/biz/ - Business & Finance

welcome to hell.
was just there with my Russian Ukrainian girlfriend. Have been posting about in /pol/ for months.
yes i am lonely. i never leave my apartment except for work (I make £400k a year after tax) or to go to the gym (I am ripped and in excellent shape) or to eat in a nice restaurant.
I was abandoned as a child and I've never been able to have meaningful relations with a woman. I've slept with at least a thousand hookers and she is the first I've fallen in love with.
She's back in Moscow now (I sent her on a nice Emirates flight). I am 100% sure she was "working" in Dubai for the week layover she had there.
She is carrying at least £15k of my money back into Russia after living with me for 3 months in my flat. She wanted more money but I had to pretend to be broke so she would stop asking me.
It's an addiction I think because I know she only wants money and it isn't real love but I find that I miss her and can't stop thinking about her.
matter of fact, I was just thinking maybe for Christmas instead of spending it alone talking to my sister on the phone up (also abandoned but she turned to food and working as an accountant to cope which is strange because I turned to sex and finance to cope).
My life was gray before her. It had a lot of color with her (sex, drama, fun, laughter, anger, joy) and now it is back to a colorless gray and even darker than before. Thinking of hanging myself with a climbing rope I have.
so stop now if you can. you are on a road to hell.

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I don't have the original links. I've been fucking whores for like 15 years - i was abandoned as a child and so have some attachment issues and this is the first time I've ever gotten emotionally close to one out of the hundreds I've slept with. I have a therapist in Switzerland that I pay $700 an hour to help me figure out my abandonment issues on telephone calls. He's a total waste of money and I spend $15K a year on that asshole.
This girl was a lot of fun but honestly, i couldn't get past her body count and her lack of taking her life seriously. She really was like a little child; easily distracted, liked new toys, liked eating well, and having fun.
Then I made the mistake of looking at her passport stamps and they werelike a world tour of whoredom visas (istanbul, dubai, Israel, Beijing) she's probably been fucked by a few thousand dudes and then taking her to the gynecologist...I was like shitting bricks waiting for the doc to tell me she had HIV or something.
Anyway, it was an interesting experience and not sure I want to repeat it...but I like the harem idea and inking out deals with the girls: x$*yMon=the deal.