/biz/ - Business & Finance

>wake up
>have to wake up early; initially feel really tired but the feeling has 90 % gone but I am carrying a compressed ball of tiredness in me
>do some chores outside; felt sad at seeing officeStaceys
>go back to flat
>waste time, drink coffee, do more chores, go outside to do more chores
>ride a bus, which is novel for me; you can really see the run down nature of London from a bus
>girl in the bus on the phone had that working class accent that everyone on here would associate with British porn, though I can't figure out which type it was (accent, not porn)
>haven't exercised for 3 or 4 days but I don't feel too bad; my weight is somehow decreasing
>go back to flat
>unopened Doritos and dip in my flat from a previous binge; not sure what to do with it
>leave flat
>walk my usual route in central London, spend a short time at a library, now drinking coffee

I'm such a consumercuck. I use consumercuck interfaces like paper and online forms and word and excel and it feels so pathetic. I should be the one creating these interfaces. I wish I had gone to an elite university. I wish I had gone to a public school (English posh private school with buildings older than the USA).

I wish I had the energy to do anything. I wish I was a doer, not a consumercuck. I'm actually in a sub-consumercuck state because I haven't even read many books or watched good movies recently. I just waste time online to procrastinate life. It's just the 4chan - 24 hour news - Reddit - a few more websites - 2048 - YouTube merry go round.

I went for a job interview a few days ago in the City of London for a job and it felt insufferable to see the empty suits who all look similar to the empty suits at my job but more laminated. One day I'm the youngster in awe of the place. The next day I'm the fellow adult who sees them as insufferable. Though I still admire silicon valley types.

I considered moving to zone 5 to pay less rent in exchange for a longer commute. But I would feel inferior.