/biz/ - Business & Finance

>>50678030
>I started with 1 cent and now have a bit over $5.

Another weekend gone. So much promise on Friday evening. It was sunny and hot and sunset wasn't until after 9 pm.

Saturday morning was so comfy and work seemed a million miles away. I went to the gym on Saturday evening and lifted heavy weights and the gym was so empty. Saturday evening always feels so great, even though I spend it alone every single time, doing nothing in particular.

I filled Sunday morning and early afternoon with chores but the thought of wagecuckery loomed large. I had a mild existential crisis from 4 pm to 7 pm when I realised how disgustingly ugly I am and how my life is so hard as a result. I went for an aimless walk on Sunday evening and then had another fast food binge and then listened to music until now, 12:23 am.

The cold light of day on Monday morning. Having nothing interesting to say when coworkers ask what I did. Finishing work and having nothing to do and having the full week ahead.

>>49967569
I dont know anything

>finished work yesterday at 5 pm
>went home
>wasted time online
>went for walk at around 8-9 pm
>bought junk food but didn't eat any of it
>went to gym at 10 pm for first time in over a week
>heavy lifting went well
>slept for 7.5 hours, went to work
>work is starting to feel more boring than it used to
>finish work
>weigh self: at lowest weight for many weeks because I went to the gym and didn't binge yesterday
>had one final junk food binge
>now feeling tired and fat

I'm feeling quite fat during normal periods of the day. I need to be at least 15 kg lighter than I am now. I feel disgusting.

>be me
>was will and low energy on Thursday
>worked from home and wasted so much time
>too ill to go to gym
>mindlessly browsed internet for 3.5 hours on phone in bed after work
>went for a walk in the bright evening while listening to the newest podcast with Moldbug on it; normally would've felt good but I felt ill
>bought some new binge food (including supermarket own brand ice cream that is kino) but I didn't have the appetite to finish it
>felt fat and disgusting; threw away my pepsi max as well as the remaining junk food
>woke up too early on Friday; worked from home
>illness plus even a slight lack of sleep made me really tired; had a 30 minute nap at lunch time, when my eyelids felt like concrete
>finished work
>mindlessly browse internet for hours
>randomly decide to order pizzas (never done it before); costs too much but it's a new experience so whatever
>eat around half of it (illness has reduced appetite)
>waste rest of evening, sleep at 11 pm
>woke up on Saturday morning at 5 or 6, browse internet on phone a bit, sleep more until 10.30
>did chores
>mindlessly browsed internet
>feeling good enough for a patented Saturday walk, maybe even the gym

At least the illness has caused me to lose weight because of a reduced appetite.

I'm feeling sad about all that being an ugly beta loser stuff. I'd write a bit more about it but I've already written too much.