It's fucking over guys.
Long story short:
>started trading in 2015 with 2000€.
>had around 300,000€ at my peak, didn't cash out like the Idiot I was
>placed some really dumb shorts and longs in the past few months
>had around 9,000€ a few days ago.
>now down to 3,400€
I literally had 300k at some point. Now I am at 3.4k.
What should I do? I just want to kill myself.