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>>51071575
I’m 23, and basically experience something similar. I was abused and neglected as a kid so I’m sure it made me schizoid antisocial or something. I literally have no process for emotion: I’m monotone, expressionless, and can’t relate to anyone on that level. So when weighing anything out in terms of business, I have to factor out any personable interactions because I KNOW that I’m so grating and unlikable that it would only sabotage any chance of success (so that’s why I stick with crypto and e-commerce).
But I do break down sometimes, in a way that scares me afterwards when I rethink it over. It’s like a hair trigger, something so minor (at random) will just set me off in violent bender. I’ll feel like I want to murder someone, but I’ll just end up breaking things or punching objects. Apparently after doing some research, I have the textbook background for basically all serial killers, and I come from a genetic line of criminals along with that. So it’s something I’ll really have to get under control soon before something happens lmao.
But it’s like a cursed age or something, every other 23 year old I know is severely fucked up in one way or another. I’ve found that the best way to cope with any thought of depression is to not believe it exists, if you get that through your mind enough, you’ll start thinking it’s just stupid to be sad for no reason. But then again that’s just me, I’m sure it’s a much deeper issue for better adjusted people.