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>>54161683
>>54161858
>>54161929
No worries man. I hear you loud and clear.

There's a reason why I called it "stage 2" for me. At first it was height, sucked pretty bad and you know the who whole spiel. But the greatest thing that came out of it was, I questioned my insecurity and realized that I had depended too much on other's approving me. I never actually thought for a moment if I approved myself. In a weird way when I started looking at myself as a different person it felt a lot more clear.

It's easy, and provides false warmth to hate yourself and others from the qualms your in. To go down a path of negativity and fill it to fight against the feeling of how unfair the world is. But I honestly can't change how other people think, I don't know why I make such an effort to cry about it.

When I saw damage I was doing, when I saw my younger self and saw what he dreamt of when he would get older; what would he think of seeing me now? The moment I realized that, I felt so much guilt; never felt any guilt like that in my life. I couldn't do that... I couldn't do that to me. I felt bad for me for the very first time.

Before that, I was trying to appeal to people that didn't exist, imaginary barriers I made in my head. I was just fighting myself. This all sounds like some normie shit, I don't really care. I realized I needed to do things for ME, to do what I needed for me. The one person I could depend on was not fulfilling the generic trope of romantic epitome and euphoria, but to just be comfortable in my own skin. As long as I wasn't hurting anybody or myself, how was it bad for me to pursue what's good for me?

I picked up a skill, I focused on it. I knew I was doing it for me, not for anyone else. And when I felt happiness, when I could sleep at night knowing I did what I could. FOMO became a lot more distant, still there, but I was and am healing. It's a good feeling man.

It's just the self-image, that's all. Perhaps I will get even stronger this time.

>>52908341
>2018
>5 years ago

>>52906963
very, very seldom that I get emotional on this website. this was one of those moments brah, i'm ready to get the trolls to respond to me to try and trigger you and I; but it doesn't matter, it would be endearing even in a morbid way.

do what you can, sleep at night knowing you did what you could. you have time, nothing wrong with starting from scratch.

>>52905343
ok im relieved. because i wasn't trolling, i was utterly conscious and serious and the fact that you think i was shows that you're senile. im sorry.

the one day I don't fomo(into cosm) and it keeps pumping

>>52888420
>Jun 14, 2019
That's it, I'm moving on. I'm gonna buy a new computer with these funds and change my life for the better. Goodbye linkers.

>>52874839
> I was lucky someone crashed into mine

>>52848734
find another question to sully, you evil rat

Find another market to sully, you evil coward