/biz/ - Business & Finance

>be 19
>about to apply to uni for spring and paying all in my own loans i'm about to take out, no father so special snowflake
>grandfather just died
> 3rd generation in owning two different huge auto businesses on the northeast side of the US, new england mostly
>sucks, he was really cool, 3rd generation from Italy
>go to the court and the executor tells us the will bullshit
>my mom is really excited which made me angry
>she received his 2012 Lexus SUV
>shits her pants and now i'm even angrier
>don't even want to fucking be there
>first dude in my life that died who I cared about
>sister gets two necklaces, a bracelet, and a million fucking rings holy shit dude
>also shitting her pants
>she didn't even know the dude and he just gave her thousands of dollars worth of fucking jewelry
>gets to me and I wasn't expecting anything special, maybe a heirloom or something for the males to pass down
>everyone but me is told to leave the room out of his request
>my mind starts racing and i get lightheaded for some reason, that happens all of the time out of anxiety, probably a developing brain tumor or aneurysm
>was getting very scared and confused and I didn't like what was happening
>He has left me, very specifically to me, all of his 'liquid assets'(?) at 71.5 million US dollars along with all of his 6 properties in the New England and British Columbia areas, his stakes in the auto wrecking business, his 60 foot 'yacht'(wouldn't really call it that), and his 15 cars (i saved the ones that were circled onto my flip phone: 1967 Jaguar 4.2(?), 1993 Ford F-150, 1963, 1970, and 1990 Corvettes, 1954 Mercedes 300SI, 1988 Porsche 911 3.2, 2001 Mercedes Benz G500)
>I kept grinding my teeth and felt like i just drank a cup of coffee on the entire way home
>i'm now re-thinking my life right before applying to universities for electrical engineering

You know that feel when other people are feeling jealous of you because they're cunts? That feel is my current feel.

Should I suck it up and go to community college for two years, deal with my fucking cancer of a family, get a 4.0, then transfer with a scholarship to some really good university or should I bite the bullet and get $25K of loans every year to go to some average uni far away? I have a GED, below 600 on each SAT section, and GPA below a 3.0.

I'm pumped /biz/, and I'm ready to fuck shit up, academically. My 9th grade self would kick me in the nuts if he saw my scores and where I am now. This isn't what I wanted. I'm ready and willing to take this in another direction.