am i the most mental ill bizraeli?

[Anonymous No.11270744]

how do i beat ocd and being a tard "perfectionist"? its torturing me ever since a child.

few examples:

>used to throw away my most overpowered yugioh and pokemon cards because they had light scratches and were then worthless in my opinion
>when i accidently trained def 2 on my runescape pure i had to restart a new account from scratch because its not perfect
>when i fail nofap on oct 1 i need to restart on nov 1 because 2nd date looks terrible
>when i fail nofap i need to fap 3 times that day
>idk why prob cause i been lifting for years and sets of 3 is in my head now
>if i binge after midnight then the day is already ruined and i stuff myself with food until im close to puke
>i drink until i nearly pass out or stay sober
>its either all or nothing
>either i drive a porsche or amg or rather take the bus
>either i have an ap on my arm or no watch at all
>i bulk on 6000 calories and cut on protein modified fasting
>emy whole workout regime has to be free weights, machines are not "clean"
>as a child i wanted a nintendo ds. when i got it and it got a first scratch i didnt want it anymore
>same with any smartphones
>either my room is 1a cleaned or looks like dogshit
>etc etc

[Anonymous No.11270862]

Jesus anon, are you me?
>used to throw away my most overpowered yugioh and pokemon cards because they had light scratches and were then worthless in my opinion
This was me with dual master cards
I feel like we are soul mates

[Anonymous No.11270867]

>>11270744
Your first pic fitted better, anon.

[Anonymous No.11270890]

>>11270862
hello anon.
>duel master cards
i forgot, had these aswell.

[Anonymous No.11270894]

I got a new laptop few year ago and already want I new one cus I feel I have taited this one with junk, even thou I do disk cleanup and what not every so often. Also I have a habit or factory reseting

[Anonymous No.11270905]

>>11270894
I meant few months ago

[Anonymous No.11270919]

>>11270894
ok, YOU are infact me.

this literally happens every fucking time.

[Anonymous No.11270932]

>>11270744
sounds like a living hell. I happy to say i can not relate to any of this.

[Anonymous No.11270951]

>>11270919
Are you found of collecting phisical thing too?

[Anonymous No.11270968]

>>11270932
>living hell
it is anon. being perfectionist has its advantages aswell, like having a good physique and money but its still hell. the thing is i dont know anything else so im used to it but i want to finally try to change now in my 20s before its to late.

[Anonymous No.11271013]

>>11270951
i used to when i was younger extremely, like sneakers, books etc but that extreme turned into the opposite. now i wanna be as minimalistic as possible and find comfort in it. for example, delete any image, app or file from my phone or pc i dont need. i dont have a single image saved. i wanted to erase my past. throw old clothes away.
i have 1 big luxury bed in my room and thats it.

[Anonymous No.11271016]

>>11270968
Anon, did you have OCD when it came to writing letters and numbers as a kid?

[Anonymous No.11271038]

You are like me (I am MC, you NPC ofc).

Some of this will go by itself the older you get, some of it the poorer you got, some of it the more you convince yourself (ex: having a scratch in my PC makes it my own special thing), same of it will stay with you forever, and you gotta learn to live with it.

[Anonymous No.11271054]

>>11271016
im not sure, it def was present in first grade because i remember being ocd about how i store my pokemon games for gameboy and how i wanna setup my room.

im not sure if it was already present in kindergarden though. because i can remember having a digimon plushie and it got dirty and that got me pissed but at 8-10 years old i already was aware that im "different"

[Anonymous No.11271063]

>>11271038
>You are like me (I am MC, you NPC ofc).
jesus, that's exactly my thought process . I feel like I'm destined for something.

[Anonymous No.11271070]

>>11271054
Yea. I had that ocd in early grades

[Anonymous No.11271075]

>>11271016
>>11271054

oh nvm, i read it wrong. "did ocd start when first writing letters"

i cant remember having ocd about writing but i def have ocd now about numbers. some i like some i dont. some fit, some dont.

the most insane thing is when i fail nofap i either need to fap 1x or 3x lmao. 2x doesnt fit

[Anonymous No.11271086]

Nice bait if truth you reallly really had to get medical help before kys

[Anonymous No.11271094]

>>11271075
Same, I always start nofap exactly after midnight

[Anonymous No.11271100]

>>11271063
>I feel like I'm destined for something.
this. i unironically believe i see and feel the world in an unique way only i can. even my thoughts etc.

i know its delusion but my brain still wants to believe im 1 of a kind

[Anonymous No.11271101]

Do you bite lump of you tounge?

[Anonymous No.11271113]

>>11271101
lumps* your*

[Anonymous No.11271125]

>>11270744
I used to have some obsessive tendencies as well, everything needed to be aesthetic and in it's place or I'd be compelled to try and fix it, including my hair and beard which I would pluck neurotically.
My advice is to get a pet rabbit and let it hop around your room freely (protect your cords & cables first). They can be litterbox trained to an extent but will probably poop and piss everywhere ocassionally. You can't really get mad at them because negative reinforcement doesn't work on something with no understanding of cause & effect. This will teach you patience and understanding. Meditation and mindfullness can help train away your neuroses as well. Neuroplasticity enhancing supplements can help as well (psyilocibin being a good one)

[Anonymous No.11271133]

Sorry for my misspelling, I so exhilarated knowing that someone out there is just like me.

[Anonymous No.11271134]

>>11271101
yes i do. since forever, the inner flesh of the mouth aswell. also bite my finger nails

[Anonymous No.11271159]

>>11271086

[Anonymous No.11271183]

>>11271134
ok, you are me 100%. Let me guess, you used to peal wounds as a kid?

[Anonymous No.11271189]

>>11271183
scabs*

[Anonymous No.11271205]

>>11271183
yes of course, but dont all kids? kek

do you daydream aswell alot?

[Anonymous No.11271276]

I always do. Sometimes I wouldn't get sleep, cus I kept thinking of how I would approach a girl the next day and what not(it usually never went through).

[Anonymous No.11271277]

ITT: """unique""" NPCs circle jerking each other to (ironically) validate their uniqueness.

[Anonymous No.11271282]

>>11271277
Begone NPC. Real players are talking

[Anonymous No.11271288]

>>11271100
>this. i unironically believe i see and feel the world in an unique way only i can. even my thoughts etc.

Of course you are, brainlet. Just like everyone else. Everyone sees the world in their own unique way, some more similar than others but everyone is unique.

[Anonymous No.11271312]

>>11271288
No NPC, you can't comprehend the thought prosses of real players

[Anonymous No.11271313]

>>11271282
You reach a fork in the chan,
would you like to:
>Keep believing you're a unique snowflake
or
>Exit & Save

[Anonymous No.11271353]

>>11271277
>>11271288
kys npc

[Anonymous No.11271361]

>>11270894
> bought a new laptop
> slap an SSD into the old one and use it rather

[Anonymous No.11271400]

Why sometimes Katies tits look like saggy pieces of sand and sometimes firm balloons (like that sesame street gif). Did she get surgery at some point? Are there any reliable nudes?

[Anonymous No.11271449]

>>11271313
The thing is, I don't thing I'm the smartest person. there are plenty of NPC's that are way smarter than me.
I'm sophisticated, yet flawed and mentaly unstanble. I can be scheming, paranoid. I will often break down the thought prosses of my peers and friends. in my head. I'm want to be good person and I am one, yet I have hendonistic and materealistic tendencies/crawing.

[Anonymous No.11271465]

>>11271449
you are me anon.

did you do that personality meme test? im entp

[Anonymous No.11271467]

>>11271449
I know, it's cringe and edgy. I just wanted to let it out.

[Anonymous No.11271471]

>>11271400
This particular pic is photoshopped to hell so there's that.

[Anonymous No.11271477]

>>11270744
B A S E D
A A E N I
S S X E K
E E E M E
D D D A D

[Anonymous No.11271526]

>>11271465
just checked it out. I'm was pretty sadistic as a kid. I burned snails and lizards alive. I regret it all now.

[Anonymous No.11271546]

>>11271526
> cooks a snail
> woah I'm pretty sadistic
thanks for kek anon

[Anonymous No.11271558]

>>11270744
OP read "Feeling Good" by David Burns. What you are describing is a cognitive distortion called "all or nothing thinking"

[Anonymous No.11271561]

>>11271546
They were alive minds you.

[Anonymous No.11271568]

>>11271526
do the test anon and report back, takes like 5 minutes

[Anonymous No.11271606]

>>11270744
she look like sex doll is she uncanny valley mang

[Anonymous No.11271689]

>>11271558
thanks anon

[Anonymous No.11271706]

>>11271568
INTP-T aka logician

[Anonymous No.11271736]

>>11270744
Good God, Anon
See a psychiatrist or look up best practices on how to cure ocd and the like
You're wasting mankind's resources this way if you're really throwing away perfectly good shit and not at least giving it to people or selling it

[Anonymous No.11271749]

When I was a child, I would pick up and take home the most random pebbles and sticks that caught my eye. Then in middle school, I started taking screenshots of every CAPTCHA I filled out.

That puts me in OCD territory, right?

[Anonymous No.11271757]

>>11271706
the closest type to me

[Anonymous No.11271776]

>>11271757
Except the part where I want to fuck myself

[Anonymous No.11271974]

>>11270744
Sounds bipolar to me. If you are just join the club, fuck the grey areas, and never ever go to a shrink.

[Anonymous No.11271982]

>>11270744
kek, this cheap whore is considered an 11/10 in America.

[Anonymous No.11272126]

>>11270744
alright faggots listen up coming from a producer that suffers from this greatly. Its like this with any type of creative field. Any artist will never be satisfied with the work they do so they have to learn when its good enough and move on. That gay faggot saying is "art is never finished just abandoned."

tldr - OP is a faggot

[Anonymous No.11272587]

>>11272126
neat