/biz/ - Business & Finance

>went jogging last night, which felt great, but wasted rest of time on mindless internet browsing (Friday after work is always criminally wasted by me)
>slept at 2 am
>woke up at 10 am
>browsed internet, drank coffee, did chores
>went to gym
>lifted the heaviest weights I've lifted in a while, though with low volume
>saw some gymthots, felt sad
>went back to flat, did chores
>only left for my usual walk at 3 pm
>walked my usual walk, listened to the usual podcasts
>sat at a library, read a bit; left and regretted it immediately because I had nowhere to walk to
>walked through park
>Saturday felt more wasted than usual, despite the heavy lifting
>now drinking coffee, knowing this will be the highlight of my weekend
>browsing alt-right twitter and blogs
>will binge at McDonald's soon; guilt free because I'll lift heavy today and tomorrow

I posted last night about how I felt sad at not being an accomplished technical person after seeing the No Man's Sky internet historian video. I also was sad after seeing the social media profiles of two coworkers. One was an over 30s woman who I had a crush on for 5 hours, and got over. She lifemogs me, based on her constant holidays. The other was a woman who I thought was ten years older than me but is the same age and has the same job, despite her social skills and confidence mogging mine (everyone does this but hers is a lack of formality that made it more surprising).

I see every single day as the final day to waste before my life starts tomorrow. I have felt this way for years.

I haven't seen many Staceys today, but quite a few Chad and Stacey couples, which is demoralising. Walking around feels so pathetic as a 29 year old. Maybe it was acceptable 5 years ago but I should be an adult now.

I have no actual skills. I am simply part of the BS office work industry. At least the work I'm doing can sound good in a resume or job interview.