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28 Boomer
Drugs.. half my life... sometimes on...sometimes off....
Realize when i'm off, why i was on them. When i'm on them.... realize why i was off them. There is no middle ground, haven't had a truely pleasureable happy, warm in the stomach feel in 18 years. Work as front desk at a nice hotel, rich guests come and go. Many roasties that look good
>So miserable with myself and my 3 hour sleep nights that i can't even fake being semi normie anymore
They probably think i'm creepy and awkward
JUST

>>10653263
There is hope fren, where are you located?
I'm a 28 year old boomer, who dropped out of college numerous times. Have done drugs on and off for 14 years (mainly on)
Lots of issues with depression and anxiety, and hated life since teen years.
But i'm still pushing on, i feel like those of us that suffer like this have a high chance of pay off in the future. If we stick through it and continue trying to move foward.

Right now i got placed in a pretty comfy job imo. 20/hr i sit at the front desk of a hotel / upscale apartment.
I watch youtube and trade crypto most my shifts, occassionally letting ppl in the front door or delivery drivers up/check in guests.

The cool part is there are plenty of cute girls who visit often, and some that are residents. I pick up on them flirting with me sometimes even though I am autsitic. I just practice talking to them, but if i had good social skills i am 100% sure i could get laid.

Little things like this keep me going, my life is still sucks but we can't end it

You see...making it isn't becoming a millionaire, that won't bring true happiness. Making it is fixing a few things on my body so I can return to being a Chad like I once was as a youngster. There is no feeling in the world like having girls naturally like and want you purely off aesthetic looks and pure personality. Fucking whores is shallow and fake, a basic hit to your dopamine system that leaves you empty in the end. But walking down the street and getting stared at by dreamy eyed teen girls is a comfy feel some of you will sadly never had. Think of it as butterfly's in your stomach that gives you a pure feeling of earthly love.

I've done loads of drugs...actually everything you can think of. And although I've had some blissful feelings I'd take what I described over drugs.

>t. Popular Chad until Highschool
>complete Just in all aspects of life from then on

Any anons with a similar view or experience?

>>10216477
these autists don't know the feel
They've never had it
Chads... live the absolute best lives
Making it to me is not money, it's being able to live off my income but mainly having looks girls want. NO better feeling in the world than meeting a new girl and having her stare at you with a smirk and sparkly eyes.
You can feel the sexual energy, FUCK YOU BETAS WHO SAY LOOKS ARENT IMPORTANT

>>10117541
If you make it.... i'll offer the thots
Just supply the alcohol and drugs for the night, and it's over with. We will get laid 100%

>>9897026
This is quite true anon... and i deal with the same issue. (which is why i pile narcotics and chemicals in my body because it is the only thing that makes me semi happy)
If you sit around and think like this though , you are doomed for failure.
I envy those happy go lucky fags that are always happy but i'm sure they have busy productive lives doing things they love.
Find this, and you win

>>3982417
>Complaining about not finding any hot women in a slavic country
>You gay?

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