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Im turning 24 yo. Up until 17yo I just coasted through life with complete parental neglect.
Over the years I got diagnosed with ADD, but I also have very hard social anxiety and OCD

I refused to be medicated and realized I can basically alleviate 90% of my symptoms by working a sales job even tough I suck at it
This allowed me to talk with girls, etc..
Basically I realized I can create realities for myself and bend it after my will. I imagine I will sooner or later end up being intimate with a girl, talking and being in physical proximity with them. I play this through with my head and it loses a lot of the appeal. Because I achieved other things, and none registered with me positively for a longer time
I thought money would make me fulfilled. I made $150,000 and lost it all again. I outgrew the need to drive around in supercars at 22.

What is there out there? Never in my life I couldn’t imagine planning for more than 1 year. I can’t imagine being 34 yo or 44 year old…

Im 23yo and today I had an conversation with a girl

She wasn’t bitchy at all and actually genuine nice. We just talked like humans. I felt nothing tough.
For 5 years the only dopamine I get is pitying myself in seeing girls like an abstract concept and labeling them as a Roasties

I want to feel fulfillment talking and pursuing girls in real life
And not feeding the incel self fulfilling prophecy anymore

I need 1-1 instructions

18 months ago I sat in a psych’s office and she wanted to make further test regarding suspecting Autism spectrum disorder

This Friday I sat in a sales call with a prospect and out of nowhere 5 other stranger decision makers joined I weren’t prepared for. I was unusually very aloof and made them laugh and closed all of them

I still haven’t talked or texted with a girl in my life. All I want to be is, being in peace with myself. I literally hate myself and don’t think I am worth to find anyone. I have severe depression and don’t want to live further, i

I will turn 24 yo this year and I spent the last decade in anhedonia
I moved out 3 years ago (since then dreading loneliness), have a job, I don’t care about my portfolio anymore

I just want to not be so hard on myself, that’s all. Nothing else

>Go on the first date in my life
>Look a lot on the floor to offset eye contact
>Girl said she enjoyed it

I’m the same way with male coworkers but they tolerate it, will girls to, or am I fucked

My car is worth about $9000.
I crashed it into a barrier and there is a huge scratch on both of the right side doors. Also the suspension took a hit, it’s still driveable

I don’t have the money to fix it, as I lost all my money on crypto. Should I just sell it for 3-4k?

I feel so suicidal about my crypto losses. I am literally starving. And could have made it last year

I’m a 23 yo Incel with $15k in Chainlink. Do I have to wait years to be a 26yo incel with $300k?

I feel so scammed guys. 2017 is 5 years ago. My youth is gone and I spend it on drinking 4chans kook aid and I am poor again.

I feel like roping, I literally ruined my life and can’t go off the ride

Should I just start with therapy?
I am depressed when I wake up at morning’s. I am miserable thinking about driving to the store and stocking up on groceries, so I won’t lose my gains. I am miserable when I am leaving the gym.
All of these are depressing solitude things you are supposed to do over and over again, and it supposed to fix you

> go on first date in my life as a 23 yo virgin
> my social skills are the best they ever were
> she is somewhat distant but reciprocating
> ask her questions about her work/study, she engages and is positively surprised by my interest
> still distant, shows no signs that I can escalate
> tells me she really enjoyed the date before we split
> get ghosted

I will never be able to fake it till you make it if I am broken inside right?
I just have a low affect personality, get told by coworkers etc that they like me but that’s it

I have no self worth, dissociated personality and can’t register any kind of progress

I don’t have time or money to go to therapy. And I even heard it’s a bad investment that won’t fix any of it

Should I just accept that I am failed misfit that will never get a gf? I am to boring to develop a drug addiction

Can you still make it as a 23 yo kiss less, hand hold less, date less, Text less, call less?
I feel nothing and I’m desensitized. I am the most functional in normie terms I ever was but it feels all like a blur, I force myself to do

Can I still make it as a person? Can I get a loving gf? Can I make up for all of it? Will I look hopeful in he future again?

Is it just over for me?
Spend my teens and early 20s as a hermit trading shitcoins.

Now I got a job and can talk to people, but I still don’t have game. Still sitting my freetime in my room.
Given everything is so transactional and no guidance anywhere, am I fucked? Lost my ways to get socialized like other kids, now the Train left and that’s it?

I’m a 22 yo KHHV and got setup with a girl that initially showed interest in me and not another way around

She ghosted me. Girls hate inexperience right ?