/biz/ - Business & Finance

FUCK I suck so bad

>start shorting market early october
>it works
>think it's done and reluctantly buy the dip even though everything is still bearish
>keeps crashing
>bought 3x FNGD bear etf last friday
>sold it this morning at 5% loss thinking it was gonna rally
>market dumps into the close

How do I stop questioning my decisions

>age 15-17
>parking lot attendant
>$10.00/h

>age 18
>food prep
>$9.50/h

>age 18-19
>grocery store clerk
>$9.50/h

>age 20
>NEET
>$0/h

>age 20-22
>warehouse worker
>$18/h

>age 22-24
>go to tech school
>graduate and can't find a job because the oil industry is kill

>age 24
>laborer at hazardous waste company
>$18/h
>job is insecure because it depends on the oil industry

I'm a failure and my life is going nowhere

My parents are literally retarded. They took a large loan against the house from a door to door salesman. The house is so shitty that pipes freeze and the water is brown. The loan they got is unplayable and has like some fucked up interest rate making it so it never goes down you just pay it forever. All the windows are made of wood and let the air in from outside like it's not even there. We live in a place with -45 degree wind chill.

Please...Please tell me these retards will go to hell for this life they gave me. Please tell me there's suffering in store for them.