/biz/ - Business & Finance

Is this how gambling addictions develop?
>see XBT crashing, want to get in on the action
>decide to use this new margin trading platform, but they only have 100x
>say fuck that and no, but cannot withdraw funds till next day
>market crashed and I get in, lose $400 in a minute
>oh fuck this shit, contemplate going in again, decide not to, then do it anyway
>I'm up almost a $1000 in minutes
>euphoria
>more than my goal for the month, that's it I'm getting out
>but what if...?
>seduction
>proceed to lose $2000
>despair
>go back up $1800, then tell myself i'll just get this final $200 then I'm out
>delusion
>go down another $2000, then up $1500
>loss and regaining of hope
>one last squeeze to break-even
>lose everything I have except for $600
>defeat
>cry for 15 minutes, contemplate my future and plans, then sleep through nightmares and cold sweats
My finger's still itching to do another margin trade and accelerate the process of regaining my funds, but I just fucking know I shouldn't and just beat myself over the dumb fucking shit I was doing.
Now all my plans are in ruins, I'm broke, and I'd have to go up %440 for an %80 loss to break-even, but now that I had a taste of quick redemption I just can't stop, please help