/biz/ - Business & Finance

/biz therapy time. ill start:

Middle class kid, raped at 8 years old by family friends son, hes living his best life with kids and smiling photos on fagbook. Im constantly suicidal, dont fit in with normies very well, not that I want to do that very much. I have never watched pron in my life besides the shock shit you see on these boards and others. Work in the medical field in an intense unit just for the shock value, not in a sexual way but in a way that shock value is the ONLY thing that stimulates my mind. Just like many of you here. I find normies, sports watching and all the shit they do infuriating and I cant understand why they do what they do or how they just enjoy being willfully arrogant. fuck them. Been in a psych ward a few times, those are stories of their own. Ive always been a good person, never tried to hurt anyone, pick up trash when no ones looking either for karma or because why not.

I just want to pay my parents back for letting me be out of my 20s and still living in their house. I thought I was early to crypto but not to BTC its self. I want to keep them out of a retirement home, yes they are boomers. While I dont live a bad life at all, I feel I should die.

So here are my shitcoin choices (req, lto, grt) that if they dont start taking off by the end of 2021 I may kill myself. Ive taken pills but not enough to kill me, im in the field and know "30 of X may kill me, so I take 26 as a test run"

Any anons have any other shitcoin investment advice? req, lto, grt are the only ones that make sense to me. $1 million is make it to me, I dont mind working, it provides that shock value, but I need the financial freedom with it. I got 100k req, and im accumulating the other two.

Anyone here have experience funding a lawyer? Is it worth it? Long story short, a non related family friend raped me when I was young in my own bedroom. I cant wear anything but shitty clothes without extreme anxiety, have to clean my ass to the point i use a pack of baby wipes and a roll of toilet paper each day, it gets expensive, extreme sexual anxiety, trust issues. I now have years of therapy to back up my claim but it was a long time ago, probably 20 years ago. This guy was maybe 16-18 when he did it to me, no one believed me and I had to see and interact with him for 10 years more before my family cut off their family for other reasons. He now lives happily with a daughter and wife while I am working a okay job, cant interact with females even though I look like a chad, cant dress in anything other than sweatpants, and in general have always been socially inept/awkward. He was the type to always be into sports thats all he cared about.

Anyway, what is the financial impact of going and getting a lawyer, opening up pandoras box and how to find a decent one and fund him. Loans? I have been buying BTC, REQ, and LTO hoping they take off and I can afford to go after him.

Anyone with experience?