/biz/ - Business & Finance

>>29773628
About 5 years ago when my best friend killed himself

>>29773720
You never, ever cried after that? Im sorry to hear it.

>>29773839
I might have shed some tears of joy when my first son was born, but it's not like I was weeping ever again since then, no. I decided not to give a shit about feelings anymore after my friends death. Works quite well and keeps you from panic selling crypto

Crying is for pussies and no coiners.

When I was 16 when my parents divorced. Haven't cried since, wish I could

I cried in the car the other day because a song made me emotional
I think I was having mood swings from alcohol withdrawal though

>>29773628
This morning when i refreshed my portfolio

Yesterday in the car drinving home from work while listening to Linkin Park after a long time. Felt nice

>>29773628
three months ago. I got drunk and started crying because I'm lonely

>>29773628
Years ago you fucking pussy

>>29773628
probably last July when I re-read flowers for algernon

>>29773628
Cried last Friday when I hit $180k, the euphoria was through the rough, felt better than being in love.

2 weeks ago, because even though I'm fit, make good money, like my job, have bought a house, have hobbies, have a girlfriend whose virginity I took and wants to marry me but I cant see her very often, I still feel lonely as fuck because I have literally no family members still alive.

>>29773628
yesterday when I was listening to some old songs and the nostalgia hit me hard

>>29773628
last night when i finally watched picrel and it caught me completely fucking off-guard by the end

>>29773628
couple weeks ago thinking about all the kids and babies being sold/bred into slavery and abused, tortured, raped and murdered
epstein didnt kill himself

>>29776318
Make some anon.

I did cry when I lost an elderly friend and personal mentor of mine. That was back at 17

>>29773839
No, as it turns out, stoic, grown men don't cry that much.

Over a decade ago.

Couple weeks ago when I felt my son kick in his mother's womb

>>29776915
>>29774287
>>29775846
>>29776318
>>29776435
>>29776765
Here is your dopamine kick

I almost cried earlier this year when I found out my cousin killed himself. I wasn't extremely close to him but it was still a shock because he was the last person I expected to kill himself. He also left behind a daughter and a newborn son.

>>29774287
THE BASED STOIC INVESTOR

>>29773628
So long I dont even remember, yet sadly there are some regrets that will haunt me until I die and there is nobody to blame for except myself.

when daft punk recently retired from music I cried listening to random access memories

>>29773628
>29773628
yesterday, and daily before that for about a month after my gf broke up with me. hurts a lot bros.

haven't cried but im getting rejected from every single grad school i applied to despite being a really good student according to my professors, im really uncertain about my future and the stress is eating at me

2 weeks ago. I made a terrible choice on this house and my father cosigned and won't let go.
I feel like I've bulldozed the next five years of my life

>>29773628
Unironically came close to crying when I was at my wits end with work and my fiance basically told me she was questioning our relationship. I had been a major prick lately and needed a wake up call.

The last time I actually cried? Its been at least 5 or 6 years.

>>29779540
Can I have details? I am buying a house soon.

>>29779160
What's your field? Going for phd?

>>29776077
>ever crying in your entire life
ngmi

>>29773628
Yesterday when your mom left me

>>29773628
every morning before pulling the plugs out of my ears

when peepee stuck in door jam

>>29780072
yeah, pure math (interests are ergodic theory and dynamical systems, but ive also been interested in model theory and logic).

>>29773628
Last summer my 1 year old dog got extremely sick and almost died, he spent a week in the animal hospital and I wasn’t allowed to see him at all because of chink flu. I thought for sure I would never see him again so I cried myself to sleep every night of that week. Other than that, I cry every time Boromir dies in LOTR.

3 days ago when i shorted ETH at $2025, got stopped out when it bounced back because i forgot to move my stop loss and then angrily decided to long btc at 52k and so instead of making an insane amount of money i got liquidated

>>29773628
a couple weeks ago when my grandma died

was surprised, I'm normally okay with death.

>>29780580
Sounds nice being math master race. I am in my last year of my PhD in a physical science, it's been a good experience
>tfw advisor sent me reviewer comments to address last week
>tfw still haven't finished
If I remember correctly this is about the time you should be hearing back from all the schools you applied to. Not a single one accepted you? You aimed to high, should have had a backup

>>29773720
One of my friends died in a car crash and I didn’t cry for 4 years after that. Until I watched Pixar’s Inside Out, for some reason something clicked and I ended up sobbing for like an hour. I felt very good after that.

Last week I think

cried watching the eight hundred tbqh

And to answer your question OP I actually choked up a bit yesterday because my cat’s hind leg went lame and I thought I’d have to put her down or something and I rushed her to the vet to see what was wrong and she dislocated her knee cap somehow but my sweet girl is okay now :3

>>29780915
supposedly covid has literally made the number spots go from like 30 per program to like 10, every professor said that I was a pretty good applicant but I'm still getting shit on relentlessly. My self esteem has taken such a severe beating that I'm not really sure what to do anymore, i thought id get into at least one. i didn't really have a backup plan for what id do, and i have no real practical skills for a job since i like pure math

>>29773628
I was surfing weird youtube holes and came to some Muslim duas against Jinn and demons https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fuwLUb2hc8
last night and a comment on one video or another asked for prayers for his wife and child
tears came to my eyes and i prayed for them fervently

It has been 8 years.

>>29781594
That's bullshit imo, my program received a fraction of the normal 1st year recruits but that's because most of the accepted applicants chose to defer for a year because of covid. You can go the route many math and physics majors go and do something in finance or quantitative analysis. You do have some coding experience, right? If not take some time to learn and build a portfolio. Make a LinkedIn and try to get in contact with some recruiters, I promise you there's a job for you out there. It won't be ideal but you can find something for a year while you reapply. I also work closely with the national lab scene, there are TONS of opportunities for post bac experience and internships, especially for people with math and physics backgrounds. Look into internships and post bac programs with DOE national labs like sandia, brookhaven, livermore, etc. Plenty of opportunities out there that people just don't know about.

>>29780011
Stake out the area at all times of the day. I thought incidental traffic wouldn't matter, but it starts at like 5am with a heavy commute burst.
I can't fucking sleep man

>>29782383
my coding skills are extremely subpar, to the point where it's like a women in tech tier (i know like the most basic of basics, and some mathematica). I actually live really close to sandia, but most of my career has just been entirely about pure math research and very little practical application, so im not sure if they woudl take me for a post bac. But if you have the time, can we get in contact to see if I have any potential? I'd really appreciate some help here, I haven't slept or eaten at all due to sheer stress

>>29782730
I promise you they've taken worse applicants with less experience. Just pick up an "intro to X programming" book and do the exercises and put that on a github, just have something (anything) on there. If they take women in tech tier skills they'll take you in a heartbeat. You don't have to constrain yourself to pure math, your skills are actually very generalizable in practice you just don't realize it yet. I promise you the potential is already there, everything you need is already inside you. Just start doing some coding exercises and put that on a github, any coding experience with your pure math background is very valuable for the projects going on in the DOE labs and right now that all the internships and postbacs are defacto done remotely relocation isn't even an issue.

wow, great pump I passed by
need advice guys, someone uses Bot Ocean project?
worth buying or better to check for other bots?
want to test trading with bots and tools

i cried today when i realized that things will never be as they once were. my ex is gone, my parents are getting older and the friends i made in school and uni are gone. fuck, i watched some old videos and pictures on my phone today. all those holidays, days of pure joy with my best friends as we were chilling at the sea not giving a single fuck about anything. after seeing the pictures of me and my ex i couldnt stop the tears. its been a while since i cried. there was some sort of a relief when i cried but i still feel empty and sad. i am afriad that this feeling is never going to stop. any tips?

Some tell you to sell
Other try to bring you fucking trash

>don’t believe in this shill, a lot of trash on biz today
my bro always tells me - want to mine and get income - use not eth platform
>check ENQ, this is best eco for this year

>>29773628
when grandpa died

>>29783194
wait is that really all it takes? I assumed I would need to do actual projects in order to put them on github. I used mathematica to create an iterated function system to model certain types of Cantor sets, do you think I could just copy paste that code onto github and be ready to apply? There's no way it can be that simple lmao

Today actually, my husbands mom went back into the hospital, she was in so much pain she couldn't stand and my SIL's boyfriend had to lift her

When my Mum told me on the phone my Auntie is in hospital and she's in a coma and then got sepsis and wil die and I'll never have a chance to say sorry

And then 2 months later one of my best friends was murdered and stabbed almost 20 times

I was literally crying on the sofa at my mate's listening to him fuck his missus in the other room
Fuck man
Bad cries too
Not like boohoo but like full of rage grief passion compassion empathy sorrow regret etc
Oh yeah like half a year after my mate got killed I did LSD and had a full on breakdown I think I was crying like never before over my dead friend. It was kind of relieving tho. RIP L Man love you RIP Auntie T RIP K RIP A I'll see ya one day :(

>>29783310
Be grateful you got to enjoy those experiences at all. Even if your life has already peaked, be thankful for the things you once had. The future is uncertain, but the past will always be there, memories for you to reflect on and smile. Life can't compete with memories, they never have to change.

>>29777610

>>29776915
>mfw wife’s son kicks my hand

>>29783624
Yes, expectations aren't nearly as high as you think they are. You're a blank slate which is more ideal than someone set in their ways already. If you're going for a senior position you need some finished projects but let's be real not many with a BS have that, they'd be excluding too much potential talent if that was the case. Add some python or C (everyone has a hardon for python for these national lab applications in particular) and you're golden.

>>29784112
man you don't crap if the guy's life peaked, that could just be the start of his life

>>29784736
Huh?

>>29773628
When my mother died when I was 11. I've been dead inside ever since anon.

right now

literally just cried of loneliness about 10 minutes ago
this lockdown shit is really getting to me bros
>work from home, literally never met any of my co-workers face-to-face
>estranged from my family
i feel so fucking hopeless
at least i have money i guess

Shh anon, is ok to cry

You're safe here

Year and a half ago when my grandpa died. The night before I also got rejected too. Managed to hold it in somehow until the end of the funeral the following day when the priest gave a speech. The speech was so beautiful and I couldn't hold it in anymore.

>>29773628
tears of joy when bitcoin broke ATH a few month ago and i was finally free from holding those fucking bags for 3 years and sold at no loss. never again will i put one dollar in creepto, only stocks and business shares.

A year ago when I was thinking about how people would feel if I offed myself

2019

I got drunk on July 4th 2018 and got so sick and wasted and I started crying like a weakling bitch.
My grandpa died in summer 2019 and I cried a few days before he died because him and I had a touching moment in the hospital. (I was his caretaker for his final 2-3 weeks)
A few weeks ago I saw the 10th episode of Violet Evergarden and although I didn't cry watching it, the beauty of that episode weighed on my heart for a few hours and I cried when I tried to go to sleep that night.
That's like the only crying i've done the last 10 years.

>>29783310
emotions do not last forever, best way to recover from a breakup is to let the clock work. also let yourself cry. its one of the most powerful feelings. beleive it or not there are people who cannot experience greif. im in a similar boat anon.

i cried yesterday because of loneliness and frustration at the stagnation of my current life.

>>29773628
When I was 17, around 12 years ago

12 years ago my father died. I was going down a really bad path so my friend got me a dog, he completely turned my life around. I was headed for suicide or prison before him. He was my best friend and I loved him more than anything. He died last month and I haven't stopped crying since.

2 days ago

Every time I see my best friend’s mom.

Since his murder, the light has gone from her eyes. Just a shell of who she was when we were growing up.

>>29773628
Today when I lost everything on GME

>>29784354
im just really intimidated every time i see the qualifications because they almost never overlap with anything I have, where do you reccomend I begin applying? thanks for your time btw, having some hope at the end of this shit makes me slightly less suicidal

>>29773628
i tear up pretty frequently but don’t fully cry. last time was watching a jordan peterson podcast with him talking about what he went through recently. he helped me out so much with his ideas and it hurts to see him like that. last time i fully cried was when me n my gf of two years broke up. cried a lot then

>>29788241
How was he murdered anon and for what reason? That's sad man.

Every time i think of my qt gf i will never see again after high school. That was 10 years ago

>>29788351
How much did you lose anon? Hope it wasn't everything.

i watched forrest gump a few weeks back. that did it.

but real despair came this morning when i saw btc was revisiting the lows. i haven't felt like that for a long time.

>>29773628
Everyday, it's called releasing, only spiritual anons will get it

Twice the other day while on magic mushrooms.

The first time about grief that I had pent up regarding the recent passing of my grandmother.

The second time while listening to some music. It sounded so beautiful and resonated with me on such a profound level, it was like the medium of music itself was opening up to me and connecting me directly to the heart and soul of the musician and for this very moment our spirits danced together across space and time.

>>29788378
Apply anywhere you even remotely fit some, not even all, qualifications. Diversify my man. I have experience with sandia and brookhaven in particular and they have huge internship programs for recent graduates and now that it's exclusively done remotely you're exactly what they're looking for. If you see something that interests you in particular or that you are a good match don't be afraid to email the potential advisor directly. They're busy people but they always make time and appreciate the enthusiasm. National labs have so much funding for these kinds of programs and they're surprisingly unheard of by their target demographics, they're desperate to get people and use the funding.

>>29773628
One hour ago, when I randomly listened to the OST of some vidya I played as kid. It suddenly pulled me back to this long forgotten time of careless joy and wonder. And the sudden, stark contrast to this grown up world of cynicism and hypocrisy that I now inhabit broke something inside of me. What has become of this child of times gone by? When did he stop dreaming his dreams? I don't recall waking up.

>>29788991
are these internship programs paid? I'd like a resume booster for grad school and time to study for the math GRE if literally every school rejected me (I'll know by the end of march), but it wouldn't hurt to get more money for crypto

>>29789657
they're all paid internships through the labs and its bretty decent
>tfw fucking interns make more money than my RA stipend

>>29783457
This.
He died last month. Had to cry several times.
I loved him.

Last month when my grandmother was widowed.

Yesterday I was having sex with my boyfriend and my ass hurt so bad I cried

>>29773628
2 weeks ago when my father had an accident that left him paraplegic

>>29789847
thanks for all the help, is there any way i could contact you if i have more questions? my whole plan has kinda been unraveled so i need to figure out wtf i want to do. Also, is it too late to apply? I remember that to get a summer job, you needed to apply in the fall of last year...

8 years and 30 days ago

I can't remember. My father passed about 6 years ago and I did not cry. Work had to be done and everyone else was crying. We had him at home till the end (brain cancer) and I watched him waste away to nothing then go. At times I question myself and think I should have done something to ease his passing 2-3 months before the end. At times I wonder if the whole.. emotional men thing is a meme perpetuated by entertainment media.

>>29789603
>When did he stop dreaming his dreams? I don't recall waking up.
I don't recall having dreams as a kid. Just carefree memories of doing stuff in the ocean or the park etc. I never wanted to be X or have Y. I hope I can raise my kids to be the same, it makes life easier.

>>29776318
damn man that's a unique kind of feel. sounds like you're in the perfect spot to make you're own family tho.

>>29791138
there are specific summer internship programs i believe you are beyond the deadline for but other general postbac positions don't have a deadline. just make some money, build your CV, and for the love of God have a backup next time around. I'd assume you took the GRE but if you didn't you should absolutely take it, I made a 163 on the quant portion first try without studying and it was good enough for my purposes, it's not a difficult exam. I ended up accepting the offer from my least "prestigious" school i applied to but at the end of the day what matters most about grad school is your advisor and my advisor has been amazing, i've pumped out nearly 20 publications including a few in very high impact journals.

>>29773628
>go home for junkie ex friends funeral, kinda sucked
>same day tell your parents you need to drop out for a bit
> you feel like shit even though its not your fault and they don't blame you
>post discussion, a headline comes out as read to you offhand by your parent that someone local was arrested for producing bad things. you slept over their house a lot in the past as a kid and they know this.
>all floods back, but you catch yourself
>silence broken by parent: "pretty funny huh?"
>"yeah..." this was not the truth
>2nd worst day of your life, all within a 4 hour timespan
Wasnt great.

>>29791595
Oh I had my dreams alright! You see, first, as a toddler, I wanted to be crane operator. Because you're so high up and how cool is that. Then I wanted to be a streetcar driver. Because I loved the iconic streetcars of my hometown. I even memorized all the stops along my favorite lines. Then I discovered vidya. Clearly, I wanted to be a vidya programmer. I even taught myself programming because of it. That was fifteen years ago or so. I'm a software dev now. A pretty good one. But somehow my dreams and ambitious have been lost along the way. Stuck in a mediocre, boring job. With mediocre pay. Mediocre superiors. Mediocre co-workers. Talking to mediocre contractors, trying to make them do mediocre work for my mediocre bosses.

I think I'm gonna cash in some of my gains and quit next week.

>>29791833
The math subject GRE was cancelled this year which is partly why the application process is such a coinflip. I got a 330 on the regular one (166 quant 164 verbal 5 essay), but most of the schools i applied to weren't accepting them. I didn't have a backup because literally all my reccomenders said i should be able to get into at least one of the schools i applied. i guess they didn't think it would be this bad lmao. I only have one publication on arXiv with only a 3.8, so i guess my stats may also be another reason idfk

>>29787911
I am so sorry

>>29773628
This afternoon at lunch when I took a break to have lunch with my 10-month old daughter. She was so happy to see me. I shared a bento box with her and she loved it. She makes my heart swell with joy every time I see her. She stood on her own for the first time today and she was so fucking proud of herself.

>>29773628
The last time I thought about the future for more than twenty seconds my dude.

>>29780715
Kek. Glad your dogs fine now.

>>29785166
what's your discord ID? It's important to have people around you.