/biz/ - Business & Finance

>>12423377
Sorry for the typos, I am drunk and don't have a car to use. Otherwise I could CO2 the shit out of myself,

Research "Identity Suicide". You go on living, but as a new life.

Instead of suiciding, why don't you just go live out in nature or some shit?

>>12423390
mmm dat looks cool desu

>>12423377
make the world a better place instead of wasting your life

>>12423390
No, I don't want to live as me mate. I fucking hate my life, I am good at web dev and back end, but I fucking hate it, I just want it all to end. I am so sorry that my parents have to go through this, but it's my choice. Truly am sorry for whatever the fuck I did wrong in this life. I hope you guys have a solid fucking life and don't get to the point where I am. I fucking hate myself and can't wait to die. Sorry GF and parents and her parents.

>>12423419
Go live in brazil, or some african country for a year. See if that doesn't change your perspective

>>12423418
>>12423405
I hope you guys can really enjoy nature and the beauty of the world. I am really sorry, honestly have a good day guys.

>>12423419
>has gf
>wants to kill self
Do a flip faggot

>>12423377

Helium exit bag

Nitrogen works too if you are right on cash

May you find peace

>>12423419
wait, can you help me on a proyect before you commit sudoku?, if you can really verify to me your depression i might show you my super secret proyect, biz autistsm its all i need.

Why ask about terminal velocity if you’re going to hang yourself?

>>12423419
don’t do it anon. buy bitcoin and hold at least until the next halvening.

>>12423377
Shotgun in mouth, streaming the whole thing of course.

>>12423428

don't do it anon

Can you stream it?

>>12423419
>>12423428
OK IM GONNA USE MAYUS CUZ I REALLY FUCKING NEED A DEV, ITS ABOUT TRADING N SHIET I MADE SOME BITCORNS THIS BEARMARKET AND I NEED YOUR AUTISM RETARD DONT DIE JUST YET

>>12423377
Don't do it. You have a chemical imbalance and you'll feel better after you find out how to correct it.

>>12423377
wished the time giving thing from the time movie with justin timberlake would be real, then you would give me all your remaining time and you just go off without pain and such

>>12423428
You clearly have some sort of compassion. Volunteer and help out those less fortunate and see if it changes your mind. You can still find happiness anon

>>12423377
Inject some testosterone, fix your sleep schedule, start lifting, and go on vacation to a 3rd world country for a month goyim.

>>12423419
Sober up mate. If it's other ppl make you feel this way you can leave them. If it's your job you can change it. If it's yourself you can feel different. It's all possible. I drunkenly cut my wrist the other day, no more booze for me! Life is different when you change your perspective just takes force. Don't kys mate.

>>12423428
>>12423450
fren you still there?

Honestly, i dont understand why someone would not experience all kinds of crazy shit before taking their lives. Literally take ayahuasca, acid, dmt etc, go down to tijuana bang some hookers, learn to fucking surf, hitchhike, . Take all of the crazy risks fag.. go out the cool way. LITERALLY NOTHING TO LOSE

>>12423435
No secret project man, just honest depression. I am gonna pack up in 20 min and try to make my way to the tower. I really hope SB is going to be there to stop me, I really do.
>>12423431
Fuck off incel you will never touch a girl pathetic faggot.
>>12423439
Money doesn't matter. You are all sheep for following something that is never really important. I have been all in crypto since 2016 and trust me, all the money in the world won't make you happy, I just want to die more and more,
>>12423441
Don't have a gun mate, would love to fucking blow my brains out. I really would like to just fucking shoot myself and be over with it.

>>12423419

Im a web dev and hate my corporate wagie cage too. Boss micro manages my team and tells me how to do my job. Literally everyday we're down more and more because I can't do my damn job. Fuck SEO.

Only thing that gives me peace is hiking/skiing on weekends.

Do you have money to spend on gear anon? Boots, backpack, etc. I can help you get into hiking etc. Just ask me what to buy.

>killing yourself without taking anyone with you

Don't do it

>>12423419
Fug man.
I actually tried to kms with some pills 15 years ago.
Woke up in hospital 3 days later.
No mother, no job and dad in jail at that moment.
After that moment I saw clearer.
Found a job at a factory which also gave a place to sleep, learned how to install gate automations, started to install it for my own profit. In two years after the kms episode I had my own firm.
Later made small construction works and when I hit $1MM I closed the firm.
Now I live of divs and rents for 3 years and I have now $1.5MM assets.
You should try going private.
Ask senpai for help.

>>12423503
This isn't about you mate.

>>12423495

Because you don’t understand what depression is.

>>12423518
Literally take some ayahuasca, see if you’re depressed after. Nothing to lose.

>>12423478
I know right, but it doesn't matter for me. I fucking hate myself. I am such a fucking idiot for posting here jesus.
>>12423482
No worries, unfortunately I am still here..
>>12423468
DESU I have given a fuckton to the less fortunate. I have joined their parties and told them told them to literally to kill me to get all of my money and everything. They think I am insane lol. I really just fucking hope somebody shoots me in the fucking head and I don't have to do it myself. It's so fucking hard..

>>12423497
Based

>>12423496
Run in front of a bus while live, set your phone down on the edge of the building with the camera hanging over while streaming before you jump, I don't know, figure it out. Just make sure you stream it.

>>12423419
>I fucking hate my life, I am good at web dev and back end
What language & framework are you using? And where do you find clients? At least share your secrets before you're done fore.

>>12423526

I’m all for exhausting all possible “treatment” options but when everything fails, ending your life is better than constant suffering

>>12423529
Mate, how is your diet? Eat healthy and take drugs if you need to. The world isn't so bad

>>12423534
why you need his dead?

>>12423539
Yeah thats what im saying.

Having a one in a billion chance to exist and experience all kinds of crazy shit to not do it when you have nothing else to lose is not smart.

>>12423470
Can’t you comprehend not everyone is a white autistic teenager in need to clean their room, you fucking clown?

>>12423529
Do some amphetamines or something holy shit why are people like this so dumb?
Willing to drink alcohol to feel sad, but not willing to get some amphs to feel good?

>>12423503
Good for you if you are not larping.
>>12423518
Honestly, I feel fine most of the time, but at the same time there is this thing that just wants me to fucking fail, it just wants me to be nothing. It doetsn't matter what I do, it just wants me to be nothing, wake up embarrassed the next day if I have been drinking. I think I should fucking end it, but it is so fucking hard, it is so fucking hard, I just want sb to come and beat the fuck out of me and then shoot me in my worthless head. I want it so bad so I never have to do it myself. Fucking kill me somebody please.

>>12423529
Also I'm not talking about homeless people. Do you have a program where you can mentor a kid that doesn't have siblings/stable family? It will make your life so much more fulfilling. Don't be a hero

>>12423566
>I just want sb to come and beat the fuck out of me and then shoot me in my worthless head.
mb you're just gay and need to come out

kidding tho

>>12423566
Have you seen a doctor about your depression yet? Do you take any drugs?

Whilst trembling cause you're afraid of heights, you take the leap.

In the midst of your fall you realize that you actually kinda like the feeling of falling down and it is something that excites you instead of making you anxious. You wonder why you were scared in the first place.

And for a split second you get the feeling of despair, wishing that you jumped off an airplane with a parachute instead.

Few seconds later you're tomato sauce.

Don't be stupid. If you really want to die go fuck hookers snort some cocaine ask the girl you like out run naked in the streets etc. What's the point, you're gonna kill yourself anyway. Might aswell enjoy the last moments.

>>12423538
I do NodeJS, you would never hire me. I am a piece of shit.
>>12423559
I take amphs daily for ADHD and feel sad all the fucking time. I love drinking because it makes me feel more depressed, exactly like I should. Like the piece of fucking shit that I am, the piece of shit that should be dead. I honestly hope that here will be somebody to kill me if I cannot do it myself today.
It would be pathetic if I couldn't do it, but nothing new OFC.

>>12423377
>Can you guys also suggest hanging methods
Take a piano cord instead a rope, do it on a public place, jump at least 3 meters deep

>>12423605
Why are you such a piece of shit?

Whats your crypto stack?

>>12423554

What it seemed like you were saying is why doesn’t OP just go on a world adventure skydiving, blowing coke off hookers and swimming with sharks like a normal happy person who was just given 6 months to live would do.

It’s not the same. The desire doesn’t exist it’s an overwhelming chore/ordeal.

>>12423545
Would prefer he not kill himself, but if he does, i want him to stream it, streamed suicides are a rare occurrence and always make for good memes.

For real though, don't kill yourself OP

>>12423613
That is fucking idiotic.
>>12423616
I am worthless. I am a fucking worthless piece of shit, I don't deserve anything, I make the worst decisions ever, I fucking suck at everything. I hope somebody flushes me down the toilet with a gun.

>>12423605
amphs are the best to make depression more and more severe.

>>12423377
>afraid of heights
You're afraid of dying and would regret it instantly. Stick around anon, your subconscious still knows there's a wonderful life to be lived.

>>12423605
>I do NodeJS, you would never hire me. I am a piece of shit.
Where do you find clients, though? Are you a freelancer?

>>12423605
bro, you have free time? for real i need a dev :'( you might make millions actually.

>>12423630
I won't fucking stream it you fucking idiots. I want to go in peace. It's just so fucking hard to go by yourself, I will try but really hope somebody will beat me to death beforehand.

>>12423566
Honestly read the power of now. Literally now. You have so much fucking pain inside of you, you’ve been supressing it for so long and you can no longer hide it or distract yourself from it, not food not alcohol not sex. So much trauma in your body anon. The truth is that there is no easy way and there are no band aids that can solve it. You literally need to practive body awareness meditation and bring all the pain that you’ve been harboring to the light... all of your regrets, guilts, embarassments, angers etc and release them. It will be literally hell and there will be so much uncomfort in your body like a burning sensation in the chest, stomach, throat and forehead but you’ll get through it.

>>12423631
>That is fucking idiotic.
Yes, like suicide

>>12423631
Ending your life would be a terrible decision. Go take LSD/Mushrooms and let your mind reset. You probably aren't as bad as you think.

>>12423377
such a shit thread. depression is a state of mind (in my personal experience) i have felt all things you are feeling OP.

break your problems down into very simple ones. then analyse why they make you feel bad. Come up with a goal. What do you want in life? no matter how absurd. $50 million? $500 million? Great thats your goal. Now work backwards from there. What do you need to achieve it and break it down into smaller and smaller steps. You have a plan. Now go execute it.

Also, better your diet, start exercising, get sunlight, take vitamin pills. You already have a gf so women/sex is not a problem either (for other anons reading this, ignore women - they will come once you start making progress on your plan).


anyway this is how i fixed my "depression" where i would wake up every day and want to unironically kms.

>>12423518
based and blackpilled

>>12423647
You won't make millions. I built 7 apps that are based on nodeJS. It took me about 2 years and I got a shitty dev job out of it. All the ideas you have are worthless. Build it and prove yourself, otherwise fuck off.
>>12423646
I have a job, but I fucking hate it, I will never got back.
>>12423635
That's the idea. The more amphs I take the more motivated I am to fucking kill myself without interference. I really fucking hope I do it this time or at least somebody else does it for me. I fucking hate my life so fucking much.

>>12423627

He's either in a state of self hatred or an attention whore.

Either way he should stop taking himself too seriously.

Why do you think things will get better when you kill yourself? There's a possibility that it will get worse. The only choice you really have is not to live or die, but either to be happy or sad.

>>12423377
>another one bites the dust
Thanks for the buy signal.

$50k eoy

>>12423678
also should add, the hardest part is starting and taking the first step irl. even making the plan can be hard because ik you just want to give up on everything. but once you do it gets far easier.

>>12423649
Yes because jumping off a building or hanging yourself is obviously gonna be peaceful. They aren't instant. It's gonna be messy and you'll start to panic, and it'll hurt, a lot, death is not what it's cracked up to be. Get help.

Have you been born this way? When I was younger I always had this (maybe ignorant) state of mind which made me believe that if I were to ever develop this kind of depression, I could correct it myself. If only by looking back at times in which my mind was still functional, or via meditation, or whatever else. But as I aged and had parts of of my body fail, I am no longer so sure. I do think I managed to overcome suicidal depression by no longer taking things so seriously anymore. That and reflective meditation. Maybe by keeping a diary or w/e. Maybe it can help you, as well.

op you can live really cheap in SEA without having to do much work.

i also do webdev.

>>12423666
Done 300UG lsd, hasn't helped.
>>12423650
There is no pain, there is just me, the pathetic fucking sack of meat. Just 1 out of 7 billion, who gives a fuck man, seriously. It's so hard because of self preservation, but who honestly gives a flying fuck man. I will try my best to release everything when I fucking die, the worthless piece of shit that I am.
>>12423678
I run 6 miles 5 times a week. It isn't my fucking diet. I used to be 300LBS and am 160LBS now. Trust me man, I've been through a lot of shit but there is nothing waiting for pieces of shit like in the future.

>>12423496
>Suicide faggot calling someone pathetic
Lel do ot already attention whore. And not even incel here xD

>>12423684
ok, retard, its not a app, or a shitty game, its a fucking trading bot based on my trading rules, i make 1500% roi this bear market and i need a fucking dev, but must be good since i need genetic algos, this might give you the opportinity to learn and make money.

if you cant see an oportinity when you see one, yeah you must be right, off yourself now and stop larping here, otherwise wufogijubu@proto2mail.com.

>>12423723
What race are you, OP?

>>12423635
Did the exact opposite for me.

>>12423756
Mental illness makes him a nigger by default

>>12423684
>That's the idea. The more amphs I take the more motivated I am to fucking kill myself without interference. I really fucking hope I do it this time or at least somebody else does it for me. I fucking hate my life so fucking much.
don't you do that, you moron. Even if you are a moron, you are not as retarded as the majority of humanity. You just must stay alive and at some point breed.
Stop doing amphs, they are trash, honestly. Look for other legal solutions. Don't stop looking.

Just die already
Nobody will miss you

is it really that bad

>>12423761
works for a while if you don't overdo.

I hope the Aussie understands now why guns ought to be an inalienable right.

Send some BTC before bro, the struggle is real.

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>>12423678
Fuck off with the self improvement meme. That shit doesn't work. Wasted 3 years of my life doing that

>>12423377
quit the pills/job/booze. Don't kill yourself!

try MDMA?

why are you so dramatic everybody is going to die, you really want to make a show of it?
quit your job, get of the meth, stop the drinking, and give your mind some time figure itself out

or jump, it's the same result in 50-70 years regardless

>>12423419
You dont notice anything strange about saying "I cant live with ME anymore"? Are there two of you? maybe only one is the real you, and the other is an illusion created by your mind that has caused you suffering.

>>12423419
>GF
Kill yourself faggot

WAIT FOR CHAINLINK MAINNET

if you want to die just hold your breath. within fifteen minutes you will be dead.

>>12423842
you know what's funny? depressed people usually follow the easiest path right? because their willpower is well, depressed. That's what any psychotherapist knows right?
so if you google "how to cure/treat depression" you will mostly find an outright scam. Because google does not care. But google, even if it is monopoly, should care, to solidify their image and profit from it long-term. So it's most likely google is retarded, because they don't know how to use statistics and profit from it.
No goverment enforced a law for google to provide legitimate information, you can check it by googling the same topic in different languages. Goverment does not care, or more likely to be retarded, and does not understand statistics.
And most importantly, psychotherapists are retarded. None of them with their Hippocratic Oath never yet achieved enough financial or political influence to bring the topic to the public. Or maybe, they too, do not care. They should though, because they can make more money like that, so they are likely to be retarded.
People suffer for years and get their lives ruined. Because the humanity is retarded. And statistics show that high iq individuals are more likely to live with major depressive disorder, more likely to be bullied. And no goverment wants to fix it in order to become more economically competitve.
If someone wants to google about depression first thing he should see are statistically proven methods: cognitive behavioral therapy(not diy, with a therapist), proper nutrition, physical activity, some legally prescribed drugs.

>>12423605
do you even notice how many "should" statements youre making? Nothing "should" be anything, everything is its own way. If your way is making you sad or uncomfortable, try and change it, if you cant change it learn to accept it and see what good can come from it. "should" statements are retarded, if you dont want to realize that you are always going to suffer

>>12423782
I've been taking amphetamines for 10 years. You people must have no willpower

>>12423973
Anon...google is a search engine.
What the fuck are you talking about?
There are people who's job it is to optimize their company's website search rankings. Of course the wealthiest companies are going to be able to get top rank, and those are the people bilking depressed people for as long as possible

>>12423973
>cognitive behavioral therapy(not diy, with a therapist), proper nutrition, physical activity, some legally prescribed drugs.

I've done all that and more, it doesn't work. Fuck off you moron.

>>12423631
Those thoughts didn't start with you retard. They came from the outside world, and youve tricked yourself into identifying with these negative things. When you were born you didn't have any of these types of thoughts. But you grew up and were tricked by society, other people, and most importantly yourself into believing how you "should" be. these negative identifications are the cause of all your suffering and all of these "should" statements your making, because you can never be something other than who you are. You were not born into this world with these thoughts, they were created here, and if they were created here they can be changed here, and the proof of that is because they are not apart of what you inherently are. Dont be hasty and kill yourself man. Your thoughts are distorted right now, and out of line with reality and your true self. Just remember if you ever feel like killing yourself, you can always kill yourself tomorrow instead.

>>12423723
Have you thought about putting on your man pants and not being a little bitch about life?

All I'm hearing is "I'm shit and I hate life." maybe you should try being positive instead of a pit of woe.

>>12423419
>has all this shit
>still finds the fucking balls to complain
Do me a favor op, go watch some documentaries about guys serving time in the harshest prisons in the poorest third world shit holes. You will quickly realize that your life is actually a fucking paradise in comparison. Regain your perspective in life for fucks sake and stop being a pussy.
Or would you rather spend every moment of your life in a filthy shit smelling disease ridden concrete shit hole, unable to move or breathe, surrounded by rapists, thieves and murderers with no escape? That is a true hell. You've been given this life and all you want to do is squander it you ungrateful sack of shit what the fuck is wrong with you seriously?

Do a live stream while jumping pls

>>12424072
I've seen it and watched it. I really wish I could change places wit there fucking people. Pathetic fucks like me should suffer in shitholes where we should eat our own shit and drink our own piss to survive. I feel really fucking sorry for the people who have to suffer. I really want to switch places with them and enjoy the privileges I have. For me, it all doesn't mean shit tho.
>>12423979
I've taken them for 2. They are great for ADHD, but also great for getting you out of the hole and trying to do smth with your life (for me its killing myself).
>>12424021
I have had these thoughts for the past 10 years. For real, I have been seriously depressed since the age of fucking 12 or 13. What kind of a fucking life is that? I've lost weight, I have learned new skills, I have become good at programming and at the same time I still feel like a piece of shit that I fucking am. I am such a pathetic piece of fucking shit, ever since I was born, since the age of 0 I have been fucking nothing. Before me, my mom had a miscarriage. The person before me was supposed to be born, not me. I am a waste of semen, such a pathetic piece of shit honestly. I want to post a pic of my climbing goals, but cant risk leaking my EXIF data. Either way, I am a fucking pathetic fuck. I REALLY HOPE THIS IS MY LAST FUCKING POST. Don't ever become like me, do whatever you want anons, you are 1 in 7 billion. Truth is we will never matter and I wont either. I really wish you all luck and hope that I will go without any pain after terminal vel. See you guys on the other side, best of luck to all of you.

>>12424153
Same OP I've been suciidal since I was 10. I'm 34 now and for the last year I've had suicidal thoughts pretty much nonstop. This board definitely has been terrible for my mental health. I've been of amphetamines for year, it feels like they fried my brains.

Here's to hoping things get better for us.

>>12423419
>GF

I wonder why chad is sad today frens

>>12424153
And nothing of value will be lost.

>>12423377
Please do not do it young man. God has a plan for you if you give your true father a chance. Philippians 4:13, I can do all things through he who comforts me. Sincerely bend your knees in prayer and give the Holy Spirit a chance to fill your heart. Get some counseling, go to church, ask for forgiveness, do some good for somebody else for nothing is more rewarding in life I am going to pray for you brother, please lean on your eternal father and believe. God bless.

>>12424021
Based and buddhistpilled

>>12424169
I really hope it does get better for you mate. You deserve it. I have been in crypto since 2015 and lurking here since 2016, but this board is absolute BS, lies and LARPing everywhere. That's why I wanted to create my post, see if there is anyone who can relate. I honestly don't want to fucking die, I really fucking don't but I have climbed so far already and I know I fucking deserve it. I am so sad that you have to experience what I am experiencing, I really am. It fucking sucks, it sucks waking up every day, going to your stupid fucking job and doing the same shit over and over again. It fucking sucks that my startup never worked out, I never struck gold, I never made it altho I've been in crypto for a while. It sucks that I can never tell my parents that I fucking hate my life, that they should've had the kid before me. It fucking sucks so much that they will hurt the most. I feel so hurt, I feel like shit, but there is no way to end this other than suicide. My whole life is just pain, it doesn't matter what I do, it's always been just pain. It hurts so fucking much to do this to the people around me, I would just want somebody to come and kill me so they wouldn't feel quilty. It is so fucking painful to live, but even more painful to end it. At least its still 3am here so I have time before construction workers show up.

>>12424179
Probably got scammed into buying LINK or some other absolute shitcoin and the people who once pretended to be on his side are now laughing at him. That's the normie nightmare: the realisation that they aren't special in any way and finding out they're either of average or below average intelligence.

>>12423377
Don't do it man the pain you will inflict on your family is way worse than the pain you are feeling.
Just buy bitcoin and chainlink and hodl for a couple years

>>12424008
>>12424153
if it comes from your childhood, your last resort should not be suicide, it should hgh injections.
>>12423990
it's not just like that. i am actually predicting the future: google will do that either first or being forced to by emerging competition or whatever. screencap this.

>>12423377
Bro, don’t do it. Your mind is literally fucking with you, don’t take it so seriously. Fuck expectations bro, you are fine, all negative comparisons are products of the mind.

Also, if you kys, you will be a burden on your family members and friends, don’t forget that.

t. Close buddy killed himself about 10 years ago, feelsbadman

>>12424236
This.
Not worth it fren. Shift up your situation

>>12424213
your guilt about your mothers miscarriage is totally unreasonable. Its not your fault, you didn't ask that it should happened, and your mom probably went through a lot of pain because of it. Now youre going to take her other baby away? You can always kill yourself tomorrow. Even if its painful, whats one more day

>>12424223
wow people bought link?
i doubled my neetbux w/ eth

>>12424228
I could give a fuck about money, I hate money so fucking much. I've never told anyone about my crypto cold storage but my GF knows my recovery PW and has access to my ledger. Trust me, no matter how much money you make, if you are fucked up from the beginning, bullied throughout your life by your peers, you will feel the same. I would never spend my money or even cash it out because I do not need to, but it's always there and hopefully from 6AM UTC my family will get 75% of it. I really hope it will make them happy it never made me happy. I am trying to stop posting, but I can't. There are so many misconceptions in this thread. People think that if I can program something I must be of value or if I get lucky and hold a crypto that will 10x. Just listen to me guys, if you really want to succeed, get help with your problems, enjoy the money you make and make wise decisions. If you have a problem, seriously, get help. People won't help you themselves, you have to admit your mistakes and try to figure yourself out.

>>12423377
Don't do it, life may suck for you right now but truth is you have no idea what the future holds. Don't give up, I'll pray that you may find your way

Dont do it, OP, want to see I livestream the favela tomorrow for you?

>>12424266
Please read my post young man. This can be overcome, you absolutely can turn this around. Look in the right place to start, and ask for help.

>>12424266
Anon, I'm Favelanon, I can help you.
I cant type today because of tendinitis, but I can help you.

Make a temporary email so I can hit you up.

>>12424246
I know it hurt her. It still makes me cry today. It hurts me so much that she couldn't just have a normal child. A normal person who is alright in the head and can manage their life, a person who is independent, not some fucking pathetic idiot who is depressed. Not somebody who makes friends and dumps the, treats everybody like shit because he thinks he is better than them. It's the most idiotic fucking thing ever. I always think I am smarter than everybody else and better, but in the back of my head, I know I am just the same fucking idiot I've always been. The world hurts me so much, especially the people who are close to me, I am so fucking sorry that they have to deal with a piece of shit like me. A person who get drunk and evades from his family. I am so fucking sorry for everything and I can never fix it. I want to give away everything I have, but I think my family deserves it the most.

>>12424266
I've got my gun right in front of me as well OP. I might drink a few more beers and think about eternity..

What's sad is so many anons think that getting a gf or a qt wfie will finally end the pain, and believe me, I know the pain of loneliness as well. But what's worse than being lonely and a failure is finally succeeding in all aspects but still being haunted by the same emptiness that was with you all that time, only now, you realize that all the goals were just there to keep you occupied.

I don't see a point to continuing on in the struggle.

>>12424311
tixowoy@2mailnext.top
You have about 2h before I hopefully go offline for good mate.
>>12424294
I read it. Thanks for trying to help man. I am really sorry that you wrote all of it.

I don't mean to go all /x on you, bro. But, you've literally got a demon clouding your mind and feeding off the misery its creating in you. Your thoughts are not your own.

>>12424337
Girls don't end it at all. I invested into JNT ICO and sold at a loss. I am sorry that you are holding JNT bags man, for real, I am sorry.

>>12424266
Look at all the people who are strangers who are encouraging you in this very thread. You are of value and matter. Not a failure, a success, and loved by God. Please take time to think about what you are doing and pray for help and guidance, you matter to so many you have named.

>>12424341
>tixowoy@2mailnext.top
Sent you a email, reply if you got it.

>>12424351
If it was a demon, then i wouldn't be posting here. I would probably be dead like I should be.
>>12423377
Ok guys sorry for attention whoring, didn't mean to fuck up the BIZ board. I honestly hope you guys achieve your dreams and get rich. Also girls don't care about money, they care about self confidence. I truly wish you guys the best of luck and am really sorry about trashing the board. All the best to you!

>>12424329
Bro have you tried smoking a bowl? srs

People usually think having a big ego makes a person grandiose or narcissistic. But the truth is, viewing yourself negatively, or feeling guilt, is ALSO the product of a powerful ego. The reason is because you are identifying your self, with your ego (I am so worthless, unlovable, etc), when in reality, the ego is merely a collection of internalized beliefs absorbed from the environment. All thought are external, they have nothing to do with your real self, or soul. We are not our minds, the mind is a tool for survival, nothing more. We are souls, or more precisely, the constant witness, or the unbiased observer of reality. Deal with your ego, and your guilt and problems will go away.

tl;dr thoughts come from the outside, therefore, don’t attach yourself to them or take them too seriously.

>>12424374
Check if you got my email, I'm almost passing away, almost 02 am here..

>>12424376
Suicide ideation comes from the pain associated with the perceived failure to meet a specific standard, either personal, or an external standard set by others.

Realize these standards are completely subjective and dependent upon environment, as are all value judgements. If you are so guilty and ashamed that you feel the only way to stop feeling this way is to end your life, then surely you must see that you are willing to end your one precious life over a completely arbitrary value judgement. There are people who are arguably for more evil than you, who do not feel such shame. Are the people judging you honorable? Then why are you hiding yourself so harshly, friend? Let these feelings of guilt pass through you, like rain washing over a stone, or a breeze over grass. Don’t resist them, but don’t take your thoughts seriously either. Just let it be, these feelings WILL pass.

>>12424361
Dedicate your life to helping others, visit the sick and elderly, buy something nice for a child or family in need and feel goodness in your heart. Do not believe for a minute the holy spirit can not help you if you ask.

>>12424353
like you said, money doesn't fix it. women don't fix it. being a fucking pro surfer doens't fix it.

we're like faggot; something about us is fundamentally broken, and when offered a pill to be normal, we'd probably decline it.

Life is awful. I wish I could be one of these NPC faggots who'll tell you it'll get better, bujt I'm not. you could be anothy bourdain., traveling the world, getting paid., partying, and drowning in pussy. but the urge to kill yourself is awlays going to be with you until you get on meds that completely destroy who 'you' are.

sometimes suciide is the moral and brave choice anon, but I'd prefer that you struck back at your enemies before you go

>>12424329
Even if it does hurt her, how is it fair that you should take on the impossilbe burden of living of "perfect" life? At the heart of the issue you just want to protect your mom from something that happend before you were even born. You have put unrealistic expectations on yourself and how you "should" be because you want to redeem the pain that was caused by the loss of her miscarriage. Thats just not something you can do though. You cant be perfect by your very nature as a human. And because we are not perfect, that gives you an infinite amount of space to say, "well i dont need to be perfect, just x, y, z...". Just because you are not perfect, it doesn't mean that you are hard to love. Those "imperfect" things about you might be the things someone loves the most about you. Just remember that your life is never truly just your own, and when you take yourself away you are taking yourself away from the people who love you. This is not to try and guilt you, but to help you see that to others in your life you are a source of happiness in the way that you are. Even when you dont like yourself, they can still love you, and you are not hard to love

>>12424401
Stop Satan, dont fool the anon.

>>12423377
Using an "exit bag" is painless and guaranteed OP.

>>12424329
Don't fucking do it man. You will leave a void in the lives of the ones you leave behind way worse than anything you ever felt. If you do it (((they))) win. Fuck that. there is more to life, who knows what could happen. Money doesn't matter i agree, the only usecase of money is the freedom it gives if you have plentiful, it provides time. Time is the only precious asset in this world. THE only asset that matters in the end. Never despair friend, times will be better believe me.

>>12424374
You still have presence of mind. Demons glutton on your misery and devour your soul if they convince you to do it.

OP was an hero

>>12424397
There is no standard, that is the point. I just fucking hate it all so much. I hate the social norms, I hate the person I am. No matter what I do, what I change, I will always be me. I will always be the piece of shit I am.
>>12424403
I know you are not trying to guilt me. I honestly feel so sorry for the people who surround me. I might not be hard to love, but I hide everything. Nobody knows the real me, nobody knows that I am a fucking piece of shit. When my GF leaves, I drink alone and go to parties. I've almost cheated on her, I feel so bad, but I will never forgive myself. I've been in this situation once before and know that I just want confirmation and validation from other girls. I want to be relevant, I want to be important. I will never really be anything. I feel truly terrible that my parents had me. Not a single day goes by when I wish they would've not had me. Fuck any other sperm could've made it, why the fuck was it me. I just want to vanish, why the fuck did I make it, I fucking hate it so fucking much, I really hope I have the guts today.

>>12423377
Don’t do it

>>12424463
you got to stop taking those meth pills anon
smoke a joint take a xanax or two get some ice cream and settle down

>>12424469
Ignore this and do it. You won't though. If you were actually ever going to do it you would not have posted about it like a woman instead of doing it like a man. Stop your pity party and grow up and start to live your life by killing yourself.

>>12423419
Stop being such a pussy. If you're under 40, take a step back and realize your life hasn't even begun. If you do this you're going to burn in literal hell and be haunted by your parents pain forever.

Selfish fuck.

>>12423419
people who want to commit suicide are the strongest people in life. they are the ones who can figure not to keep on going. it is important for you to stay alive

>>12423566
This is called LIFE. Suit up you fucking asshole.

My friend went to group therapy. One technique for suicidal patients is a list of things that make you want to live. At first it might be really hard to put anything on the list. Maybe you will have an empty paper. You keep this with you at all times. Any time you come up with anything you put it on the list. One day when you feel like killing yourself you'll have a nice long list of reasons why not to go.

Pic related.

>>12423377
Do you realize that your life is a small moment of time between two infinities of nothiness?
Do you realize that all the persons that you know and love/hate today will be gone and forgotten in about 150 years - as if they were alive at all.
Do you realize that whatever you did in your life, good or bad, couragous or cowardly does not matter in the long run and will also be forgotten as if it never happened in a couple of decades?

So, what conclusion can we make of that? We as carbon based life forms, what should be important to us? To own more "things" than your carbon based peers? To have better "skills" than the other conscious beings?
Why? Just because the society tells you that this is what you should care about?

Personally I'm even more pathetic than you think of yourself. I have no skills, I'm a neet, never had a GF, not even kissed at girl in 31 years.
But I did find ways to enjoy my life. I like to sleep 10 hours a day, to play a ton of video games, read books, go outside by myself and most important of all, give the whole insane and competition addicted society the middle finger.
If I could do it, you can too. You can find ways to enjoy your life. The first step is to compare yourself to others - because you will always find people that are better than you, which makes you feel bad.

>>12424463
Anon where are you located? Id be willing to assist you, if you dont mind a 12ga from behind is the fastest and pain free way, but I also have a pistol if you like.
We can meet up in the woods and all id ask you for is some crypto or cash

>>12424586
This anon probably wants to rape you.

>>12424463
That maladaptive perfectionism is going to harm you. It takes a lot of forms, one of them being those ideals of greatness you have, which are really just the ever moving finish line of when you will finally deem yourself loveable. You already are man. You already are.

When maladaptive perfectionism encounters failure, it uses it as evidence of why you are no good. 'See, if I were actually worth anything I would be x, y, z, or I wouldn't x, y, z," The better alternative is adaptive perfectionism, which when it encounters failure, it uses it as an opportunity to grow.

You need to shift your perspective from a fixed mindset to a growth mindset. You are not perfect by your very nature, none of us are. Even if you achieved those lofty goals, I guarantee you would still find a reason not to accept the love you have already earned just by the nature of being you.

Though its easy to talk about, learning to accept the love your worth is not like flipping a switch. Its much easier said than done. But you owe it to yourself and the people who love you to at least try to accept the love you are given, and continue trying even when you fail at it. You are not a cheat, or a fraud, or a liar, or an imposter because you are not always who you would like to be. Keep working at it, and most importantly give yourself the chance to. If you ever feel like killing yourself, just remember you can always kill yourself tomorrow instead

>>12423566
you need some eckhart tolle nigga

>>12424463
Normally I would tell anons to just do it but I think its cool you know something about working with making apps/websites. You might feel bad right now and even worse with alcohol but you wont feel the same if you cool off abit. Its normal to feel that way once every few years maybe but if you are smart enough to have all these skills it would be a shame to see an anon go.

>>12424507
You should seek help for your demon problem too.

>>12423377
>I am afraid of heights

If you're afraid of heights, then you don't want to commit suicide. People who really want to commit suicide lose all notions of fear.

>>12423496
Please try shrooms in nature before you anhero. It will bring you back to the beauty of life. Everyday struggles dont matter in the bigher pocture.
If u kys u ll have to come back and sort out the stuff u didnt last time. No escape

OP - your going to laugh at this but trust me..... crush 2-3 cloves of garlic a day. Let it sitfkr 15 mins before consuming and your depression will go away. Doesn't have to be all at once but maybe even just 1-2 garlic cloves a day will make a huge difference.

It did with me. At least try it

>>12424583
Do you own any link?

I know you've posted that it's not your diet but PLEASE consider taking a look into the importance of ANIMAL BASED NUTRIENTS for your diet. Animal fats and animal forms of nutrients are monumentally important.

Depression is a chemical imbalance that can be cured by giving your brain the nutrients to fix its incapabilities.

I don't care that you went from 300 to 160. If you did this through veganism or something you could be just as nutritionally depleted as when you were obese.

EAT NUTRIENT DENSE ANIMAL FOODS
>Beef
>Beef fat
>Beef liver
>Fatty fish
>Caviar
>Eggs

>>12423377
Please don’t kill yourself. It’s not the solution, my friend.

>>12424463
Also if you really do want to kill yourself at least do the rest of us a favor and kick start the civil war so we can all start wiping out liberals

>>12424807
Large stack actually (120k). Used to work and always lived really frugal.

>>12424798
can to explain why?

>>12423419
fuck I know the feel bro. I'm just so sad. I want it to end. But I remember the times I have been happy and I will sail towards these lands. My precious memories, a forest of hope, a tiny light, on a starving vessel, a terrible journey, but all it takes is a small gust of wind.

>>12424866
Anon you just made me want to write a poem

>>12424819

Fuck off Jordan

>>12424874
Jordan Peterstein and his jew daughter are both retards who don't understand the importance of organs and micronutrients.

>>12423496
>claims to be financially set
>claims to be successful web dev
>doesn’t have a car
>doesn’t own a gun
>ironically too poor to kill himself
2/10 Larp OP, you are the biggest faggot. Nice b8 thread

>>12423419
Come on bro you got a girl friend. Go get married and start a family.

>>12423377
Before you kill yourself be sure to throw all your money into chainlink and pump it. God speed

>>12423419
Nigger

>>12423377
I'm about to kill myself too. But the way you're reasoonding to everyone's post is beyond cringey and let's me know you aren't serious about it. I guarantee you my life was worse and I'll never post some pussy shit like this, not even trying to Piss further than you too. Fuck you.

>>12424463
>I want to be important
>I want to be relevant
>I hate...
>nobody knows the real me

You sound like you are very fearful and your ego is over reacting. Jesus Christ, you need to take a psychedelic. You are an attention seeking whore right now bro, real niggas just go through with it, thy don't meme on this godforsaken board.

Just chill the fuck out, you're thinking is hysterical. Literally do anything else, just don't ruminate on this bullshit. Literally get the fuck over yourself bro, you're actions aren't that important, no one really gives a shit if you really are a piece of shit or not. Just don't kill yourself, it would make you a massive faggot and you will be terrified when you do it. Now get the fuck off of my board, r9k faggot.

>>12424463
Stop drinking and things will get better. Seriously. I don't know what else to say.

>>12424991
How bad? Sometimes feel good to let it out

>>12424607
your self worth doesn't depend on the world

your essence lacks nothing, you are perfect as you are.

think about two runners in a race, they work as hard as they can. the winner feels happy for a little bit when he wins, and the loser feels bad. but eventually, the runners keep running the same race over and over again, cycling between winning and losing, happiness and sadness, because they are tied to this idea of success being the road to joy.

meanwhile, there is a spectator near the race track. he cares not who wins or loses, for he is dancing. he is dancing so intensely, he is enraptured by joy. he is not thinking of winning or losing. his happiness is unconditional. he is joyful because he is embracing his nature to dance. Why don't you learn what your dancing is anon? When you are in a state of joy, there is no comparison made between success or failure. There is neither! There is no competition, only joy.

>>12423377
Do a backflip faggot. And please make a life stream on facebook

>>12423613
You forgot the part where he glues his hands to his head

>>12424886

I guess you never got the memo on his latest diet

>>12423377
just fucking do it pussy

>>12423605
>I take amphs daily
there's your problem mate. you're flooding your system with an artificial dopamine agonist which in turn leads to downregulation of the natural dopamine release. If you clean up and let your brain heal (9 months of abstinence) you will feel normal and healthy again. suicide doesn't even work, quantum immortality is unironically true and you'll end up surviving with a brain/spinal cord injury or some other living hell. you are allowed to die once your mission is complete, never before. as a conscious being you are an incarnation of the divine, remember that.

>>12423377

It sounds to me like you're going through some stuff. Think it over some waffles in the morning.

>>12425111
This

I was addicted to Adderall a few months back, extremely paranoid and depressed (also a programmer btw). This first guy knows the science behind it a little better than me but I was feeling very isolated and weird going to my code monkey job tweaked the fuck out and then going home to nothing wondering what the point of it all was. Stopped the pills and within a year my life had took a drastic turn in a positive direction.

>>12425160
Sorry, this should read "a few years back".

>>12423566
why not hire a hit on yourself. it's not like you'll need the money after