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I just want a cute, easygoing, fun to be around, socially anxious girlwife who is kinky and who lazes around a lot and doesn't want to go out but is also low emotional maintenance and not riddled with horrible mental illnesses that makes them unstable and impossible to live with. But it just seems impossible. Anyone remotely cute is going to have been at the bare minimum ruined by endless positive male attention on social media that makes them feel entitled to Chad's cock, and that's if they haven't already been passed around a hundred times... If someone like this exists, she is only preserved by virtue of rejecting society and its vices, and there's no way I could find her unless I randomly break into houses. She's probably a NEET rotting in her parent's room hiding her sex and playing video games with a voice changer to avoid simps.

How do I cope with the fact that the only chance I had to find her was when I was in school? This is the final time these types can be found in public. There was this weird short quiet girl in middle school who wore a tail sometimes for some reason and never talked to anybody and I still think about her all the time. Aside from being socially avoidant I noticed no major mental anomalies in her. She could have been the one, but I never approached her. It's just over. It's so over. I have to settle for used up oversocialized whores or die alone now. I'm likely opting for the latter.

All I do is ruminate on the weekends. Please Moloch or whoever the jews worship, open the markets 24/7 so I can stay forever distracted from this shit until the day I finally have a heart attack while brushing my teeth and die on the bathroom floor, turning into a blackened pile of human spaghetti over the course of 3 weeks before a neighbor finally notices the smell and calls authorities and they spray my remains into a bucket with a pressure washer bleach and water mix.

Optional but I'd also like her to have a big bush, hairy armpits, and be stinky...!