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I've had several bouts of "neetism" in my adult life. In between them I managed to: get my first apartment for about 8 months with a girlfriend, move to different states and countries, be gainfully employed with a salary and benefits, etc.

However, between these short flings with normal adult life, I tend to become extremely overwhelmed and potentially at risk of harm to myself (from the opinions of those observing, apparently), which results in my mom either getting me locked up in a mental institution or demanding I come home and recover.

The only problem is this last recovery period doesn't seem to be ending. I got summoned back home because I was going off the rails in Europe near the start of covid, and after arriving home I started destroying my digital life. I became very paranoid about being surveilled and stopped using phones, deleted my linkedin, deleted facebook, etc. I wanted to see if I could 'digitally die' in lieu of actually jumping in front of a train.

Now I am coming out of the fugue, but my social credit score is fucked. I was very antivax and was basically expecting to be put in camps for dissenting. The few friends who still are able to get a hold of me don't. I have no license, and only go out at night to take short walks.

I seem unwell enough to get gibs, but I don't want handouts and I think psychologically getting paid because "you can't deal with life" sounds retarded. I'd rather just be homeless and steal food or whatever directly from businesses that can afford it than take it from taxpayers.

I'll keep applying for jobs I guess, but I think I'm actually blacklisted from society now in some way. I was told that when communist-painted fascists take over, they get even the mothers to sell out their radical sons, so maybe this won't last too much longer. Just put me in the camps, I'm not going to magically start complying.

t.> your friendly neighborhood product of society