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>>54389915
>Defeatism

I don't drink or do drugs and been cutting down on cigs heavily and try to work out every other day and eating healthy but I still just feel like shit.
I physically can't get up in the morning, and even if I have nothing to do on a given day my heartrate hangs around 110 bpm.

I just want my energy back.
I have ambition but at this point it's more of a parasite than a virtue. If I could at least go a week without thinking about killing myself I would be unstoppable.
I hate life and the only way to escape it is an ungodly amount of money or a bullet to the dome.