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your drugs gave you everything you had

your drugs will take everything you have if you try to quit

dont quit your drugs.

keep using them, but respect them more.

t. welder who does about $2,000 in cocain every month.

ITT:
purple IDs = validating drug addicts

>>10942800
Switch to weed dude, its easier on your liver.

Be me.
>15k in crypto (30k ath)
>150k mortgage, 200k stocks
>Smoke weed erryday
>???
>Profit

>>10942800
nigger ive been exactly there
for me it was my own willpower and lsd
the first trip will be awful because your whole life is a lie youre telling yourself
like shitting out a tumor

nobody on earth knows or would ever guess that mr perfect takes 200ug of lsd every quarter, but he does

>>10942830
No, my drugs took everything I loved.

My wife, my son, my career as a Naval officer. I have always been top of my class but get depressed and use hard drugs to cope. I'm afraid my brain is so fucked that I'll never be normal. Why can't I go throughout a day without thinking about using. Could be in a business meeting and reminiscing on how it feels to hotrail meth.

I wish I had never been exposed to this stuff. It's so evil. It grips you and becomes a priority of everything you love. Friends, family, Vidya. Nothing brings you pleasure at all when you're off and you just sit and reminisce and regret what you did when you were on. This is a hellish life to live. I've done AA and NA and even smart recovery inbetween rehabs.

I can not pick up or drink ever again. I just can't, yet nothing brings pleasure without them. The definition of slavery. I am a slave to a substance and I have to break free.

>>10942800
Right here chief. I drink and take benzos every day, use cocaine every weekend, and use ketamine and/or hallucinagens a few times per month. I have a high paying job ($150k+) but due to my partying I own nothing. I only have a few grand in the bank at any time, live in an apartment, no gf. It sounds depressing as I'm writing this but I actually enjoy it.

>>10942860
Weed just leads to be wanting booze and amphetamines. I've tried substituting one drug for another. It always leads to the meth pipe in the long run.

being sober is boring tho

>>10942873
I think you posted about it earlier on one of my posts way earlier in the year to do this. I don't think replacing one drug with another Is the answer but I'm willing to do anything to stop wanting to constantly get high or drunk. I feel like it's a darkness deep within my soul that only goes away when I put things, especially amphetamines in my body. Watching porn on meth is the most euphoric purely blissful experience. It's just fucking beautiful. How can I know that no matter what I experience sober, it won't even come close to the beautiful pure Bliss that the substance provides.

I wish I could erase these memories from my mind because I feel like such a broken anon. I'm

>>10942800
Next Friday, I'll be quit weed for an entire month. I've rarely been sober day-to-day the past 10 years.
I stopped doing hard drugs in 2013. Spooky shit. Places I wish I had never seen. People I wish I had never met. Good people dead. No. No. No.

Now I just need to convince myself to stay quit from weed indefinitely. Once I'm sober I convince myself that I'll have no problem having a toke one night and it leads me into a 6-month haze until I come full circle again.

>>10942800
workout constantly, eat clean (greens and shit), no porn/pussy/etc (quit lust entirely), read everyday, cold showers, and you'll make it. chasing pleasure is for weak minded faggots, I used to be one.

>>10942800
dubs checked. Really op if you're not Larping, the only thing you really need is a lot of water with no flouride or you'll turn autistic. Other than that, its hard to make such huge sudden shifts in your life and consider a more gradual approach, unless you find you can't. Maybe you really are at the point where you need a drastic change. Just be careful, people die when their tolerance gets low and they abuse poisonous substances. You can't overdose on weed. You can die from too much water.

>buy XEM its gonna moon

>>10942873
If you can guide me, I will do whatever it takes to heal myself. Do you have Kik? I'm AS1153 I think. I just want to connect with someone outside of AA and NA and figure out how to lose this obsession with hard drugs and focus on the things that really matter in life.

>>10943009
the drugs didnt take what you have, your loss of respect for said drugs did.

your like a nigger on a plantation trying to kill his owner.

dont kill the hand that feeds you,

yes you are a slave. accept it.

be a slave. or die your choice

suicide can be a solution, society makes it seem so negative. fuck society

>>10942800

I am hopelessly addicted to porn. Have wrote about it before in here. I am quite smart but I went through a lot of shit when I was younger, kinda learned to cope by escaping into video games and specially porn. I did not have a single friend in my 3 years of middle school. I had a horribly scarred faced from some acid that damaged the skin above my chin and below my lower lip. People treated me like a freak for so long, my self-esteem reached great lows.

Fast forward to college (no point mentioning high school since it was a shit show) and I finally made it to a place of balance. I excelled at my studies and landed a nice job to support myself and build some wealth.

Having said that I am still fucked in my personal life:

>When I get home a strange existential anxiety takes over me, and I can't step foot out of the house.
>All I feel like doing is watching porn.
>I feel ugly when I look in the mirror.
>I feel too weird and different to ever make it back to sane society.
>I am 29 years old, and I have never been to a bar on the night time. Never been to a club or out of my house on a Friday night. I feel too afraid.
>No friends. Not even my parents any more, they live miles away.

Since I finally have the money, I plan on seeing a therapist soon, but I don't see anything extraordinary. What I really yearn for (being able to connect with another human and existing in this life with no anxiety) can't be bought, apparently.

>>10943042
This is trying to say to just succumb to the slavery of addiction. I don't want to die like that. I know I have it in me because for a year and a half when I was 23 I made running my drug. Every day, I had to run. I lost 100 lbs and stayed completely clean. I relapsed when I found my roommates ex wife's stash of months and months of Adderall pills. I just need to get away, need to get healthy.

>>10943063
Also an active porn and relationship / hookups addict. I wind up ruining the lives of the women I date. I'm beautiful on the outside but inside I'm a slave to a drug. They fall in love and then my use hurts then. I have to stop and have no fucking clue how. I've tried everything and none of it has worked.

>>10943063
Don't bother with the clubs. Youll just be surrounded by people just as broken as you who you may wind up fucking by end of night making you feel even more broken because it meant absolutely nothing.

>>10943095

I still feel a lot of shame thinking of how I treated my first girlfriend. I was the epitome of a tool. I simply wanted from her my first kiss and of course sex. Ended horrible and I have never spoken to hear again. Sometimes I want to call her and apologize for my behavior, but never gotten around to it. I guess because I want to be in a better place before I do such an ego humiliating thing.

>>10943159
holes are only good for fucking anyways, who cares

>>10943159
I feel so bad having made her think I was clean when I was partying all the time. It broke her heart. She was the most besutiful loving woman I'd ever met. Motivated too. I really respected her. She feels so deceived that she was dating a junkie and it tears at my soul. I knew I should have told her I was t staying clean but I wanted to marry her one day and figured I was just going to continue hiding it. Sober now, my heart aches constantly knowing how she must feel. I hope she finds a good man she can trust who doesn't party... BECAUSE she absolutely deserves it after me hiding my using

>>10942800

Anon you’ve said you’ve done AA but have you really worked it? Have you gone to a meeting for 120 days straight? Do you have a sponsor? Have you sincerely worked the 12 steps?

Showing up for an occasional meeting is not the same as giving yourself over completely to the process.

I’m speaking from experience. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

>>10943063
Im sorta the same, the porn ends up being the only thing that can actually get my mind off the anxiety.

You want to stop but its the only thing that feels good anymore.

Fuck.

>>10943231
I did give myself to the program. I was a few months in meetings every day,working with my sponsor at step 8 when somehow the conversation shifted to my marriage and how it was clearly toxic. I left and grabbed 12 beers on the way home and gave up my (red) I think chip.

I want to try it again. I just need a community if sober people I can lean on. I want to work a program again.

>26
>fat
>pedophile
>programmer, okay job
>lost 80% in crypto this month
>last week spent vacation on a hallucenogen binge
>slept 20 hours
>still seeing visual effects
someone kill me please

>>10942800
Addicted to at one point or another:
Weed
Adderall
Nicotine
Alcohol
Video games

>>10942800
Have you tried meditation? Something with the express purpose of gaining control over your mind sounds like it may be useful in dealing with addiction.

Only addiction I have is masturbating.

>>10942887
Shit LARP go fuck yourself loser

>>10943336
Not a larper, I wish it were

I smoke weed everyday that's about it
when I get home I gotta blaze
when I wake up and have no work I gotta blaze
always gotta blaze

I'm 9 days sober except for 3 mushroom trips
feel much healthier and thinking clearer overall

get some multivitamins and exercise OP
life sucks but drug withdraw and jail make it suck much more

>>10942858
The fuck, its actually true. Im a drug addict too tho so I should be purple.

I used to do weed all day everyday and take coke mdma and xanax regularly
I got arrested for felony possession of mdma and hash oil and did a little time
during my probation stint I made low 7 figures in crypto but almost fucked it all up by slipping back into drugs mainly alcohol

my plan is to go sober and get in shape so I can hit the drugs and women harder than ever when probation is done (I never had much money in my previous binges so they never lasted too long)

Addicted to cocaine- fall off the wagon on average once every two years or so. Also I can't stop getting drunk and sleeping with random roasties. I'm pretty sure I have an addictive personality, because I can never stop anything when I start

Roll for purple

>>10943294

>26
>fat
>pedophile

w-what do you m-mean anon?

weed is all i need. makes me stupid and boring but it keeps me away from hard drugs and booze.

>>10942800
Remove the stress from your life and the drug problem will go away.

>>10943063
>When I get home a strange existential anxiety takes over me, and I can't step foot out of the house.

I had this exact same problem. Felt like I was literally locked/stuck inside. Weird as fuck. I stopped consuming caffeine as much and stopped going directly home and started going to the gym instead. It fixed it.

>Weed everyday morning til sleep
>Chainsmoke cigarettes everyday, lungs black
>Occasional Drugs (Cocaine, MDMA, Dexedrine, etc)
>Drink every weekend or second weekend (binge/blackout)
>Extremely compulsive gambler (self b& from all online bookies)
>Addicted to porn & masturbating (legit 5 times a day, sometimes more)
>Addicted to internet, use to be video games also
>Shit habits like biting finger nails, over spending money and self indulgence (strip clubs, etc)

Will I ever make it?

>>10943919
forgot to include
Not even 20 yet, bachelor NEET

>>10943919
Dead before 30, I imagine

>>10943919
You remind me of myself.

I am 20 and I just quit weed after smoking it everyday for the past 2 years. Still trying to quit video games as ive been addicted since I was around 5.

Ive seriously fucked up my life, got shit grades ever since I could remember, I actually think I only got into college because the person reading my resume felt bad that my mom died when I was a little kid.

Every day I am actually convincing myself that I am going insane and that I am really inside a simulation, every second just waiting to have the plug pulled on me.

I have no where to go and I dont know what to do.

I'm very scarred.

>>10942800
I used to be addicted to cough syrup and enjoyed weed too years ago. My last habit was drinking beer or 4lokos a year ago. Now I never think of drinking alcohol even if I enjoy it.


I realized I couldnt play or enjoy my games as much when I was drinking especially competitive ones. I also have a new passion for reading and learning about stocks I forgot I used to be a bookworm.

For years I was always tempted of getting high again I would have dreams even recently still of smoking synthetic weed.

The only way I can explain to help yourself is when you want drugs tell yourself you dont need this you only want it right now because your feelings make you want it now. Then ask yourself again later you will notice that you wanted it more when it was exciting and fun in your mind. So basically you will have to realize on your own that drugs decrease your quality of life they put things on hold. You cant read things well or do your other favorite hobbies . In addition drugs are expensive, its a matter of time before a car wreck or you miss something important because you plain forgot from short term memory.
Good luck op I cant help you on the family however you can still move on.

>>10942999
Bateman is that you?

>>10942800
Were you abused as a child? Or had a stressful/traumatic childhood?

>>10942800
You ever thought maybe you should just kys?

>>10942800
>extremely succesful
>meth head
You made me kek. sage and kys is easier, can't even do nofap and quit smoking and you want to quit drinking+meth+benzos top kek m8

>>10943298
Hello myself

>>10944796
>For years I was always tempted of getting high again I would have dreams even recently still of smoking synthetic weed.


This shit killed my brain

Also life taste better with drugs, the secret is to never use it. When you tried, you can't really go back to your past self.

I used to be a party dog, now I just smoke as a daily basic. It's ok, I have accepted that life will be a boring path until the end.

>>10943294
here is a cure for your pedo meme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pe1hVptKM80

>>10942887
Read allan carr yeasy way to quit drinking and u r free,
Thanks me laterl

>>10942990
>i'll quit
>next friday
yeah, not going to work like that

>>10942800
I am 26 and because of tinnitus I have been an alcoholic for 5 years now. Drank a bottle of wodka on a daily basis, drank myself to sleep every night. Once I start drinking I literally cannot stop. I already tried to stop drinking several times but never worked and if I stop life becomes too uninteresting

4 months ago I suddenly got liver pains and severe IBS symptoms and a fuckton of other symptoms (bloodshet eyes, muscle weakness, trembling, tired af etc.). I stopped cold turkey but I still long for wodka every night. Doctors say it's probably not liver related which is a suprise to me.

Good luck OP. May the gods watch over you. Oh and women shouldn't have the right to vote.

Have you tried praying? You might actually like it.

>>10946050
I think he means itll be the one month mark

>>10942800
>>Took 6.5 years to finish a bachelor's due to drugs
lmao same

>>10942800
Say no to drugs and just smoke weed

>>10942830
>respect the drug
>$2k in cocaine every month

WTFF

>>10943294
There is nothing wrong with being attracted to 15yo's. Under 15 and we need to have a talk.

>>10942800
>Overweight
>Rehab 3 times
>Lost my wife
>Most recently lost my hot, perfect girlfriend

Something is not fitting

i have a large amount of coffee liqueur with my coffee morning, noon and evening. then some beers at night if i can afford it
i miss al/ck/

>>10946021

>read allan carr

boomer

>>10942903
It doesn't with me.

>>10942999
This. Fuck partying.

>>10946930
It comes down to post pubescent and pre pubescent. I'm not really that into 14/15 year olds but I'd fuck a 16/17 year old who had a mature body with some legitimate tits and ass, no questions asked.

>>10946930
More like 4-11 senpai...

>>10947208
Congratulations, you're a normal male. Don't let the used-up roasties and Jews tell you otherwise.

>>10947252
Condolences, you're a failure at life. I hope the Jews and roasties hang you.

12-13 MAYBE, POSSIBLY, if they've hit puberty, but 4? What the fuck man.

>>10943063
>>10943009
Guys, I have written it in similar threads, please give a chance to CBD oil. It has no psychoactive THC component, notna drug and is literally a miracle from heaven significantly decreasing anxiety, depression and is also useful for recovering addicts! Research it!
Get a high concentrate extract, like >1500mg+ such as bluebird botanics or similar.
It really have been doing wanders for me.

>>10947177
jesus christ that thing is disgusting

>>10942800

You ever tried Effexor XR?

I took it for 3 years and I felt bulletproof. Maybe the drug could help you. I would see a psychiatrist and ask.

Also. Eat clean and exercise. Plant based diet. Water or tea only for drinking. You'll feel much better.

and attend NA weekly.

>Started drinking when I was 14-15
>Getting drunk on weekends, nothing too shocking
>Ate junk food all the time
>Drank soda
>Never touched a cigarette or any other drugs
>Quit drinking at 21 after throwing up in front of my grandparents and feeling ashamed
>Started eating healthy
>Drinking water/tea/milk/coffee only
>Started working out a lot
>Emotionally very stable right now and feel strong/energized
>No more brain fog

I can't really empathise with you, sorry. I always said no and never succumbed to peer pressure. Hell, I was even in a coffee shop in Amsterdam with weed smokers and I only drank coffee. Maybe you should learn to clean up the mess that is your personality, because you're obviously a liar too. Quit lying, that might be a good start.

>>10942800
There's no drug like taking some nose torque and ripping 765 off the floor in a fit of rage. Fuck normie drugs.

>>10947327
It's illegal in Ohio as of last month, big pharma doesn't want you taking this harmless drug. They'd rather have you on opioids like Percocet®®, Morphine®®®®, and who-knows-what. Fucking Jews.

>>10947327
How do I take it and where do I buy it?

quit the drugs, you'll feel 95% normal again with time.

>>10942800
Drink TONS of coffee when your on the job.

Outside of work, isolate yourself from everyone and find a massive time sink like reading a book or playing a game of civ.

If you get a strong urge to use, just jack off instead, you'll get a dopamine rush.

Do this for a few weeks/months and you'll make it.

>>10947365
No need to LARP deadlift numbers on /biz/

>>10947473
>he's never pulled 765 before

>>10942873
this desu i know it looks weird to combat drugs with drugs but try an experience with psychedelics....take a serious dose and have a tripsitter if shit gets out of control...
acid is ok but it lasts too long imo, shrooms are way more cruel and take everything away from you and than show you who you truely are like looking yourself in the mirror...it is really scary (specialy on the beggining of the trip) but the thing with shrooms is (at least for me) that you feel like you are in contact with a kind of transcendental other, it is rough and cruel and wont give you what you want but what you need....dont try to fight it just accept everything that will be presented to you.....if its too much dont ask for it to stop (because it wont ) or try to fight it, ask for forgivness, atonement, deliverance....and it will be given to you, you will see that the transcendental other is ultimate love. i know it sounds gay af, im not religious at all but trust me it will change your life.
just be sure to have a tripsitter and be in a safe set and setting

>>10947502
You must win every comp you enter then, you got a 500lbs squat too? Which way should I train to attain such numbers then?

>>10942800
>>Most recently lost my hot, perfect girlfriend

can you post pics, fren?

>>10947389
No fucking way :( it really is a miracle, I would still get it somehow
>>10947400
It is an oil, you drop it under the tongue and leave it there for a minute to absorb.
Somthing like https://www.purecbdvapors.com/product/cbd-for-the-people-3100mg-60ml-sublingual-or-wax-pen-vape/
Or https://bluebirdbotanicals.com/product/hemp-classic-6x/
I have started to give it to my grandma as well, her joint ache and anxiety is much better now.
It cured my depression and anxiety (along with 5htp and a shroom session)

>>10947559
No LARP but a 500 squat isn't going to cut it. 585-675 and you can handle yourself well in comps if you're in the middle weight divisions somewhere. I personally don't see the point in competing unless you are competing to break a WR.
>Which way should I train
Food and sleep. Take up another hobby so that you aren't so eager to max out again. Let the major muscle groups recover before going for a personal record. Do a double or triple with a weight before moving up to another personal record.

>>10942800
120k is about equal to a 25k salary in 1998.

>>10947643
$25K in 1998 is about equal to $39K in 2018 actually.

Psychedelics should be the only psychoactive you consume

>>10947711
No check again, use 8% inflation which is the real number.

>>10947867
Using BLS numbers I get $120K being equal to $78K in 1998. Using ShadowStats numbers I get $120K being equal to $22K in 1998. What the fuck are ShadowStats?

>>10947605
This single post contains more good advice than I've read on /fit/ 20+ threads.

Was on board with most of it but I'll keep in mind to do a double/triple with my previous 1rm before setting a new pr

>>10942800
Yeah, just smoke weed sometimes for the sleep, was addicted to oxy it’s hard for the first few months, 6 months later I won’t even feeling u want to do it, go through the hassle etc, make sure u cut off all dealers and sources out of ur life even friends, this is the most important step.

Deep down you will always want drugs and this sort of experiences, but it does get easier with time to not care and focus on other things that feel even better, like a loving pure wife and kids.

Wholesomeness is the best high I’ve ever experienced.

>>10947975
Thanks, fellow anon. I don't use places like /fit/ because I believe the best way to learn is by trial and error and avoiding the Internet for advice. What works for me may or may not work for you. I believe in doing a double or triple before moving up so you can get that mental comfort of knowing that you have no problems with the weight.

>>10947581
Jesus Christ that's expensive, how long does a 1oz bottle last?

>>10942858
rolling

>>10947348

DO NOT GET ON EFFEXOR. That shit is pure, unadulterated brain poison, will permanently fuck your brain chemistry, permanently fuck your sex drive, and was harder for me to quit than a 400 mg/day oxy habit. Stay far away from the pharmaceutical jew.

>>10947959
Real inflation rates. The other one is gamified by the state. It changes measurement to equal ~ 3%

>>10948274
Unbelievable. So what is the solution?