, JUST GO

dont think about it sign up and just KEEP GOING

these days most men never have to face adversity in their lives and the result is feeling hopeless, without purpose etc

your long distant relatives obviously had the guts to struggle and live, an experience that most can never re-live these days

trust me, martial arts, struggling, fighting can turn your whole fucking life around even if you dont do it professionally

sign up for bjj > learn something new > meet new people > struggle > overcome adversity > stop beeing a faggot and your conscience will expand, just like that little asshole of yours

[Anonymous No.15026939]

>>15026863

[Anonymous No.15026952]

>>15026118
Def this. Dont take SSRIs, especially since you cant seem to stop abusing the booze and yay
>>15026357
>Got paranoid so bad, it was a torture.
Listen to him. Get the fuck off cocaine you broken brain mother fucker. I had a straight up break from reality after months of horrible paranoia. Finished that 2 year bender and kicked everything but weed. I'm two years sober now and its fucking worth it for us broken brains.
If you need to relax smoke some herb at most. Anything else is going to be a problem for you because you're clearly an addict.

[Anonymous No.15026993]

>>15026929
fuck off with the bjj meme and go eat some activated almonds with joe rogan.
also
when
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like
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you're
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faggot

[Anonymous No.15027028]

>>15026993
whether its bjj or something else anon still has a point. its definitely important to pick up some kind of hobby where you can meet people and improve while slowly becoming less of a degen

[Anonymous No.15027034]

>>15025499
Stop being a weak little bitch

Form new healthy habits

I broke my self of it because I'm strong as fuck you weak little bitch

[Anonymous No.15027057]

>>15026993
this is the reason you pussies have all these fucking mental problems, i had a mess as childhood and was once in that position as depressed piece of shit, you have no hobbies, no purpose, know no struggle and are basically a bunch of slouching faggots and nothing will ever change until you realize that - and no i got my shit together before i found joe rogan but the man is right, you really think all those generations of fighting for survival didnt leave a huge imprint on your dna? you think none of that shit matters since you can just be a depressed fag these days in countries with good healthcare and get away with it?

[Anonymous No.15027063]

>>15027034
fuck off you retard poster

[Anonymous No.15027108]

Real advice from a crypto millionaire who suffered severe panic attacks / depersonalisation and depression. Start talking to a shrink, get on a very low level of AD (i’ve used cymbalta 30mg, bitch to get of though). Stay with shrink for a long time. Most importantly: WORK OUT AS WELL. Work on your body mentally and physically. I picked up going to the gym 3 times a week with 1 time a week boxing. Try to keep a rhythm and eat healthy. Youre not alone anon <3

[Anonymous No.15027161]

And sleep as much as you need to.

[Anonymous No.15027209]

>>15027161
what he said. never had therapy/shrink but talking through this shit is really important. sleep to get energy but try your best to use that energy for productive things that distract you from rituals and loops in your head

[Anonymous No.15027222]

>>15025499
get to the roots of your problem
look for imbalances deep down within your soul

[Anonymous No.15027229]

>>15027057
> the solutions to my problems must be the solution for everyone else's problems.
Sorry your dad hit you and mommy but y'all probably had it coming. Glad you could find a way to project your aggression on others in a way that won't get you arrested. Facing adversity doesn't have to be in the form of rolling on the ground with sweaty dudes

[Anonymous No.15027241]

>>15027161
kinda depends on what you mean. When I'd get massive depressive episodes I'd NEED to sleep 14 hours. Find I feel way healthier with like 4-6 hours at most. Having something to wake up for helps because if theres no reason to get out of bed other than to start drinking again, you're going to sleep way too much.
So like all other anons said get some shit to do, force a reason to not slowly kill yourself. All of this is easier said than done, I know, but like I said above I've made it two years off the bad shit and if I didnt stop I dont know if id even still be alive, so really: anyone can do it.
Be strong fren

[Anonymous No.15027279]

>>15027161
14 hours?

[Anonymous No.15027295]

>>15027241
Take it from me: youre tired for a reason when you are facing these problems. Any doctor or shrink would advice you to sleep as much as you can, don’t force yourself with little sleep. Your body needs healing and sleeping is a great way of doing so. But BE motivated when you are awake to do a workout/go for a long walk. Whatever, as long as you do something to take your mind of the situation.

[Anonymous No.15027313]

>>15027279
Nothing wrong with sleeping 14 anons if you feel you need it. Been there myself.

[Anonymous No.15027389]

>>15027241
>>15027279
>>15027313
Also used to sleep 14 hours, sometimes 16 a day on the weekends when depressed or when I was getting 30 minutes to 4 hours of sleep during the weekdays.

Very true that waking up to something exciting is a great way to be motivated.

[Anonymous No.15027395]

>>15027279
go to sleep at 7 and wake up at 9, you still get the whole day to do whatever you want

[Anonymous No.15027412]

>>15027229
ignorance is bliss

[Anonymous No.15027417]

>>15027295
Fair enough anon, makes more sense now. I think I just always associated lots of sleep with my really depressive episodes, so I wasnt fixing shit regardless.

[Anonymous No.15027424]

>>15027229
>hurr durr you just want to let your agressions out on someone else

its not that simple

[Anonymous No.15027428]

>>15027395
i stay up 24 hours and then i sleep 14 hours. so basically one day lasts 38 hours in my life. this has been going on for literally years. i cant fight it.

[Anonymous No.15027461]

>>15027428
Get some Zolpidem, take it 3 times a week. Your sleeping pattern is a big issue and will only make your problems worse anon. Go see a shrink please.

[Anonymous No.15027528]

>>15027461
>zolpidem
>>15025773


will see a shrink anon. nothing to lose.

[Anonymous No.15027545]

>>15027528
Thanks fren, you can do it.

[Anonymous No.15027817]

>>15027424
you have problems in validating your masculinity so you listen to pseudointellectuals on JRE that spout of buzzwords about how society has erased a young man's way to self-actualization. what you fail to realize is that the answer is more obvious than you could every imaging bucko, just have sex.

[Anonymous No.15028406]

>>15027545
god bless u fren

[Anonymous No.15028425]

>>15025499
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
SELL YOUR CONDOMS NOW

[Anonymous No.15028499]

>>15028425

[Anonymous No.15028530]

Try LSD, it can overload the circuits used for OCD and give you a different pattern of thinking.