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>>55512128
>t. jealous because doesn't have three birthmarks in the shape of a triangle on his wrist

listen man i don't dispute the fact that i'm a huge loser, otherwise i wouldn't be on 4chan at 2:37am.

my whole life up to this point has been a series of fuckups and failures to follow through on my promises, and there's nothing to suggest that pattern will change in any meaningful way. unless some major disruptions to society occur, and something crazy like XRP going to $5+ happens, my life will probably continue to be pretty depressing and disappointing.

more troubling is the fact that i tick most of the boxes for schizotypal or schizoaffective disorder with some bipolar characteristic. i've literally gone doctor shopping for a diagnosis, unsuccessfully trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with my head. i've now been to three licensed diagnosticians and been tested for schizo disorders, bipolar, depression, adult ADHD, autism. i'm actually pissed that not a single one came up positive. my results for every single test were sub-clinical except for seasonal affective disorder, and one doctor saying that i exhibited signs of trauma with possible post-hypnotic suggestion or dissociation.

as you guys pointed out, this GATE kid starseed stuff is 99% wish fulfillment bullshit expertly tailor made for people like me. textbook delusions of grandeur and persecution. there are a lot of people like me on 4chan apparently. even before they cranked up the chatbots on /pol/ to 11, every GATE thread would hit bump limit.

but like. i really was in those weird ass classes where they did guided meditation exercises and made us plan future societies and tested how we responded to authority. i really was sent to special tests at my local university's education department. i really have had a bunch of weird situations in my life that i can't explain, from elementary school onward. and my life has only gotten weirder since then.

so, that's why i say "probably"