/biz/ - Business & Finance

When you guys fuck up at a job what do you do? Do you apologize profusely or do you act indifferent? I accidentally forgot to give a customer their bags and the store closed so I put the items away and the next day the customer came back and told my manager that I was the one who ringed them up. My manager came up to me and told me what the man was telling her. He was staring at me with his arms folded and my manager was looking at me with a look of great annoyance. I quickly mumbled how I actually left the items up at the head register and my manager walked over to the register with the customer and in that very instance I bolted for the door. I just ran and kept running. That was a month ago and since then I've just spent my last check getting high all day on weed and gooning(10+ times a day).

Heres the thing though, I've played out this exact scenario multiple times. I fuck up, my boss talks to me in a low tone and I run away. I have a diary I've written in on or off through the years and this is one of the major patterns I've now noticed. When I was 16(24 now) I first ran away from work when my boss told me I was going to be written up because I messed up at a task for the umpteenth time. I said "okay sir" and then ran out the fire exit and hid in an IHOP. I don't know what's my issue /biz/. What should I do? My mojo and confidence is back and I've started applying for jobs again and put down the weed(although I am still gooning 10+ times a day which is a big increase from my usual 3-5 but I think this might be due to /pol/ schizo covid graphene reasons that are not relevant to the discussion)

Anyways, how can I stop this? I'm never going to get a wife if I can't handle a little pushback. I've always been a cuck to authority. My dad used to beat me and my brother severely and we always would say yes to him no matter what it was because we were scared a "no" would upset him. But while I know how I got my start on this road I don't know how to get off.