/biz/ - Business & Finance

Ok, /biz/, help me kill myself.

I started trading in 2017 with over 200 BTC that I had accumulated years ago from mining, buying drugs, and the like. I stopped using them and let them sit after the original Silk Road got shut down and then the market run in 2013. I just left them alone for the technology to mature. I was also paranoid af about what data the FBI might have on me, so I wanted to hide my coins away. So I just left them alone and stopped paying attention for awhile.

Then when I tuned back in a year ago and saw everything that was going on, the thought of being able to retire in my 20s got me into trading. I missed Ethereum because I heard it was slow, but I bought Sia because it had a use case. This was the first in a long line of Bad Decisions. I fell for Digibyte and Ripple. I lost so much in August. I got paranoid about the BCH hard fork and sold most of my BTC holdings below $2000 and then bought back in over $4000 when I saw it would be okay.

I fell hard for ChainLink. You told me it was the future of crypto. I had sustained so many losses on shitty, emotional trades, which I decided happened because I didn't get in early enough and fell for hype instead. And when I heard about ChainLink, I thought, finally, I found my ICO. So I put everything into it. I maxed out on the ICO amount and then bought everything that I could when it hit the markets. I was below 10 BTC at this point (yes, really) but I knew this was finally my ticket to the Moon. It initially started to go down, and I didn't want to get upset again, so again I just stopped looking at crypto. It was a long-term hodl.

I have had so many of my friends and family ask me how I'm doing now that Bitcoin hit $10,000, and I didn't want to say anything because no one knows how much I had lost in my trades this year. So I would smile and laugh and say everything is great, and not tell them.

I just looked at Link for the first time, and I have decided to kill myself. How should I do it /biz/?