LSD, microdosing, mdma, aliens.

[Anonymous No.10696837]

>Be in my early 20's with severe depression
>Used btc to score a 50 sheet off darknet
>Trip off 150-300ug once a fortnight and furiously masturbate to POV porn and fleshlight and cum 5-6 times during peak, and watch anime during comedown
>During this period become obsessed with alien abduction theories, ufo's, NWO and other tinhat foil theories.
>One time score 2 mdma pills and decide to roll at home solo, to try to self-medicate for depression. Ended up trying to get it up and masturbating because why not.
>Decided to take 4 tabs (600ug) during mdma peak to try to cure depression once and for all with a heroic dose
>Around 90 mins later, laying in bed, walls melting, starting to lose grasp of visuals of my room, can suddenly feel a presence in my room
>Look up towards middle of room, there's a warm translucent glow that did not visually "move or wave" like the rest of the reality. Scared shitless and put my head under blankets trying to sleep what seemed like a bad trip away.
> Around 15 minutes later, can hear helicopter insanely close to my house, hovering above it, got out of bed, the glow was gone, can see black unmarked heli doing circles around my street with search lights and all, and left around 10 minutes after.
>Flashbacks to reading about how unmarked government heli's do scout the areas after reports of UFO's.
>Grabbed a bottle of bourbon, did a quarter bottle to sleep as thoughts of being "visited" just plagued my mind. It worked.

After that experience, never fucked with LSD again recreationally, it is some powerful substance that needs to be respected, and only done given the right mindstate, setting and company. These days I'll drop 15-30ug every 3 days to microdose as a nootropic. I still think about that experience quite often.

[Anonymous No.10696864]

nice larp. you sensational child

[Anonymous No.10696873]

>>10696837
KYS you degenerate junky

[Anonymous No.10696895]

why would you take 600ug of lsd after you just flushed all the serotonin out of your brain? youre asking for trouble if you dont know wtf youre taking does to you

[Anonymous No.10696913]

>>10696895
Inspired by all the erowid reports of how mdma, shrooms and/or lsd large doses put a stop to depression. Young and naive.

[Anonymous No.10696921]

I had high hopes after the first half, but feel let down.
also, why is this in /biz/

[Anonymous No.10696946]

>trying to sleep on 600ug of lsd
>trying to sleep on lsd

Weak larp

[Anonymous No.10696955]

These are great business tips and tricks.

[Anonymous No.10696964]

>>10696837
>This board is for the discussion of topics related to business, economics, financial markets, securities, currencies (including cryptocurrencies), commodities, etc -- as well as topics relating to starting and running a business.

[Anonymous No.10696985]

You should be extremely cautious about anybody/anything presenting itself as an alien. Before interacting with them, see if they can praise God/Jesus; those that cannot are demons.

[Anonymous No.10697004]

>>10696837

[Anonymous No.10697024]

Larp. I took 7 tabs before it was nothing like this. LSD is worth trying if you're in a right state of mind but doing it regulary is stupid.

[Anonymous No.10697030]

>>10696985

))) demons (((

((( god/jesus )))

[Anonymous No.10697072]

>>10696837
Fixing your depression isn't done by taking some pills fapping and hoping it goes away.

You're abusing these substances and there's a high chance they messed you up even more. LSD just amplifies what is already there. It opens things up but its still upt to you to channel that energy you dipshit. If you take LSD and end up fapping and abusing drugs hoping things sort themselves out you're delusional.

Thats right. You're absolutely delusional about your current mental state and how to solve it. You have no idea. Your fundamentals are so fucked.

You cure your depression by doing LSD and writing about yourself, your past, present and future. Face the nasty depressing facts about yourself you don't want to acknowledge and most importantly/ DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

Compare yourself to who you were yesterday/

Do not lie. You dont know what that means right now trust me. Like I said you're delusional. You're in a mental prison you built yourself.

Do not lie to yourself. If you want to change you need things to sacrifice.

Your old self needs to die.

Your old wants and desires need to die for somethign new to be born.

This is process that will take a year or two and will come with tremendous amount of suffering and work.

Shit will be hard in the beginning. You're killing your old weak self. But things will get better. The new you will take over and you'll break away from your delusions and see things differently' Things won't hurt but feel great' You'll be ashamed and agry about yourself about how retarded you were' Like seriously you'll barely recognze yourself if you get to this point and thats a good things. There will be ups and downs. Your old self wont go down without a fight. But you will win if you learn to aim and plan at where you want to go.

Do not lie to yourself. Learn what this means.

If you can't handle that you can stick to fucking yourself up and dying miserably, bitter and full with regrets. Taking the hard road is fun trust me

[Anonymous No.10697081]

>>10696946
I've had bad trips before, and could always drink to the point where I black out on lsd. Sober it's another story

>>10696985>>10697004
>>10697030

Told a friend this story before, said the same thing how it could be demons. Agnostic to this theory.

>>10697024
It affects everyone differently, and either you or myself could had gotten hold of NBOMEs instead

[Anonymous No.10697112]

>>10696837
You did not take 600ug you lying little shit. One does not simply "sleep" on very high doses on LSD. If you would have taken LSD, the black helicopters would've freaked you so badly. Not only that but you would also lose all track and your mind would be too busy making connections to everything.

[Anonymous No.10697127]

>>10696837
drugs are never the solution to anything, they will make you feel more like shit in the long run

[Anonymous No.10697203]

>>10697072
Appreciate the post anon, the realisation of your truths in your post is starting to come by with heavy daily meditation and keeping a journal, writing really does help. Nameste.

>>10697112
Have you tried drinking to black out during a bad trip to end it? Believe what you want, I knew what happened.

[Anonymous No.10697222]

>>10697081
Lol first time I did LSD was after during an afterparty with already 2 pills of mdma in my system. First two hours were awesome, after that it was a nightmare

[Anonymous No.10697307]

>>10697203
yw anon I was in a very similar vicious cycle but I got out of it, it wasn't easy but you can do it

break those god damn mental prisons FUCKING BEAK THEM