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I’VE BECOME SO NUMB

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Who secretly knows in the end you will have a sour ending? That you won't escape the rat race. That you will always be someone's bitch. That you can't rely on another human ad they will cheat on you. That in the end, all this effort we put won't be worth it.

Who here already knows how it is going to turn out for them?

The grand majority of us will never be rich. We will never escape. We will piss away our youth and never taste freedom.
How many of you have come to terms with this?
Will you be ending your life before you're 30 if you don't retire by then?

at 15, 10 years ago i could cope and hope, pray, daydream about a better future with no depression, ocd and anxiety. Its going to get better i said to myself. Nothing got better, everything got worse and i run out of cope. I dont want to even see 30. My whole life feels like im set on fire and cant properly breath, only sleep is relief. I dont enjoy anything. Nothing sparks joy. I simply count the hours until im able to sleep again and the days, months, years go by. Im utterly alone.

I tried to escape. Tried traveling to escape from myself but there is no escape. Everywhere i go im with the person i share my breath with, me. I tried to cope with drugs and while it did work and i distracted myself for 2 years with cocaine and booze, of course it stopped working and im worse off. Im 6 months clean now and i do nothing but lift weight once a day and then lay in bed in misery, self hatred, boredom and regret.

Im begging you biz, i need help. What should i do?

>>16680675
What advise would you give to someone who wants to get into trading? Any personal tips or sources of knowledge you'd recommend?

at 15, 10 years ago i could cope and hope, pray, daydream about a better future with no depression, ocd and anxiety. Its going to get better i said to myself. Nothing got better, everything got worse and i run out of cope. I dont want to even see 30. My whole life feels like im set on fire and cant properly breath, only sleep is relief. I dont enjoy anything. Nothing sparks joy. I simply count the hours until im able to sleep again and the days, months, years go by. Im utterly alone.

I tried to escape. Tried traveling to escape from myself but there is no escape. Everywhere i go im with the person i share my breath with, me. I tried to cope with drugs and while it did work and i distracted myself for 2 hours with cocaine and booze, of course it stopped working and im worse off. Im 6 months clean now and i do nothing but lift weight once a day and then lay in bed in misery, self hatred, boredom and regret.

Im begging you biz, i need help. What should i do?