/biz/ - Business & Finance

Oh god is this all I'm going to get. I'm trying to study to get in to school of economics, but I just don't have a fucking motivation. I'm 24yrs old and if I'd get in I'd study for 5yrs before getting the economic title, there would ofcourse be work w/ studying but I just don't see the carrot in any of this.

I should realy be making money and not reading books for the fuck sakes. I really 'envy' people that are in the special forces, an intelligence agent, guys like Paul Le Roux. They are literally living the life in its fullest, doing stuff that 99% of people will never do in their life.
I wan't to be in the shadow realm that operates right beside our normal, dull life. I just don't feel like living. All the normal stuff does not interest me and the older I get the thrill goes away from everything I once found exciting as a teenager. I'm a true sheep for fuck sakes. I don't even drink & use drugs because the glow is gone and usualy when I drink I just binge and find myself in odd places with odd things. I do contact sports for now, which I like really much, but I need my excitement fix. Its like I have been running in cold blood for so many years and my heartbeat is just flat god damn it I want it pumping. I get no joy of having sex, it was once fun to stuff your dick in a roastie but now it feels like peepee poopoo and eating.

What to do /biz/? Anyone having similar problems in life? If I make it someday I will propably just adventrue around the world & propably end up raped & dead in Yemen or something similar stupid as fuck.

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Has someone actually loaned money from the mafia to buy potcoin? them keks for that anon

cmon faggots send me 1 ETH 0x09aa8ffd248deb055336127e9bb98af3e0347ec0